> > Hello God,
> > I called tonight
> > To talk a little while
> > I need a friend who'll listen
> > To my anxiety and trial.
> >
> > You see, I can't quite make it
> > Through a day just on my own...
> > I need your love to guide me,
> > So I'll never feel alone.
> >
> > I want to ask you please to keep
> > My family safe and sound.
> > Come and fill their lives with confidence
> > For whatever fate they're bound.
> >
> > Give me faith, dear God, to face
> > Each hour throughout the day,
> > And not to worry over things
> > I can't change in any way.
> >
> > I thank you God for being home
> > And listening to my call,
> > For giving me such good advice
> > When I stumble and fall.
> >
> > Your number, God, is the only one
> > That answers every time.
> > I never get a busy signal,
> > Never had to pay a dime.
> >
> > So thank you, God, for listening
> > To my troubles and my sorrow.
> > Good night, God, I love You too,
> > And I'll call again tomorrow!

Christmas spirit....

Christmas was good. Up until a few minutes ago when i got an interesting phone call from someones 5th annual *cough* So these three extremely bored people decide to get on my sn. Obviously, everyone is eating Christmas dinner and all the away messages are on. So, these punks are SO bored that they're reading through all the infos. They come across someones with a "crush calculator" and apparently it's suppose to calculate your compatability with several other ppls. So they make up a name for me *shakes head* and insert the name of three boys. Instead of getting a compatability, they discover that it's a trick. So now, the person they got the calculator off of, knows my crushes. A pretty ironic person i might add. But anyhow, thanks guys for the wonderful Christmas gift. I love you too.

Today was a great day. Had dim sum this morning and ran into Michelle and her family. =) When I got home, my family had nap time. Woke up and started cleaning my room, which i'm taking a break from right now. Dinner around the table was really awesome. Then i started cleaning my desk, and cleaning my room. (both yet to be finished), and sorta worked on my final college essay (which i will finish any minute now). My family started watching Pirates of the Caribbean =) buut... for the lack of appreciation on their part, they decided to go to bed and watch it tomorrow. but before my mom left for sleep.....

mom: (referring to Orlando Bloom) Why does that guy look so familiar?
me: from lotr
dad: ohh yeah, legoman
me: yeah... he was blonde in that movie
mom: oh... blonde? i like blonde guys...no wonder he looks so familiar, what a handsome young man.

i was anxiously waiting for her to comment on Johnny Depp....but it never came. But i strongly believe that by the end of the movie... that'll all change. okay.. my room and essay call....

my Reason....my Freedom....the Reason for the season.....that's what You are to me....

seems like everyone was up early this morning. I fell asleep at 10 last night and awoke to my sister pulling the blankets off my bed yelling in my ear, "hey gah jie!!! Where's my present?!?!?!?" So it took me about 30 minutes to get out of bed and deliver gifts. The family was estatic and it was happy times. =) I'm really thankful for all of the gifts I got this year and i like every one of them oober much. But it really is the thought that counts. Dontcha just get this warm fuzzy feeling inside to know that people out there took the time out to think of you and get you a gift? I dunno about you, but suddenly i feel warmer already. Thanks everyone! ^_^

I've been a Christian a little over 8 years and I dont think the depth of Christ's sacrifice has ever hit me completely. Only in recent months have I come to understand a little of just how amazing God's love is. I remember praying to understand what it meant that God loves me, and God answered my prayer. That prayer actually took several years, but when it was answered, words couldnt describe the understanding and the feeling i got. For many years, I've prayed to grasp the depth of the meaning of Christmas. I honestly dont think Christmas hits me the way it can. Just thinking that God sent His only son to step down from His glory to come to earth, is truly out of this world. Everytime i think about Christmas, I get really confused. I'm just so overcome with shock that an almighty God came to earth for one purpose: He lived to die. whoa.

I still remember the day i got baptized. I had planned to say something deep and meaningful, but no words came out of my mouth except John 3:16
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
Do you ever question if there's "more to life than chasing down every temporary high?" Well, there is. As i've mentioned before, I believe that everyone is built with a God-shaped hole, a void you might say, that only God can fill. (hence the name) And if you dont feel like your life is completely fulfilling, it's probably because you havent let Him jump into that hole.
"I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." John 10:10

May your holiday season be fulfilling; and may that void in your life be filled with something that will satisfy you for eternity. Merry Christmas =)

i want to get away... i want to fly away.....

winter getaway was really awesome. Although, I felt like I slept through most of it, God really allowed this whole getting away and experiencing God weekend fall at the right time. Sometimes you just need to get away from the busy life and the day-to-day world you live in and breathe a little. I definitely got to do some breathing these past few days.
It's funny how the past several months God has really been revealing to me a lot of what Grace shared at WG. I love God because He meets us where we are in every situation in our lives and He knows exactly what we need to do to free ourselves from the burdens of this world. He demonstrates to us through his control over our lives that he is one deserving of our trust. He knows how to handle our problems in the most affective manner, so that we can completely surrender all that we struggle. God doesnt ask much of us, He only asks that we come to him in obedience.

God's requests are so simple, yet at the same time they're so difficult to achieve. I guess that's why our praise is so much louder once we overcome. I believe that the feeling of being able to free your heart is one of the most amazing things in the world-- one that i thirst for. I want a heart that finds complete satisfaction in having a relationship with God. I want a heart that knows, not just in my mind, that He is enough for me. A wise woman once told me to pray for three things in my life:
1. To desire God more
2. To know God more
3. To love God more.
praying about these three things will lead me to a life fully content in God and God alone.

it only seems like i dont know wuts going on......

first semester of senior year, last semester of high school is over? Oh yeah.

So i called my doc's office today (finally) and her receptionist asked me how old i was, and saying "I'm 18" was a pretty automatic answer.....creepy.

this week was good. a bittersweet feeling that it's over. so got out at 9:30 and matrix Revolutions is not in theaters around here anymore, so Jeremy, Jeff, and I bummed at the Grind and saw BEA! then lunched out again with jeff, jeremy, fred, stefi, and koon. went to family christian bookstore and ran into mrs. fong!!! who gave me a coupon! she rocks. (not cuz the coupon. just cuz she's always so awesome.) and then......Thanx this guy and that guy for the Illuminate CD!!!!! =DDD I think my year is complete now. =) and way to be stealthy about it too.

chilled with Carolyn and picked out sets for wintergetaway worship. IT was so awesome. We were praying for the spirit to lead us as we picked songs, and we basically came up with the same songs and we also thought of the same order to sing them in......PTL! then went christmas shopping, and forgot where i parked. scared a dude cuz i looked so lost in the dark. Maybe cuz i was in a rush so i forgot to remember excatly where i parked.

went to debs ate pizza watched 2 towers. Then the girls and I met up with fred to watch Return of the King. Oober long and oober good. Weirdest movie experience of my life. Ringing cells, chain reaction coughs, and daddy chew out cussy things in front of his 8 yr old son to meanie boys. strangeness......and the 1209734293 endings to the movie! ahhh... nutso.

then i called Diane to wish her a happy bday (post dedication to come) and we got caught up with each others' lives, and realized how long we havent talked to each other. Man.... i miss my girls so much! If the road trip goes through.... I'm gonna be one hecka happy camper.

whoa.. crazy day ahead tomorrow...cant wait... sleep now talk later. peace

they say the neon lights are bright on broadway........

So tomorrow is my last exam of high school *knock on wood* and i've completely lost the will to study. But as jason chow constantly reminds me, school is my job and the task which God has graciously provided for me at this point in my life. School and studying is what God wants me to work at now, but at the same time giving Him the glory in all that i do.

"so whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God." 1 Corinthians 10:31

this past week has been pretty relaxing. ironic isnt it? Initially, i thought maybe it's because I dont really care anymore. Grades just arent the big waahoo that it use to be. But then i realized what it really is. It's "the peace of God which transcends all understanding." I think i might have even forgotten to ask God for peace, but he knew i needed it and gave it to me, for free! Who says there's no free lunch?

That reminds me of the song Blessed Be Your Name. The part of the song that says "You give and take away." I have found that when you hold something too close to you heart, God will find a way to take it from you because he knows that that's what's best. Then when you become fully content with not having what you once held dear, God gives it back to you. God's timing is perfect.

man... i have this dying urge to go running. If i dont run soon, I think I'm gonna bust. This Christmas break I'm gonna go running lots! (well for the times that i'll be home anyways). Running in the morning, and in the afternoon. Running in the evening and underneath the mooon. AAnnnnd tomorrow is Friday! Annnd i need to go Christmas shopping!

I need to go study. Ohhh.. one last thing. So since i've been having to go to school earlier than usual, I've gotten the chance to say the flag salute (which is kewl..cuz i dont get to very often.) and i realized that I dont know the texas flag salute. All i know is "honor the texas flag" the end. What kind of state has it's own salute? Do all states do that? But getting to the point, I really like the moment of slience. Every morning right before the exam during the moment of slience, I pray and give that time to God. I pray that He will guide and give peace to all who take exams. And the best part about that is, I know He's listening.

ever tried praying during the moment of silence while every other kid in the class is busily cramming the last ounce of fact into their brains? that's in the category of "the kewlest feelings in the world"
peace and good luck examing!

