lately I feel like God has really been speaking to me through song. so im gonna share this song with you although I've posted it before. I think it's a song that we can all relate to. We don't know what is going to happen but we have been witnesses as well as read what God has done in the past and we know the character of God and what he's all about. We may not know the future, but we know who holds the future.


You are the author of knowledge
You can redeem what's been done
You hold the present and all that's to come
Until your everlasting kingdom

Lord, I don't know where all this is going
Or how it all works out
Lead me to peace that is past understanding
A peace beyond all doubt

You are the God of tomorrow
Turning the darkness to dawn
Lifting the hopeless with hope to go on
You are the rock of all salvation

Lord, I don't know where all this is going
Or how it all works out
Lead me to peace that is past understanding
A peace beyond all doubt

Oh, Lord, you are the author
Redeeming what's been done
You hold us in the present
And all that is to come

Lord, we don't know where all this is going
Or how it all works out
Lead us to peace that is past understanding
A peace beyond all doubt

Lord I Don't Know........Newsboys

But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to his own way;
and the LORD has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.......Isaiah 53: 5-6

Sometimes I feel like Easter is like watching tragedies in the news. I remember in hotel Rwanda the main character was so excited when he found out the reporters were going to put the conditions of Rwanda in the news because he thought people would do something to help the genocide. To his dismay the reporter said that yea, people watching this news would think that what was happening in Rwanda was terrible and tragic, but that would be just it. They would think that it was a horrible thing and then move on. Similarly, Easter, we remember Christ, we remember his death and resurrection, and we remember that his blood was shed for us, we remember God's loving sacrifice... but that's just it. We remember, we know what happened, but what will we do with what we know? What can we do with Christ's death and resurrection? Will we live out what we know? Will we show others what it means?

Jesus' death is something amazing. It shook the Earth and took away the sins of everyone....forever

dead bolt.....

bloggerers get the shaft. no one likes blogger anymore. it's become the grandparent of weblogs. there's a saying in canton "sun see hang." literally translated it means new poop gutter. that's how I view xanga. most people always tend to like the new stuff...history never seems to change that. my, the challenges of remaining faithful to blogger. i find it amazing that people comment on my xanga which I do not update...commenting.....expecting me to update. shame on you.

spring break has been amazing. aside from the heat rash and allergy attack everything has been good.

The upperclassmen were right. They're right a lot of the time. They were all wise and didn't bring home any books. I tell myself that I'll do my work (I honestly think about doing work) and even if I just stare at my books, at least I have the option of opening them up... I believe that's what really counts! haha...true words of a freshman huh? One day I will be liberated from the bondage of my textbooks....and not bring them home with me on breaks. someday.....someday.

man....why is korean food so good? we went out to eat korean food tonight and i ate like my family hasn't fed me since i was born. My sister had sucha good time eating that she threw up all over the table. we had so much food on the table it was nuts. I dont think I'll ever eat again.....well until breakfast tomorrow. gosh I love to eat. I wish God made me with a bottomless stomach....so I could just eat and eat and eat and eat.

currently my mood is: Nothing Without You (Bebo Norman). The song pretty much sums it up.

live it up t-minus 2 days of break remaining.

Bebo Norman - Nothing Without You
From the album Try

Take these hands and lift them up
For I have not the strength to praise You near enough
For I have nothing, I have nothing without You

Take my voice and pour it out
Let it sing the songs of mercy I have found
For I have nothing, I have nothing without You

Chorus:
All my soul needs
Is all Your love to cover me
So all the world will see
That I have nothing without You

Take my body and build it up
May it be broken as an offering of love
For I have nothing, I have nothing without You

All my soul needs
Is all Your love to cover me
So all the world will see
But I love You With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my mind
And all the strength I can find

All my soul needs
Is all Your love to cover me
So all the world will see
I have nothing

Take my time here on earth
And let it glorify all that You are worth
For I am nothing, I am nothing, I am nothing without You

where to next........


SPRING BREAK! the wildest time of the year.......in south padre

After a long week I am home. Along the way I've encountered some interesting things. I was studying in the piano lounge monday and I ran into this guy that was playing Coldplay pieces on the piano. About an hour of struggling through the pieces (by no means played poorly) he asked me to sing to one of the songs so he could make sure he was playing it right. Since we were the only two in the lounge it was kinda weird, but somehow it sounded like a good alternative to five hours of staring at my course packet. This act was probably the most far out thing I've done in a really long time. It was fun. I must say that singing is therapeutic. maybe that's why people sing in the shower.
Then the both of us go back to studying and this other guy walks into the lounge and he starts blarring classical music really loud with those monster head phones on. Then the coldplay guy goes back to the piano and plays a different song. The monster head phone guy goes up to coldplay guy and asks him how long he's been playing. Coldply guy responds that he has only been playing for TWO WEEKS! this guy was seriously amazing to have been playing for two weeks...but apparently he said his choir background did him some good with the quick self-taught piano skills. simply amazing.

Thursday was the best day ever. All my homework done. Prof Shorkey wasnt there but Prof Grant (whom I've heard many great things about) came to speak in our sw312 class. I think it was meant to be motivational or something...because she totally got me motivated. I think after her whole speech/ lesson, what have you, I was totally excited about going to my sw313 research class. If you've asked me about research class before, I can tell you that it's not that exciting. But as a result of prof Grant I can honestly say I have a deeper appreciation for that area of social work. I'd always known that research is a field essential to social work in order that you can better serve your clients' needs, or just to see if therapy is effective....but I dont feel I learn much from the class. But as I always say, it's a matter of perspective. I'm glad she come to my class and shared sucha firey passion for social work, definitely every little freshmans' encouragement to dig dipper into the field, to be challenged, and to see what we'll be up against.

This week has seriously taken a toll on my old age. I think it's time to just sit back relax and sleep without an alarm to wake me up. party hardy over break? you know it...me and my textbooks kicking it back.

anywhere but here........

some people think deep thoughts before they sleep. some people think deep thoughts when they shower. some people think deeps thoughts when they take a poo. where do you think deep thoughts?


ny job here is done....now i must study.