How To Make Smart Decisions

By Rick Warren



Success is largely a matter of making wise choices. As F. W. Boreham said, "We make our decisions and then they make us." That's why every decision has an element of risk to it. We can't always predict the outcome. Are you dealing with any difficult decisions these days? Try following these eight steps for decision-making from the book of Proverbs in the Bible:

STEP 1: PRAY FOR GUIDANCE (Principle of Inspiration) - Start by asking God to help you see His perspective on the problem. Intuition is often wrong. "A man is foolish to trust only himself. But those who use GOD'S WISDOM are safe." Pr. 28:26 (LB)

STEP 2: GET THE FACTS! (Principle of Information) - Don't make decisions out of ignorance. Find out all you can first. "Every prudent man acts out of knowledge." Pr. 13:16 "How stupid to decide before knowing the facts" Pr. 18:13 (LB) "Get the facts at any price..." Pr. 23:23 (LB)

STEP 3: ASK FOR ADVICE (Consultation) - Talk to someone who has already taken the risk if possible. It's wise to learn from experience - but it is even wiser to learn from the experiences of others! That way you don't have to learn everything the hard way. "Get good advice and you will succeed." Pr. 20:18 (GN) "The intelligent man is always open to new ideas - in fact, he looks for them." Pr. 18: 15 (LB)

STEP 4: SET YOUR GOAL (Selection) - Be sure you understand the reason and purpose for the decision you're about to make. You can't chase two rabbits at the same time. "An intelligent person AIMS at wise actions, but a fool starts off in many directions." Pr. 17:24

STEP 5: COUNT THE COST (Evaluation) - This is called a "calculated risk.” Ask yourself (1) Is necessary? (2) What will it cost... in terms of time, energy, money? (3) Is it worth it? "It is a trap to dedicate something rashly, and only later to consider your vows." Pr. 20:25

STEP 6: PLAN FOR PROBLEMS (Preparation) - Remember Murphy’s Law - and he was an optimist! Don't ignore problems - they won't ignore you. So be prepared. "Don't go charging into battle without a plan." Pr.20: 18 (GN) "A sensible man watches for problems and prepared to meet them. The fool never looks ahead and suffers the consequences." Pr. 22:3 (LB)

STEP 7: FACE YOUR FEARS (Confrontation) - Fear is not a sign of weakness - it is a sign of your humanity. Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather it is moving ahead in spite of your fears. "Fear of man is a dangerous trap, but to trust in God means safety." Pr. 29:25 (LB)

STEP 8: GO FOR IT! (Initiation) - This is the point at which you must stop talking and start acting. You must begin. "Commit to the Lord whatever you do and your plans will succeed." Pr. 16:3

Getting into You.....

blah...that's wut my brain feels like.

I officially got my mom and sister hooked on honey nut chex mix. If you're not yet an addict, it's something you should definitely try. They're undeniably delicious.

Today, God answered my prayers. I think it's pretty amazing when you pray about something you have absolutely no control over, and you let Him take over, and He finds a solution to all your problems. Makes you realize how miniscule our problems are compared God's power. Did i already mention that God was a super kewl guy? Well, for the record, God's a really kewl guy.

Surprisingly, this week has been going by pretty quickly. Although, finals have not officially started for me yet, I'm glad i dont feel overbooked by studying. The grades I need to get in order to receive good grades in some of my classes are insanely high. Impossible? no.....attainable? with difficulty...... Doable? Definitely.....

so where am i off to? why studying of course. please keep the finals takers in your prayers. And if you're a final taker, saying a prayer before every final can most certainly be a peace-giver. and if you have time, please pray for my head. yes, it's still hurting. thanx a bunch. have a great week!!!

is your relationship with God so insecure that you would seek wisdom from man?

aaaaeeeeeiiiiiiooooooouuuuuu............

only one more week before winter break! There's still one more week before winter break?!?! Winter break begins soon! Not soon enough!

herm... too much college essay writing.... the blood is rushing from my head.

i shall post a short random entry.

i got the cutest piggy from auntie linda. it's terribly adorable and it even has my name on it. Does that mean she thinks i'm a pig? Actually, I'm an ox.

Got chased around by a buncha kid doggies today. My day is complete. Abby and Geselle are too cute. I wanna make like an alex and pinch them.

I decided I dont like equilibrium problems. When Ronnenkamp explains them in class, they make perfect sense. When i come home....i accomplish nothing but stare holes into my equilibrium papers.

left my chem binder at school. That means i need to wake up early to organize it. Yip.....EEE....Skip....EEE.....

Have a great week guys....and dont let finals bog you down.

"for physical training (maybe even mental?) is of some value, but godliness has value for both the present life and the life to come." 1 tim 4:8

When it seriously boils down to it.... grades is not life. When you've fought the fight and run the race...... leave it up to God..... your mind can only take so much studying.

(i have this hanging up in chinese calligraphy in my room)

"Do not be anxious about anything but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your heart and your minds in Christ Jesus." Phil 4:6-7

God is kewl all the time... all the time God is kewl.

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOO BEA =)

I met Bea when i was a sophomore and she was a junior. I remember we both sat in the same row in algebra 2. I remember her being a super nice person to me and jennifer. At that time both Jennifer and I were new at Clements, and you can just imagine what a torture school was. However, algebra 2 first semester was always pretty exciting cuz Bea always fueled the excitment....even when we didnt get what was going on in that class.

It was super awesome when Bea started going to fellowship and I got to see more of her and chill with her a little more. You can always sense when Bea's in the house cuz that's where the party is.

Something that i really admire about Bea is how she willing asks to be prayed for. It's so evident that she depends on God. She knows that He is enough for her and sufficient enough to carry all her burdens. Furthermore, she knows she has friends who will be prayer warriors for her.

Seeing her grow in Christ has been such an encouragment and I'm confident that God has amazing plans for her as she ventures off to UT next semester. I'll definitely miss seeing her at the Grind whenever i feel like dropping by, but I'm excited to see what a beautiful woman God will continually mold her into.

So Bea, here's to another year older *toast*.

Happy 19th Penn foo

My first memory of alex:

More than a year ago at fellowship, we were playing this game and i remember alex standing in front of everyone. He had his shirt tucked in his pants (Urkle style) and his pants tucked into his socks. His glasses were also resting at the tip of his nose. That was my first impression of him.

Other memories: watching the ring with him and seeing him getting lower and lower in his seat as the movie progressed. I also remember when he first got aim, he IMed everyone on his buddy list, which overwhelmed his two finger typing. Then there was building sand waffle fries with him and andrew at winter getway. I remember hearing him make loud and weird noises at the Vargos bathroom, and also when he drove me home at 70mph down commonwealth. the list goes on.....

So what can i say about alex? It's weird thinking that he's all the way up at penn. At least he can do his own laundry now and he showers and brushes his teeth once in a while too. In all seriousness, it's been both a kewl and strange experience being friends. When i think of alex yang, along with the initial head-scratching thoughts, I definitely see a fired up, seeking, man of God.
May you continue to live the purpose driven life in the next year. Happy Birthday!!! see you soon.

things could be a little different.......

quick post. So i just finished helping my sister with her "what's your tradition" poster for her class, and i also helped with her little speech. It's soo cute! I mean, can you just imagine: a little 7 yr old standing in front of her class with her hands behind her back talking about chinese new years and how we're not suppose to eat meat on the first day cuz chinese superstition says that it's bad luck? cute right? And i must say her poster is rocking. =)
When i arrived at school today, i noticed something different. I noticed that all the parking spaces along the bushes were parked full. usually there's this one car parked in the middle of the row and then the two spaces next to it are empty because there's two large blocks in the middle of the space. Thanks to Jeremy, Kevin, and I the blocks were pushed aside and now everyone that parks along that row is much happier. I think that made my day. Helping out fellow student parkers sure is fun.

Herm...my hair is getting really long. For the most part, i really dont like the maintenance that goes with long hair. The only reason i use to grow my hair really long was to have the thrill of chopping 8 inches off. What a high. Usually, when my hair gets to be about the length that it is now, the 8 inches goes chop. I thought though, that since I'm planning to grow my hair out, i might as well benefit those who need hair more than i do. So when i think of how much my long hair bothers me, I'll remember those cancer patients who dont have any hair to bug them. That is why I'm growing out my hair; so that perhaps this winter a child somewhere out there will have a head of hair to warm their head.

wow... the older i get, the more easily distracted i am... *sigh* so maybe i should try to make some sense out of calcumulus. OH OH OH I FOUND MY WOW 2000 cd =) (not in an abstract way... i found the actual cd.)
have a great friday <*_*>

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY STEENI =)

i've known Steeni for a while. She was the first person i met when i moved to Tri-Citites. I remember it vividly =) I walked into church that sunday, and the first person i met was Mrs. Nevala! and then... we walked into the fireside room. Then Steeni's mom said, "This is my daughter Christine. You can hang out with her so you dont get lost." hehehe.... i love her mom. So that was how your friendship began.

I remember one year i got a card from her that said something like, "Happy Birthday, did you think i forgot? Why... that would be like forgetting my own birthday!" So true... so true...heck we were only born 6 days apart, and i got to be the fortunate older one =) I dunno for some reason, when i think of her, the second thing that comes to mind is "swan style basketball". All those years of playing basketball at the chinese new years celebration....wow....and she's still a swan style pro. So you might be wondering, what is the first thing that comes to mind when i think of steeni. Well, i would have to say, the four musketeers. Wow... i still remember my initiation behind the folded up matress at was it.. F flat camp? It's been a while.

More than being a musketeer, i will always remember the bond that God has placed in our friendship. She has truely been a blessing in my life and along with my other two musketeers. These girls have taught me first hand what it's like to have a true, real, and authentic friendship. One of life's greatest blessings is having those kinds of friendships. No matter how long you've been apart or how far away from each other you are, once you meet again, you can pick up where u left off. I know that i can trust these girls with my life. I can be completely transparent with them i know that they will still love me for who i am. Not a day goes by that i dont thank God for them and for every single one of my friendships. After all, God is a God of relationships.

So Steeni, although i didnt get a chance to wish you a happy birthday in person, I wish you a year older full of blessings. May God continually mold you and shape you into a more beautiful woman in Christ. happy birthday!!!!!!!

No one like You.....

man... i just realized how much i like David Crowder's Illuminate cd. i wanna own it. i keep going back to this site where you only get to listen to the first 30 seconds, but even that is quite satisfying. I guess playing the guitar chords will suffice for now.

I composed a new ring tone! But, my Every Breath That I Take ring tone got deleted..*sigh*...im sad....T_T that is on my "favorite songs" list. Now, my new ring tone is Jian dan ai. or in canton it would be, gahn dahn oiy =)

Two of the worst feelings in the world are being hated and being a disappointment. It's not every day you go out looking to be hated...nor do you strive to be a disappointment. Life isnt fair, but what is?

At times our path is rough and steep,
Our way is hard to see;
We ask God, "Why is life unfair?"
He answers, "Follow Me."

Today, i got to do something i've never done before, tutor spanish. So after an entire summer and nearly a semester of no encounters will any real spanish (mabbe except that one time in Atlanta =P), I feel like i need to hone my skills. So im tutoring this freshman guy in spanish one, (who has Torano by the way) and i was surprised that i still sorta know how to conjugate stuff. Although, I'm not sure if i remember how to ask questions. All the stuff seemed extremely easy, but I wasnt sure if i was remembering right. Anyhow, it was actually sorta fun. It's kewl being a senior and having experienced what it's like to have Torano for a teacher and knowing what it's like to worry about YES hours (which i still do, but at least i dont have to do 125hrs).

So do you think it's true that your affinity for a teacher is a result of how well you do in a class?
alrighty, only a week left of the semester *shock* I just realized how little I'm going to be home this holiday season, it sorta makes me sad. Quality time with the family, can't live without it.

but that's okay..... life goes on......

I should definitely try to stick to a regular sleeping schedule. Last night i did that weird, go to sleep at 9pm wake up at 4am thingy. To say the least, it wasnt that pleasant, considering i had to go to this 7:00am snhs meeting to take a most pointless picture.... On the bright side, I did end up getting more sleep than i normally do. SEVEN hours!!! It's so wacky. When i finish my hw, then go to sleep, i get maybe a meager 5 hrs. But if i do none of it, sleep, then wake up to do it (though not completely thoroughly) Not only do i sleep more, but i think i accomplish more. Perhaps that may be due to the fact that there arent many distractions at 4 in the morning. so i'm updating this early to get one of my distractions out of the way in hopes that I can get some rest tonight.

So since the thanxgiving break, I've been warding off bad napping-in-the-afternoon-after-i-come-home-from school habits. Everything was all good until today. After the SATs on saturday, my head started pounding like no other. Saturday, I was completely beyond hyper.....Yesterday was alright, but i was super out of it during service. It was really distracting to have a bad headache at the back of your head, and the worse part was it hurt my head every time we started singing, but eventually I was able to praise. I guess since i slept sorta at odd hours last night, my headache didnt go away. I had to put my head down in every class just to stop it from pounding. weird... never had bad headaches before, am i sick?

So we're doing a scene from Hamlet for english. If you know me... you know that i love drama. If you knew me freshman year, you'd be utterly surprised that I was in drama. Shy and quiet didnt excatly blend with drama...but i never had stage fright. Being on stage was a different world, and i guess that somehow made me a different person. I always ended up playing all these weird roles....but that was the beauty of it, that's what made it so much fun. Somehow, acting for our Hamlet scene is slightly different. I'm not excatly sure what i think of it. I'm not excatly sure whether i actually enjoy it or not. It's super fuun when the youth team and i get to act for the kids during children's worship, which is probably the only real acting i get to do nowadays....but somehow, this whole Hamlet business isnt completely my thing. I'm actually slightly looking foward to ending this Hamlet stuff, can you imagine how confusing it is every time some ways, "i'm ophelia" and then i think to myself, "no... I'M Ophelia!"
anyhoo, i got a card from Jess today =) man.. miss her tons....she brings back SO many memories....of the wacky middle school days. but enough with the nostalgia.

If you've read thus far....I applaud you.....i totally forgot what i was gonna blog about...so this entry ended up being one of my super long meaningless meaderings. thanx for checking it out, until next time!

when we have shuffled off this mortal coil......

i suddenly forgot what i was planning to blog about, but it actually might have been something interesting.

Anyhow, today marks the end of my SAT taking career. After year of taking SATs....it's finally over. Right now, ive got this splitting headache....

herm.. so yesterday, took my sis to a bday party at chuck E. Cheese. The dude that was in the chuck E suit.... was walking. Then this cute little boy goes up and hugs him, and Chuck E pushes the kid onto the floor!!!!! yeah... i was pretty close to flipping out. My initial thought was, "if you dont like kids hugging you, get a new job." I really cant understand how someone who doesnt like kids, or cant tolerate their hugs, works at Chuck E cheeses.

But stopping for a moment to think.....God loves him. It's such a wild thought.....thinking that God can love the unlovable. Every time i sin, I'm like chuck E cheese.....God tries to embrace me...and i just push him down. But you know, God doesnt react the way i did. He would NEVER tell me to get a new job. In fact, God would prolly do what the little kid did after he got pushed. He would get back up, and follow me and try to hug me again.

Maybe, I was tired a while back, but I was thinking in analogies a few days back. I was just thinking how life is sort of like the movie Final Destination. Not that we try to defy death or anything like that. But the whole concept of looking for signs that prevent you from dying or getting hurt. Looking back on my life, I've come to realize that a lot of time, God gives me signs to stop me from making the mistakes that i do in my life. It's just, at the time, I'm usually too driven by emotion or a feeling that I'm in control of my life, that causes me to be blind to God's perfect plan for me. I think, to really let God reign in your life, you gotta learn to take captive every thought....make every action and decision very God-centered. so yeah... look out for those little signs that God reveals to you.

oiy.... gotta go rest my head. have a great day!!!! =)

Jesus...make me the Man that you want me to be...---> Newsboys

I suppose that song does have a dual meaning....for me anywayz =P So after somewhat (hehe.. fully) memorizing my Hamlet Sillioquy, i decided i couldnt let the first day of my eighteen-hood slip away without a post.

First off, I cant express how special everyone has made this day for me. I really thank my mom because she had this whole surprise bday thing for me....and a buncha awesome girls whom i absolutely adore showed up at my door....and i was utterly confused but if you know me...you know how much i love surprises and that i love my mom a million times that. So yeah... two things that i love went hand in hand today and wow.... i wish it was my 18th birthday everyday. I'm also thankful for my friends who wished me a happy birthday, gave me hug, and made me happy beyond words. While my sillilquy may be slowing oozing out of my brain now....i wont ever forget the day i turned 18. crap...that even sounds weird.

So today at the DPS when i renewed my license, the lady at the counter took one look at my old license and suddenly busted out in a rap version of "happy birthday to you....." It was pretty funny and neat....not every day the dps peeps sing to ya.

So reminiscing about the past eighteen years of my life....i remember the fond memories, the super people, my wonderful family, and most of all, my awesome God. When i think about God, i remember all that He has done for me. Each day he blesses me richly with SO much and i will never be able to express my gratitude. Not only am i happy for the good things in life, but I am most thankful for every challenge and obstacle God has placed in my life. The truth of the matter is, God knows me well, and through every tribulation, He's molded me into a stronger person.

It's funny...in the past few days, so much has happened, and God has revealed so much to me and even as we speak, He continues to challenge me. One of the greatest lessons i've learned before today is surrendering. As i've mentioned before, I know God is a God of fire who continually burns us....and through the pain we are refined. Well, i definitely think that surrendering is part of His fire. God asks that we surrender those things that hurt us to give up...those things that are so difficult to let go that if you didnt know God.... life probably could not go on. These past few days, I've really learned a lot about surrender...and how painful it is to do so. But because I love God and He loves me, He is worthy of surrender. Afterall, love is giving till it hurts. and life isnt about what you think is best for you...it's about trusting that God knows what is best for you and He's worthy to be given our all.

as weird as it may sound....i dont feel 17 anymore...and obviously im not. I guess it just really surprised me how God's prepared me to be a little older and perhaps even a little wiser.

my mom and dad got me card that says, "Happy Birthday, Just think- you're one year closer to looking like your mother!" what a great thought eh? hehe.. my mom's awesome.

so before i go study....just one more big huge THANK YOU!!!! For making my day amazing.

I Belong to You---> Superchick

everybody needs to belong somewhere
life can feel so alone without someone who cares
and when life becomes something just to get through
that's when i'm glad that i belong to You

i belong to You i belong to You
You're the one who will never let me down
won't let me down
i belong to You

sometimes life brings more pain than we can bear alone
when hope is gone and i have no strength to stand on my own
when nothing helps there's nothing that i can do
you surround me and show me i belong to You

i belong to You i belong to You
You're the one who will never let me down
won't let me down
i belong to You

when love is gone, there's no arms to run to anymore
i'm all alone there's no one for me to live for
letting go of the things i've always clung to
that's when i need to feel that i belong to You

when i grow up.. i want to be a firewoman

to-do list on thursday:

1. renew license
2. get a video rental card
3. register for ebay
4. get my nose pierced
5. get a tatoo
6. buy a pack of cigarettes
7. buy a lottery ticket

man.. all the misfortunes that have been happening to me as a result of not being 18. *shakes head* But it's definitely not a bad thing...all has its good purpose. Plus, who wants to be 18 anyways? =P

p.s i was totally kidding about numbers 4-7... me rebel? What were you thinking?

almost forgot! I need a Foley's card too....since i was so graciously neglected one about a month ago....and they have a sale that day too....lucky me.

Canon in D........

I have fob blood running in my veins, and dont get me wrong, i have a good level of fob pride as well. On the other hand... sometimes the first part of my legal name frustrates me somewhat. So today... i get the mail...and there was a small package for me. Now, if you know the first part of my legal name... you'll understand why i'm rolling my eyes. So this package says: Happy 18th Birthday.....and it's from gillete.... okay.. so weird.. gillete knows im turning 18. But what REALLY gets me is....they sent me a guys razor and shaving cream. *slaps forehead* Enough said....if you dont know my real name... u shud be able to guess.

Anyways......this past week was simply wonderful. It was such a great week...i didnt wanna get up this morning =P I just wanted to mention that i thought Johnny and Emily's wedding was absolutely beautiful. Not only were they beautiful people, but the whole idea of two uniting under God is just really amazing. And to make it even more beautiful they did the alter kiss challenge. And even the weather was beautiful! maan.... God really poured out His blessings on their marriage.

Returing to the endless cycle of what life calls.....school.....has really returned me to a state of nausea. Maybe it's a feeling of self-inflicted sickness, cuz last night i wasnt feeling so great. Then today in classes i couldnt keep awake, and that hardly ever happens. So after school i decided to reward myself. I went out and bought msyelf a box of chai latte mix. When i came home... i made myself a LARGE cup of chai tea. ahhh.. good stuff.... cant wait till tomorrow when i can make myself another cup! woohooo.......

herm... wow.. there's so much to do... so little time...

yesterday, today, and tomorrow...You're still the same....

I liked today. Today was a good day. If everyday was as good as today, I cant wait to wake up tomorrow. haha.. actually i cant wait to wake up anyhow.

Early this morning woke up and went to Krogers. Bought myself ingredients......for Ophelia's special jello! Drove to Katy Mills, at lunch ate at rainforest cafe, shopped like mofo. wanted to watch matrix, but due to unfortunate circumstances *sigh* was lead to watch Gothica....I've never been in an R movie with so many kids before. Why do parents bring their babies and young teens to watch such horror films? *boggled mind* Hung with the gang, ate good food, watched good movie, had good times, spiked ophelia's special jello.......hehee....called it a night. =)

sorta tired right now... sorta not.... but sleep cant hurt. have a good one... night.

Every Breath That I Take
by Eddie Espinosa

Every breath that i take says i love You
every beat of my heart says i'm Yours
every step that I take says i need You
And i will bless Your holy name

You are my redeemer
You're the reason that I live
Yes, and You are my salvation
And i will bless Your holy name

Every day that goes by shows Your mercy
Every gift that You give shows You care
Every song that I sing says You're worthy
And I will bless Your holy name


Happy Thanksgiving =)

can you take me higher.......

about this time every year... i start to lose my senses and become completely overwhelmed by a sense of excitment.
for one thing...food... cmon now..food...that's something to celebrate! and that awesome atmosphere of the family passing turkey, duck, or lamb...or wutever animal u eat for the holidays. *sigh* good feeling.

oh...and surprises are kewl too....apparently i have one this year....but my sister sorta blew it for me...but still it's all good. and then there's other surprises like alex yang coming home and me screetching cuz.. it was totally unexpected but nonetheless super kewl. It's just so awesome during the holidays seeing everyone go home...whether it be sugar land or the Tri...as long as they are where their heart is...home... kinna gets the warm fuzzy sit by the fire with hot chocolate kinna feeling.

to top things off...super awesome day spent with a childhood buddy! JESSICA came to visit!! woohooo...man.. so kewl seeing her again after 1.5 yrs not seeing her. *sigh* good times good times....

it's so easy to give thanks when all is good and well.....but God is worthy of our thanks daily....and it amazes me how forgetful i am that every simple thing i wake up noticing is a gift from God.

It was really funny....today coming from COP, the radio guy said that it would be his son's first thanksgiving having to drive home and not just walk down the stairs. The funny part is...my dad said the exact same thing to me this morning. I love how life is fulla endings and beginnings...This year will be an end to my walking down stairs for thanxgiving and next year will be the beginning of my driving home. Life's dynamic...God's kewl.

bottom dweller scum of the earth creatures.....

so im trying to do my eco hw. I have no idea why it's taking me so long. And i dont understand why im so tired. I got up at 11:30 and then i took a nap.... too much sleep *sigh*

so way back when, my sister says i promised to take her out to sonic for lunch. So we went...and then we went book shopping at half price books....and i then i ran into someone i knew. isabel had to go pee so we went over the maureen's bakery to borrow the bathroom...maan.. those desserts look really good. Then i went armagedon cd hunting...no real sucess...perhaps better luck tomorrow. came home and watched this really good movie on chinese tv. Studied, stared at my essay topics, got tired, took a nap. blah blah blah.

Then after dinner, switched on the tube and the movie Never Been Kissed happened to be on. It brought back a lot of fond memories of jessica and her Michael Vartan stage. (in fact i'll be seeing her tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sOOOO excited =P) But yeah... wow.. Michael Vartan is one of those one thousand years unchanging good lookin kinna guys. Watching chic flicks makes me feel like a middle schooler again. It seems like that was the era of chic flicks. anyhoo... never been kissed was a good quality movie. Those movies with super embarrasing-gee i hope that never happens to me- kinna scenes are always fun to watch. Never been kissed prolly seconds Bridget Jone's diary...maan...that woman cracks me up. hahaha.....

boy.. i sure am movie deprived. the last movie i watched besides the tv ones.... Finding Nemo (in theaters)...and before that...my big fat greek wedding (in theaters)...iono never been a big fan of using my limited monthly savings on movies. The asian in me tells me that rental is the way.... speaking of which... i cant wait till im able to get my own video rental card. That's been my dream since i was 12. wow...im excited....marking the days off on my calendar.... OH and dude... we're eating Japnese food for my mom's birthday! *sigh* the benefits of friday bdays....oh oh oh...and one of my pre grad dreams will be fulfilled soon too! tell ya when it happens. i'm so sleepy.. ..

it's now or never.....

I feel that today has been quite a productive day. I ran in the cold (still flemmy) and actually got myself outta bed this morning....early i might add. I actually submitted an app today.... yeah....definitely glad that apps are a once in a lifetime sorta dealio...cant afford too many heart attacks. I'm sure i could have made more use of my time and im definitely gonna do that tomorrow. I have a gut feeling that this week will slip by like no other.....

so im talking to diane and she discovers that there is an ophelia at UW..... and the weird part is... every other ophelia i've ever met or heard of.... has been oriental....all except the hispanic one that works at ross. It's a shame that EYE happen to be the youngest one of the bunch... sorta makes me feel like a genuine name jocker. And the even funnier part is.... i've only seen pictures of the oriental ophelias... never met them in person. My cousins best friend, the manly one, and the UW one.....maybe it's a good thing there hasnt been an encounter of the ophelias. There just arent enough Hamlets go around....which reminds me... i shud start memorizing that sillioquy. anyhoo... a thought.....

got this off a friend's profile and sorta modified it.

Do you long to give yourself completely to someone?
Do you long to have a deep soul relationship with another?
Do you long to be loved thoroughly, and exclusively?
God simply asks that you be satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Him alone, giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Him and having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Him alone. Discover that only in Him your satisfaction can be found. God has his perfect timing, so stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Him to give you the most thrilliing plan existing- one that you cannot imagine. Just wait. That is all.

right here right now....there is no other place i'd rather be

i like that song but i cant remember the artist or the name.

it's so cold i'm happy. i cant feel my toes and that makes me glad. there's no school tomorrow so i can rest easy.

for once i dont think i have anything to blog about. I guess i'm completely baffled by the dramatic change in weather. One second it was completely humid and super gross....the next second.. after the rain.....it was howling wind and freeeezing outside. I'm SO thankful that at least today is cold...even if we cant wear jackets for thanksgiving..... i sure hope we do tho.

well updated some pictures...check em out if u so desire.

wild dreams cant be broken.....

So is it a normal reaction to leave Austin wishing you were still there? Yeah...had one of those moments today.

So overall, besides being stuck in traffic, going to Austin was a good, memorable, entertaining, and a very five star experience. Since we only went up for less than 24 hrs...one might wonder what was so five star about it. Well for one thing, seeing all the sugar land posse was super awesome in itself. Although, Jester had it's buster load of oobery smelling scents, sleeping there wasnt much of a problem.

So lets go back in time and retrace the adventures of the Austin adventures. I dont remember much of friday before our journey to Austin....maybe i just wished to erase the jail-like aura of the memories of that time span. I slightly recall being stuck in traffic and taking a long time to pee at the gas station. Many hours later.....we encoutered flashes of bright light and at that moment, pointed to what was UT!

The gang: chenchenwangwongsha arrived, unloaded at Jester. wangsha hung out with tina and wandered the streets of austin. chenchenwong were lead to the battle of the sexes thingamabob. man... freshmen are such funny, amusing, entertaining, and nice people. Definitely proud to be a future freshman of america. Then the boys and jennifer took us young'ns to the capitol. Pretty sight...until the cop saw us jwalk and started blinking his lights, we knew that was the signal for: gnite kids, go back to where u came from....and that's excatly wut we did. After the whole ordeal, we lounged arounged in peter and mok's room. and then we watched final destination 2.

During the wee hours of the morning, we finally went to sleep. Waking up at 7:00 was quite painful, but being the lack-of-sleep hslers that we still are...we got up. Beginning of longhorn saturday wasnt the most exciting thing in the universe buuut, it was kewl. But i especially enjoyed attending the sessions for your choice of major. The social work people are super nice. The social work session consisted of 3 people and 2 parents. It was kewl cuz we cud ask wutever we wanted, whenver we wanted. And listening to the experiences of the seniors that present was so kewl. A lot of what they've had the opportunity to do, I've always dreamed of being a part of. so yeah... it was kewl.

After that the buncha us went to Chipotle. i wont have to eat another meal for at least a week. THEN it was F3: film festival feast!!! woohooo. That was blasting. I was planning on refraining from too much food, but since the freshman girls kept telling me,"oh we made that, eat it," i had to take tiny bites of this and that....and now.. i wont hafta eat for at least another year.

To finish this saturday off with a bang....the SENIOR GIRLS totally represented. We BLEW the multitudes away with our super awesome video which came in as the gold ribbon winner...woohoo.

and now.. .im sleepy.....*yawn

James 1:19
Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry

Your Hearing
By Rick Warren
One of the most common causes of frustration and friction at work is that we don't really listen to each other. Too often we talk at each other rather than with each other.

Research shows that you spend about 40% of your waking hours listening. But most of the time you are only listening at 25% efficiency. That creates many of your problems. Fortunately, listening is a skill that can be developed.
The benefits of learning how to listen are enormous: fewer mistakes, better negotiating, greater wisdom, more friends, less arguments, and much, much more.
The Bible says, "Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry." If you do the first two, (be quick to listen and slow to speak) the third will be automatic.

Three Things Hinder Our Hearing
PRESUMPTION - when we think we already know it all.
"He who answers before listening is put to shame." Pr.29:20
IMPATIENCE - when you interrupt & jump to conclusions.
"There is more hope for a fool than for a man who speaks in haste." Pr. 29:20
PRIDE - when we are defensive and unteachable.
"The way of a fool seems right, but a wise man listens to advice." Pr. 12:15
You can learn from anyone if you know the right questions!

Let me suggest 3 "HEARING AIDS":
Listen with your eyes. Approximately 80% of communication is non-verbal. Facial expressions and body language usually tell the real story. Look at people when you listen to them!
Listen with your heart. Be sympathetic. Tune in to the emotions behind the words.
Make time to listen to the people around you. Tom Peters calls it "Managing By Walking Around."(MBWA)

I've had people tell me, "God never speaks to me!" Oh really? Is it possible that you've been too busy to listen? He wants to talk to you. Tune into Him this week. If you have a Bible, try reading Chapter 1 of the book of James. God speaks to those who take the time to listen! Have a great week.

p.s... a note about IMchaos quiz....

I just have to say that those insane quizzes... are NO reflection of how well you know someone...it's totally okay that 95% of the people who know me the best think i either sleep walk..talk.. or want to drive a mini cooper...or have bad habits of ditching people and forgetting to flush the toliet.

roll of thunder hear my cry.....

It's probably typical for every blogger to question the existence of their blog right? Once a person takes up blogging several things can happen. Blogging can become an addiction and a day without doing so leaves you empty and lacking inside. The other extreme is that the blog becomes neglected. Or blogging is somewhere in between on the spectrum. What does that in between part entail? Blogs are funny. Often times they can be meaningless ramblings which people return daily to read. I guess the funny part is not so much that people blog, it's the whole idea that people return to read them. (i guess i wud be rambling now and you would be returning to my blog to read it =P). A person may not blog for perhaps a month, yet their devoted readers return faithfully. So then why do I blog? I admit, more often than not, I'm probably wasting your time and mine by sitting here and typing about.....whatever it is that i type about. My rambling is probably more beneficial to me than it is you. For the most part, you might not get to know me better as a person by reading what i have to say.....but on the positive side....my writing skills have somewhat been honed. I guess another reason why i blog would be to share something i might consider meaningful or encouraging. For me, whenever i discover something exciting about God or something amazing He's done.... i cant keep my mouth shut and i feel as if i have to share how I've been enlightened. I definitely have to say that God is a worthy cause for blogging.

so perhaps at times i may have many meaningless utterances....but i rather like the concept of blogging....and if that doesnt strike your fancy, i suppose it's understandable that you wouldnt have one....by all means I am not against rambling blogs. In fact they're both amusing and meaningful. Sometimes when you dont get a chance to talk to people, you read their blog....and you still have a chance to see what's going on with them. Another worthy cause of blogging! There you have it my anti-blogging friends. Blogs do have their purposes....in my opinion at least. As much as I've rambled on today, I still hope that you have been enlightened somehow....whether it be about me.... or my blog...that's up to you. until next time!

captain planet....he's our hero.......eh.. down to zero....

I have a deep passion for the rain and the wetness that comes with it. But i'm torn between loving the wet rain and having a strong dislike for the flooding sidewalks and gray skies that comes with the whole ordeal of such a natural occurrence. I have to say that driving home on an over-flooding street has got to be one of the most horrific experiences. The water splashes onto your windshield temporarily blinding you from the on-coming traffic and what ever other nightmares that may be advancing in your direction. That sense of uneasiness is quite overwhelming when you see dozens of cars driving up on the sidewalks and islands to avoid the rain; yet at the same time wondering whether your mom or dad will return home safely this evening. To love the rain or not to love the rain.....that is the question.....

or maybe i've been reading too much Hamlet....but i guess it all really just comes down to one thing, I dont like flooding. Because... without the rain, i would never be able to run barefoot halfway across the clements parking lot to my car....or get my flip-flops stuck in the mud....or watch God's mighty lightening flash across the sky...or hear the powerful roar of thunder....*sigh* thumbs up to rain.

ah bah....time has once again slipped from my finger tips...duty calls and the vicious cycle of higher level education application must go on! as does studying for eco.... thanx for checking out this episode of Hamlet's psycho girlfriend's rambling.


(dont worry.... the effects of too much rain has not gotten to my head)

this is the story of a girl she cried a river and drowned the whole world.......

getting wet... i like getting wet... rain once in a while is kewl.

I was definitely having one of those: Life on earth is so unsatisfactory kinda days. So i was roaming my house and Rebecca St.James' song Omega came into my head and i really love that song and i happen to have it on my WOW 2000 cd. So i'm searching for it and i'm usually good about knowing where my cds are. and to my dismay... i COULDNT find it. So i thought i could settle for one of my other cds. I had SOO many choices to choose from and not a single one cud bring a smile to my face the way Omega does. I finally settled for Chris Tomlin (which btw is an AWESOME cd). I felt pretty good about listening to it, but i couldnt help but be completely frustrated about my disappearing wow cd. I really had to question myself. Out of the multitude of choices of cds that i have to listen to, why did I still want Omega?

That reminded me of a life before knowing Christ. I think that in each of our lives, we're looking for that Omega cd. We can have so many things around us to choose from to fill that longing for the Omega. But nothing will fill that place inside of you like being able to listen to that Omega cd. Sure, the Chris Tomlin cd is great, and satisfying, but still you cant help but feel like you want the Omega cd. It's the same way with God. We look to our personal abilities, our family, friends, and a multitude of other things to keep us content with life. But ultimately, nothing....nothing....can fill you up the way Christ can. I know i'll always want more stuff and i cant have everything i want...but all of life comes down to just one thing: to know God and make Him known....and that's sufficient.. that's all i really need.

so i was going on my God Hunt today. And i was driving home from church when it began to rain REALLY hard. As i was driving i saw this dad with his 2 kids seeking shelter from the rain under a tree drenching wet, and i really wanted to stop for them, but something told me to drive on. When i got to a stop sign i wanted to turn around, but something inside me told me to pray. So i began to pray and i asked God to stop the rain or at least make the rain die down a bit so that this family could go home. After i said amen. The rain stopped. I heaved a sigh and suddenly it began to rain again! So i began to pray for the rain again, i prayed the same prayer over and over and over. I said amen. The rain stopped again.... i heaved another sigh....the rain started again... i prayed again....and i finally got the trend. So i prayed and drove all the way home. By the time i got home....it was only sprinkling outside....barely raining. Praise the Lord.

gosh.. God's gotta be the kewlest guy ever. Have a great week!!!

Michael Chang used the word HONE!!!!!!!

forreal...he really used the word hone tonight ^_^

Anyhoo... 15-love was pretty kewl. Once again i have to reiterate how awesome it is to see awesome athletes living it up for God. You can definitely see Michael Chang's passion to share the love of God in his life. Altho michelle and I were one of the unfortunate unable to get signaturers the event was nonetheless *thumbs up*. And when John was sharing about that place inside of us aching for something more, I was reminded of 3 words: God-shaped hole. I too believe that within each of us is that aching feeling of emptiness and that feeling of being tired of the day to day routine and seeking for something exciting. I'm confident that nothing is more sufficient to fill empty hole inside of us...that God-shaped hole than God himself. Another kewl thing about tonight was that I had the opportunity to do a report on tonights event. That was definitely an interesting experience and I'm glad i got to do it; mostly because it was an outreach thing and the entire event will be posted on mr. yeungs site as an outreach to the chinese community. I took a few pictures of the night and mich and i even snuck a few pictures with michael. i'll put them up sometime.

Today was definitely a very unique day. I went to sleep extremely early last night and woke up extremely late this morning. Went to lunch at panera bread with my sis and mom then went to family christian bookstores to get my dad's bday gift. When my sister and i walked outta the store to go to her friends bday party, it starting down-pouring like a mad dog. And when we got to her buddy's party, it was STILL raining mad dogs. When i walked out of Michael's (where her bud's party was) it continued the mad dog rainage and I saw this lady outside waiting for the rain to stop so i offered to umbrella her to her car. And i'm glad i did cuz she had to make it to a meeting downtown. I think one of the best feelings in the world is to do a good deed and not get anything in return cuz afterall the greatest reward is not what you get but what you can give. Then, before I hadda leave for the rally, i needed to pick up something to eat. So then i got to burger king I didnt know that they dont accept credit and then when i thought i could pay cash, i was 25 cents short. But the lady was SO nice she let me have my food for 25 cents cheaper. So when you dont expect anything in return for doing a good deed.....sometimes you end up getting paid in full.... double the reward =)

gosh... i thought i was past the long entries stage.. pft.. bummer... if you've made it this far... give urself a pat on the back. ^_*

updation station......

ah the joys of busy thursday nights... gotta love those. ^_*
So currently I am waiting for my physics brain to brew.... which is most often seemingly impossible BUT nothings impossible right?

So today was my dad's birthday (if you wanna be techincal... yesterday) But anyhoo... he's somewhere off in Colorado skiing... with this dude. *sigh* skiing... w/o the family on his birthday. *raises fists! hehe... naw... it's koo... my dad should be able to enjoy himself in the mist of busy busy conferences. I believe that this is the second time in my life that my dad's not been around for his birthday. Maaan... and i didnt even get to call him. Although i did get to see him off during the wee hours of this morning. But he'll be home soon enough ^_^

Then my mom went to see the Masters Cup with all the ooberly super back in the day tennis pros (i think). I do believe that Michael Chang was there tonight cuz my mom's his hardcore fan. oooh... and Michael Chang 15-love youth evangelistic rally on saturday. ... good Christian athletes are so encouraging. it's neat how they use their gifts and ability to glorify God. i wanna be one! =P Speaking of being an athlete... i'm sure glad the weather has decided to once again simmer down. It's about time i get off the fanny and run around the neighborhood again. I've had deep cravings for running... for a while. It's most unfortunate that they make senior atheletes on track run. The only reason i would consider running track this year would be to do hurdles... if only i didnt have to run in meets. the whole thrill of competing has lost it's charm. i'm getting old.... I shud run in the "Master's Meet" for track. They actually have that. There was one last year at Willowridge... a buncha skinny middle-aged men running miles upon miles.... man... they live up to the name "masters"

alright... i will pursue physics now. i cant believe it's Friday!!!

Under the shell of superficiality

I finally got the chance to play with our new air hockey table. Dude... i shud totally stick to foosball. My dad totally owned me in air hockey =P I remember when i was a wee little lass my dad and i use to play chinese checkers. He never went easy on me and many-a-time i was ruthlessly defeated causing me to shed a tear or two. Now, I'm a better sport about losing. I guess I've learned to accept the fact that my dad's more pro than I at both chinese checkers and air hockey. But we shud definitely play some foosball... then we'll see who the real pro is.

So i got this pop-up add today that asked which of the hottest males in the US was the hottest. Then it said that i could possibly win $2000!! but anyhoo... there's an option for everyone... who would you pick?

Ben Affleck we all kno who'd pick this one... besides ms. mcgee=P
Vin Diesel
George Clooney
Brad Pitt

sheesh.. they make it so easy... it's so obvious who the hottest male of the hottest males in the US is.....

I was sitting around today when i began to ponder the thoughts of things i wanted to do before i graduate.. and these are some of the things that came to mind.

1) go to the cheesecake factory (after seeing Christine's blog picture of the tiramisu cheesecake... it was quite tantilizing and it gave me a deep conviction to eat one.)
2) go to a Newsboys concert (after Creation 99 i've wanted to go to another)
3) go to Reliant K concert with jhgpy
4) purchase the Armageddon soundtrack
5) give blood
6) finish reading Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
7) finish reading Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring (Jessica has every right to smack me for not finishing it by now)
8)watch the sun rise
9) get a new laptop (i'm working on it....)
10) curl isabel's hair during our g.n.i =P (sister's dont break promises)
11) cook for my parents (my sister is currently standing next to me reading this...and laughing.. i suppose it's cuz she's eaten the food i've cooked which consists of cake and jello....)
12) gain a new level of humility
13) receive a college acceptance letter


i think there are a few more.. but wudnt wanna bore you with my pre-grad hopes. I guess a couple of those could be categorized in the "what i wanna do before i die" list as well... but I think some things needa be done before then... possibly in the near future. The things that you can procrastinate are the things you want to least procrastinate. Why save for tomorrow what you can do today?

*twiddling thumbs* so how bout those college apps eh? *pooh* It's all in the cycle of life.... the reward of getting into college will be so much more fulfilling after suffering through the struggles of the getting-in part.

Succeeding Through Self-Discipline
By Rick Warren



High achievers usually have one obvious thing in common: personal discipline. Successful people are willing to do things that average people are unwilling to do.

As the pastor of a church with over 20,000 attenders under my care, I've had the opportunity to know and counsel many of Orange County's most successful business leaders. I've observed that successful people express self-discipline in six key ways:

Successful people master their moods. They live by their commitments, not their emotions. Most of what gets done in the world is accomplished by people who do the right thing even when they don't feel like it! "A person without self-control is as defenseless as a city with broken down walls." Proverbs 25:28 (LB)

Successful people watch their words. They put their minds in gear before opening their mouths. "He who guards his lips guards his life." Prov. 13:3

Successful people restrain their reactions. How much can you take before you lose your cool? " If you are sensible you will control your temper. When someone wrongs you, it is a great virtue to ignore it." Prov. 19:11 (GN)

Successful people stick to their schedule. If you don't determine how you will spend your time you can be sure that others will decide for you! "Live life with a due sense of responsibility...make the best use of your time." Eph. 5:15-16 (Ph)

Successful people manage their money. They learn to live on less than what they make and they invest the difference. The value of a budget is that it tells your money where you want it to go rather than wondering where it went! "The wise man saves for the future, but the foolish man spends whatever he gets." Prov. 21:20 (LB)

Successful people maintain their health. That way they can accomplish more and enjoy their achievements. "Each of you should control his own body, keeping it pure and treating it with respect." 1 Thess. 4:4

Where do you need to develop for self-control? The disciplines you establish today will determine your success tomorrow. But it takes more than just willpower for lasting self-control. It takes a power greater than yourself. Think about this promise from the Bible this week: "God does not give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, love and self-control." 2 Tim. 1:7 The more I accept God's control over my life, the more self control He gives me!

spiral of life to the deep unknowns.....

currently listening to my much awaited Newboys Adoration: The Worship Album. =)

Hmm...today, I'm having one of those, I feel pretty content with the way everything in my life's going. Yet at the same time I feel really frustrated and saddened by the thoughts of all the people that either know God, but would rather deny Him daily than deny themselves; and the people who once knew God but have wandered so far from Him that only He can bring them back into His arms again. I'm having one of those days that i feel like praying it away.

Overall, this Sunday was pretty *big thumbs up*. In my sunday school class, we've been studying prophecies in the book of Daniel. The most amazing thing about studying prophecies is how incredibly faithful God is in fulfilling what was given as visions to his messengers. We've studied how God gave Daniel a vision about four kingdoms: The Babylonian, Medo-Persian, Greek, and Roman. God told Daniel pretty much what would happen in these kingdoms, and you gotta remember that at the time of the visions, Daniel was living in the Babylonia/Medo-Persian empires so when he found out things about the future of his jewish kin....it must have been pretty mind blowing. What's more, after Daniel's death, the visions about the Greek and Roman empires were fulfilled. If you think about it, this is some pretty seriously amazing stuff. Because these visions have been fulfilled, we can know without a doubt that Gods Word is true. And the other kewl thing is.... God knows the future and He is faithful in fulfilling His will, not just for the Jewish people, but for both you and for me.

But the thing that truely amazes me, besides knowing the validity of God's word and his faithfulness, is that the future of the Jewish people is predicted in Daniel. (which ultimately affects everyone else too). If you've ever seen the Left Behind series... that's a pretty accurate interpretation of what God's word says about the future of mankind. (minus the fictional drama of course) If you've never seen or read the series, I recommend them. I think they did a good job with it. With the knowledge we possess of the future I'm sure glad I know who holds tomorrow.

Lord (I dont know)---> Newsboys

You are the Author of knowledge
You can redeem what's been done
You hold the present and all that's to come
Until Your everlasting kingdom

Lord, I dont know where all this is going
Or how it all works out
Lead me to peace that is past understanding
A peace beyond all doubt

You are the God of tomorrow
Turning the darkness to dawn
Lifting the hopelss with hope to go on
You are the rock of all salvation

Oh, Lord, You are the Author
redeeming what's been done
You hold us in the present
And all that is to come.

Keep the candle burning.....

This has gotta be the most relaxing week of my Clements high school experience.

After eating dinner at Pei Wei Asian Diner (over chargers for the type of food they serve) I had the inclination to read blogs. So i was reading Christine's when i came across Josh's blog. The last time i saw that guy was a little over a year ago. He still looks like the same guy I met 8 years ago, but somethings definitely changed about him. Just reading through some of his entries and his testimony was really awesome. I can definitely see how God's used him and molded him in such amazing ways in the past several years. Josh now, isnt the one i knew way back. I remember him as the guy who picked on me and Diane when we started middle school. I remember how he called her mini mouse and all his weird things that he did. All in all.. i use to think Josh was your average asian wannabe punker tennis dude. After reading his blog it's evident that God's revealed himself to him. I can definitely see how God is molding Josh into the man that He wants him to be.

It's so awesome to see the super change that God can create. I mean u might think, oh the guy changed over time, big deal. But when i see the change in people, i see the power of God. I see God's power to place experiences, miracles, and love to change a persons heart and mind, turning them back to Him.

I remember at the last Friday sfc, Justine shared how people can touch other ppl. Well, after reading Josh's blog.... for some reason... i think he touched my life in some unique way. It's weird, I was really encouraged reading about the things that God has done and is doing in his life. And i guess that led me to think about how God's touched my life in the past several years. It's soo kewl realizing that God never gives up on me and continues to refine me.

Recently, I've been brought back to the memories of a lot of old friends. When I think about them, i think of all the things and sweet memories built in the past and that helps build the excitement and hope that God holds for the future. By all means... i am in no rush to reach the future quickly....i may be anxious....but i know the future holds many of God's riches and the journey to get there will be well worth taking.

tell buddy to save the drama for himself......

I'm liking this beginning of the six weeks business. i'm probably gonna get jumped for saying this but... schools not so bad. I think everything is gonna start turning around again. =)

I think one thing that God's really shown blessings to me through is learning to encourage others. I love encouraging people... but it's taken hard work to get there and even so, it's not an easy task. But i think God helps build you and others by practicing encouragement. A big encouragement for me is to be able to see others encouraged through the words and actions of encouragement God places in my head. We get enough of the negativity all around us... every day... how often to we hear or see edifying words or actions? Life's a rough journey and once in a while it's kewl to hear an encouraging word... so whenever you see the opportunity to encourage someone.... just do it.

random thought: you know something's about to happen when everything seems to be going great. God is a God of fire..... He constantly wants to purify, mold, and refine us through his challenges. Fires burn and hurt... but the end results are beautiful. are you willing to turn up the heat a little?

Open up the skies.....

so... had this strange atmosphere at school today. This week has began a slow course and rather boring. But borings ok as long as I'm accomplishing something... which i am.

So went out to eat with the Locks today. Ran into Jeanie and her special friend. Ate too much pho and then headed home. After arriving back home i realized i haddnt gotten the mail. So my mom was afraid i'd get abducted while getting the mail so i told her i'd ride my bike that 200m to the mail box. All the bike's tires were deflated xcept for my ex-purple bike. So i rode that thing to get the mail...and was given an odd look by Mrs. Tung, who was also getting the mail at the same time. Imagine... a teenage kid riding a purple kiddy bike.

when i got home.. i decide that i wanted to go bike riding... so i tell my mom i'm going bike riding. After some abduction prevention preparations, i go back outside and ride my bike. yes...my little purple one. I felt like an overgrown kid riding a purple bmx... after some time.. it got sorta painful riding the bike cuz... i realized my dad had just adjusted the seat to fit my sister. I ran into some cops and an old chinese man. It was quite an adventure. I must say though, that the weather was superb and i would ride my bmx outside in that weather any day. and wuts more.. it's just fun to get out into the wilderness of my neighborhood and ride 60mph down the street in my purple bmx.

How God Builds You
By Rick Warren



Did you know that God uses a very predictable process to build your character? I call this process “The 6 Phases of Faith.” If you don’t understand this process, you’ll get discouraged when problems arise. You’ll wonder, “Why is this happening to me?” But if you understand and cooperate with what God is doing in your life and business, your faith - like a muscle that is stretched - will develop great strength.

PHASE 1: A DREAM - God gives you a dream...an idea, goal, or ambition. Every great accomplishment first began as a God-given dream in someone’s mind. “God is able to do far more than we would ever dare to ask or even dream of--infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, or hopes.” Eph. 3:20 (LB)

PHASE 2: DECISION - A dream is worthless until you decide to do something about it. For every 10 dreamers, there’s only 1 decision-maker. This is the moment of truth where you decide to invest your time, money, energy, and reputation and to let go of security. If you want to walk on water - you must get out of the boat! “You must believe and not doubt...a double-minded man is unstable in all he does.” James 1:6+8 (GN)

PHASE 3: DELAY - There is ALWAYS a time lapse before your dream becomes reality. God uses this waiting period to teach us to trust Him. Remember, a delay is not a denial. Maturity is understanding the difference between “no” and “not yet.” God says, “These things I plan won’t happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, do not despair, for these things will surely come to pass. Just be patient! They will not be overdue a single day!” Hab. 2:3 (LB)

PHASE 4: DIFFICULTY - Now the problems start popping up. The 2 most common types: critics and circumstances. Don’t worry. It’s all a part of God’s plan. “At the present you may be temporarily harassed by all kinds of trials. This is no accident - it happens to prove your faith, which is infinitely more valuable than gold.” 1 Pet. 1:6-7 (Ph)

PHASE 5: DEADEND! - Your situation will deteriorate from difficult to IMPOSSIBLE! You are backed into a corner, you reach the end of your rope, it looks hopeless. Congratulations! You are on the edge of a miracle. Trust God. “At that time we were completely overwhelmed...in fact we told ourselves that this was the end. Yet we now believe we had this sense of impending disaster so that we might learn to trust, not in ourselves but in God who can raise the dead.” 2 Cor. 1:8-9 (Ph)

PHASE 6: DELIVERANCE! - God provides a supernatural answer. Miraculously, things fall into place! God loves to turn crucifixions into resurrections so you can see His greatness. “I expect the Lord to deliver me once again so I will see his goodness to me...” Ps. 27:13

She who rocks my world

My dad was scanning pictures of his family when he was a little kid. It was sorta in chronological order so he came across some of my pictures when i was a kid. That's a picture of me and my grandma (my grandfather had a deep passion for haircutting.. excuse the short hair.=P)
I dont remember too much abt my grandma. The last time i saw her was two years ago. Everytime we went back to hong kong, she always had something wonderful to feed us. I tell ya... if there's a such thing as the "best chef on Earth" that would be my grandma. As i was growing up, i lived with my grandparents. For my family it was sort of a tradition to be raised by my grandma. She raised 7 children and 7 grandchildren. I may have been a rather simple minded little kid, but i do know that her complaints about us were very few. (especially since my cousins and i were such a rowdy bunch). Well, that was 12 years ago. I remember whenever i went back to hk to visit her, she always wanted to buy me stuff. She bought me 5 dresses once..... she thought my parents didnt clothe me well....=P.... and she always wanted to make sure i'd be warm during the winter time cuz she feared that i would freeze to death in washington. My grandparents are originally from Hunan... and after they moved down to hong kong... they sorta acquire a strange hunanese cantonese dialect....that only the members of my family understand. Over the years i've lost the ear for their lingo and whenever we called them my dad always hadda translate. I loved my grandma and whether i'll see her in heaven will be a mystery until i get there. So yeah.... this was a tribute to her. If i ever find a genie in a bottle, one of my wishes would be to have one last chance to tell her how much i appreciated her and loved her.

and the blind woman said......

carnival was *5 stars* quality. Good job and applause to the magnificent Vivian and Justine ^_^ Oh the joys of crazy putt putt golfing. wow... last carnival as a hs-ler... time to pass my puttputt torch. =P

wella... had quite a moment today *shakes head*... twud be one more reason why i cant wait until january to get new glasses.

(manning my putt putt booth, i look outside the door and see a guy with a blue and white striped shirt like the one Peter has and another guy wearing a white shirt and jeans, like Lex sometimes wears. so i assume it's them)

stripe shirt guy: *waves vigorously* (at someone....while im peek out the door of my room)
white shirt guy: waves a little bit
me: (strongly believing it's alex and peter) *super wave* (the kind where ur flab jiggles beneath your arm.)

(when they get within 6 feet of me)
stripe shirt guy: weiiiiirrrrrdddd look.
white shirt guy: raises eyebrow
me: *head down walks back into room*

these incidences are becoming more frequent.... *sigh*...maybe i shud stop waving all together.....=P

green means go.....yellow means go faster..... red means stop....

(after visiting viv at lunch driving back home in glores's car and the traffic light in front of us turns yellow)

glores: shud i go?

(she preceeds to go speedin up a little....the light is still yellow)

(gripping their seats) debsjuiceoph: AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

(a girl runs across the street just as light turns red and glores preceeds driving)

debsjuiceophglores: AHHHHHH!!!!!

Dont worry... we didnt run over any kids and i assure you 100% Gloria is a terrific driver.. heck i lived to tell the tale. makes ya wonder... wut was the "ahhhs" all abt? hehe...

Still recovering from the trauma of last week... slightly brain dead and lacking in blog words.... i'll work on some recoop

You know winter is coming when ur butt gets cold sitting on the potty

*sigh* nothing beats a good old hot pot dinner with oldies music in the background on a cool fall night.

So last week we were given a sheet that asks us to think of 12 things we want to accomplish before we graduate. I think i've stared at the paper a coupla times and oldly enough i cant really think of more than 5 but i know those other 7 are out there. i've always been a pro high risk nut in a non-risky sort of way. Sky diving or any other sort of extreme aerial activity has never crossed my mind as something i wanna do when i turn 18. I remember at the canton retreat last year.... i was almost reluctant to go on the free fall wall climb thing. Not that i have a weak stomach or anything cuz.. yeah.. thumbs up to roller coasters and free falling... but iono... when i think of stuff people want to accomplish before they die or graduate or something it's always like.. going to hawaii or sky diving... =P

yesterday i got a chance to talk to an old friend from my distant past that i sorta lost touch with . i remember we both moved to cali around the same time, started pre school the same day. I remember when i didnt speak english we use to gibberish to each other. I remember i use to let her drag me around by my fluffy green jacket. I remember when she suffocated me at our pre school graduation. I remember when her sister would refuse to wear anything but dresses. my.... how much we've grown. oiy old friends are popping up left and right.... another lost buddy just imed me..... whoa.

arite... time to work hard.....

Only He can fill your God shaped hole......

have i already mentioned how much i love the cold weather? I love it almost more than i love sushi, imitation crab, and fruit roll ups. yeah... i love the cold....and i miss the snow....i miss the slopes... and i miss the snow days....i cant wait until winter.. but it's not so bad right now...wudnt want time to slip right by me. ^_^

So today in physics mr. nilsson gave us a very interesting tidbit that i thought quite amusing. Apparently, the school board has been having problems with the weekly progress reports that some students need sent home. The issue is that the parents dont know how to read english. So when the report card says, "student having some major behavorial issues" the kid goes home and tells his parentals that it says, "student is doing superb job in studies." The solution the district has come up with, multi-lingual report cards. Report cards that go home these days can be requested in 8 different language. Let's say mom and dad can only read simplified chinese, wow.. yay the district happens to have a simplified chinese version of the report cards. Or mabbe they only read traditional chinese... amazing.. they have that too. (im totally serious... i saw it for myself) the district is making some oober progress. stuff like this can only happen in a place like this.

school is strangling my neck right now. Gonna go loosen the ropes a bit.

not a toenail too few.......

I thoroughly love daylight savings. My favorite time of year....and what perfect timing for the cool weather.

Today's message about when "the black hawk goes down" was presented in a very God-moving manner. It does make you wonder, when your black hawk goes down, is there any one that will go out of their way to save you? When you're going through life's rough track, is there anyone out there to search and rescue you? What i found so true is that my closest relationships are very prayer centered. I find myself lacking in persistence sometimes, but the desire is nevertheless there. Asking your friend if they need prayer is so simple. It's the praying continually, persistently, endlessly, constantly, and tirelessly that becomes difficult. But i know i love my friends and who knows when your prayer will save a friends black hawk when it goes down, so you cant ever be too prepared.... so pray... pray 24/7-ly. So what role does prayer play in your relationships? got Epaphras? (prayer warrior dude in Colossians)

one day you'll be wearing shorts to sleep the next day you're in sweats. gotta love fall. so tonite my family and i went out to eat with the loud chinese food eating out gang. We went to this place called Kin's Cafe. We ate turtle soup, buttery shrimp ball, bac choi, asparagus, fried duck, crab, sticky rice stuffed squid, swordfish, and octopus with eh.... those rubber band looking things. Drooling yet? i still am. Oh.. i almost forgot... dessert... this fried red bean patty... emmm. If you ever wanna eat weird food, come to dinner with me. =P So yeah... the food was superb and the service was terrific. As usual the adults were oooberly loud. (wut do u expect going out to eat with 15 near middle aged chinese people right?) It's a constant fight to see who can be the loudest. hey.. as long as the food was good... who's complaining?

this thing called school tomorrow. i think i can i think i can i think i can i know i can.............

ignorance is bliss........

what a day! so this morning i fell into the guilty category of bumming around. Afternoon, Debs and i went to shop for little Tiffany's bday gift. Shoping for 6 yr olds.. wut joy! So we went to help our cbs leader entertain kids at her daughter's bday fiesta. man... i've forgotten wut it's like to be 6 and bossy. Almost every little girl goes through that "I'm the boss" phase... especially on their birthdays. crazy. Nonetheless, the kids were adorable and i had a ball.

Then, some time later i head to church cuz my family's fellowship had a potluck and i agreed to watch the kiddos. Dude.... we have some ubber cute little ones in the fellowship. There are these 2 boys that dont speak english very well... that speak canton super good....SO CUTE! Kids are so cute when they're still in the "i speak chinese better than english" phase. *sigh* OH OH OH... and we watched the new version of the Lion King! the new song.... is kinda weird.... but lion king = still a super awesome movie...still making young kids tear daily....and appreciate the wonderfulness of father's everywhere. *tear* maan.. i remember i went to see the lion king with my dad in 3rd grade and i snotted all over his new shirt. dad's rock.

and i just found out my dad finally got the air hockey table he promised me when i was 7. He's gonna assemble it tomorrow. wow... childhood dreams come true. better late than never right? i think the last time i played air hockey was.... i cant remember. must be tired.

random thought: Some stories, you never get tired of telling.

Power Rangers Movie!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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hahahaa...this has gotta be the least correct out of all the ones i have taken. power rangers!?!??!

Happy belated birthday STEVE!!!!!!

you see what happens when internet connections are down? You miss the opportunity to wish happy birthdays on the correct day. *sigh*

But no more cuz.......... my dad the computer literate fixed my computer! Although, i lost every single file, every single picture, and every single thing i've been working on on my computer for the past 5 years..... my internet connections back and the computer got upgraded to windows xp. Herm.... i have a feeling im really gonna miss all that stuff that's gone now. pooh.

Currently, I am questioning myself, why am i up so early? Well, my dad called me from the dentists at like... 9am!!!! He broke the wonderful news to me that my computer got fixed and that i should go install something. So then i mozy downstairs to install something and i decide that i want to go run. I start walking upstairs to get my shorts when a loud clash of thunder sounds outside. yet another pooh. but that's ok... life goes on... better luck tomorrow.

so now i figure i shud go wage the wars of homework or SATs or something nutty like that... OR i think im gonna attempt to clean my room. blah... i kno... this was a random entry... but i just had to blog for the excitment of regaining my internet connection... now that's something to celebrate.

God's love is sacrificial, unconditional, and eternal......

It was awesome praying for the community tonight at the prayer meeting. I think it's so refreshing to sacrifice some time monthly to pray for things like your friends, family, and non-believers. It's so indescribable how powerful prayer is and it's so mind boggling how God can speak to you through prayer. Something that John said that i thought was so wabam was the definition of the word Holy. Holy= set apart, different. God is holy. God is set apart from the world, He's different, He's unlike anything we can see or touch. He's simply amazing because He's holy. God is holy.

random thought of the day: If you're going to commit to anything, risk to commit to it fully. Because if someone asks you if it was worth it, you want to be able to look back on the experience with no regrets.

to be or not to be....

I cant believe how beautiful it is outside. It gives me the urge to run.

I came home today and worked up the courage to not take a nap even though i really dont have much hw. I switched on the tv and started watching Family Matters... that show can still pull the laughs outta me. Then i switched over to the chinese channels. I cant believe how long it's been since i've actually sat down and watched a good hour of tv. I remember i use to be addicted to watching television. I use to watch like 5-6+hrs a day. I was addicted to fob soaps. I watched so much tv..... i had to get glasses....and now i cant see anything clearly more than 6 feet away. hehe...how far i've come.
I remember a while back i was eating wonton with my family and I remember we were talking about change. Then i made a comment about how it seemed like my parents had changed but then my mom said it wasnt them who had changed but me. I live with myself daily, and sometimes I'm not completely aware of how much i've actually changed. The weirdest thing is thinking about the goings on of this time last year. Now, if i put change into that perspective.... yeah.. a lot has changed since then. this time last year.......and im curious to wonder about this time next year......whoa......im gonna be voting this time next year. oiy... im gonna go eat an orange.

Our Love is LOUD!!!!!!

have u ever just sat down in your chair and suddenly this thought pops up in your head: God is awesome?
hehe.. just had a moment there.

I remember on Friday, i had this super awesome quiet time. Everything that i was reading was SO amazingly applicable to everything that's been boggling my mind lately. I stand amazed at how much God understands us and he how knows excatly what we need to nourish our spirits. Heck.. he made us... duh.

Last night i went to the TJMAXX US WORLD CHAMPION GYMNASTICS TOUR. Dude... talk about some major nostalgia.....When i saw the little kiddos doing their floor routines in the opening act. a rush of memories from the Grace and Cory mock olympics rushed into my head. Diane.. if you're reading this.... maan.... i miss purple spandex ^_* Every act rejuvinated my past passion for the love of gymnastics. come to think of it.. i cant remember the last time i did gymnastics. sad. During the half time show, they played this video of "gymnastics through the ages" and when they got to all the stuff about the 1996 Magnificent 7.... i was screaming along with the little girls in front me. wow... and wud u believe i STILL have that poster hanging from my wall. and when i saw Shannon Miller.....WOW that's when i really went crazy.... the usher dude was actually shaking his head at me. OH OH OH...and it gets EVEn kewler! So they were annoucing gynastics association awards (these people were actually there!!!!!!). They announced some Houston gynastics coach, Mary Lou Retton (woohoo..she's even shorter in person....), Marta Caroli (gahh.. im bashing their spelling) Jaycie Phelps (ophelia screams), Sean Townsend (he's so short!!!), and then Bella Caroli...(hahahahahahaha..... only Diane would understand) but yea... when Bella (super olympic people coach) was giving his speech, i dont think a single person understood wut he was saying. His accent is still.... strong. Man.... still a hardcore gymnastics fan at heart. *sigh* Dude....our nation team for next year's olymic team.... they're all blond! haha.. see i remember loving the mag 7 for their diversity as well.. *sigh* it's all kewl... they're pretty good. It's super super cuz the women got the gold title at the world champs and the men got the silver. wow.. i gotta say... watching the guys on the rings. whoa... i finally understood what Diane found so attractive about male gymnasts. you hadda be there to kno wut im talking abt. hah.

so enough of my shpeel. I love gymnastics and i love God....some things... u just dont wanna shut up about. anyhoo.... have a great week. mabbe...my computer will get well soon. *crosses fingers*