Whoa....
so five seconds after i finished blogging that last entry about having a nasty day...Youth With A Mission called my house (an organization I asked for follow-up from Urbana). The lady (I feel horrible for forgetting her name) just talked with me about whether or not I was interested in joining their discipleship training this summer. I told her that I'd prayed about it and that YWAM wasnt what God had in store for me this summer. She asked if I had any prayer requests and I told her that I was going to college next year and with that said, she told me she wanted to pray for me right then. Her prayer really related to a lot of what's going on with me now. She prayed for my friendships, being strong in school, and also being assured that I tried my best after I finish high school. There were a few other things. But it just really amazed me how awesome God is. He led someone to pray for me when I needed it...and I didn't even have to ask. God's always on the look out for you, so don't let the hard times discourage you. It's at the low points in life that we should Turn Our Eyes Upon Jesus...
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
What do I want.....
Haha...so I was listening to Brandy's You Dont Know...and Isabel walks in and starts dancing. I gotta say..she's this crazy little coreographer. Her and her little buds Megan and Emily spend hours each week making up dances to songs. Their project this past week was Jessica Simpson's With You. Oh and I was reading Christine's blog when she walked in and she saw her new "I love nerds" shirt...and she asked me, "Gah jie...are you a nerd?" And then...she proceeds to tell me that when Chad Michael Murray was in hs...he was a nerd and no girls liked him. As you can see Debs has been a great influence on my sister.
It's hard to love those who treat you with the greatest disrespect. It's hard to love those who throw scathing words at you. It's hard to love those who trample all over you on a bad day. It's hard to love those who hate you. But I love them because Jesus first loved me.
In the midst of a crummy day, God placed this song in my view:
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more...
More--- Matthew West
Haha...so I was listening to Brandy's You Dont Know...and Isabel walks in and starts dancing. I gotta say..she's this crazy little coreographer. Her and her little buds Megan and Emily spend hours each week making up dances to songs. Their project this past week was Jessica Simpson's With You. Oh and I was reading Christine's blog when she walked in and she saw her new "I love nerds" shirt...and she asked me, "Gah jie...are you a nerd?" And then...she proceeds to tell me that when Chad Michael Murray was in hs...he was a nerd and no girls liked him. As you can see Debs has been a great influence on my sister.
It's hard to love those who treat you with the greatest disrespect. It's hard to love those who throw scathing words at you. It's hard to love those who trample all over you on a bad day. It's hard to love those who hate you. But I love them because Jesus first loved me.
In the midst of a crummy day, God placed this song in my view:
I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today
And tomorrow, I'll say it again and again
I love you more...
More--- Matthew West
Monday, March 29, 2004
It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need
someone to clean up after them. Anita, age 9
Blogging is like procrastination, you can get hooked. I promise to limit my long entries for the sake of those who read an infinite number of blogs a day. But thanks for stopping by to visit Joey. However, some days I just feel the need to type for long periods of time. Some things are just meant to be written out if not said.
April is a pretty crazy month. So much is happening around me that I feel a tad whelmed. But this is good....cuz it keeps me from being indifferent and numb to situations and relationships in my life while helping me pursue growth in my prayer life. I like being whelmed because it keeps my senses keen. I suppose that's one of the reasons why I love remember peoples' birthdays...and learning to say the alphabet backwards in 3 seconds. By whelmed I dont really mean overwhelmed-- having a lot of stuff going on or being bombarded with an overload of activities. For me it's being able to sustain a balance between being able to do the things i enjoy and doing the things I need to do but not necessarily prefer doing. It's actually a rather difficult task. It's not hard to make time to do the things i like to do, but it's all that school grunge work that's so tedious and thorny to cope with. It's that aspect of my whelmness that makes my balance so hard to attain. haha... okay this entry is getting long...and I'll stop before I lose myself and I lose you. This is by far one of the most meaningless entries I've ever written.
Did I ever mention that I got this email from this person who has a website and they wanted to link my blog under the "chinese herbal medicine" category? I found that rather amusing...chinese herbal is good stuff...does everything need a scientific explanation?
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" Phil 4: 6-7
someone to clean up after them. Anita, age 9
Blogging is like procrastination, you can get hooked. I promise to limit my long entries for the sake of those who read an infinite number of blogs a day. But thanks for stopping by to visit Joey. However, some days I just feel the need to type for long periods of time. Some things are just meant to be written out if not said.
April is a pretty crazy month. So much is happening around me that I feel a tad whelmed. But this is good....cuz it keeps me from being indifferent and numb to situations and relationships in my life while helping me pursue growth in my prayer life. I like being whelmed because it keeps my senses keen. I suppose that's one of the reasons why I love remember peoples' birthdays...and learning to say the alphabet backwards in 3 seconds. By whelmed I dont really mean overwhelmed-- having a lot of stuff going on or being bombarded with an overload of activities. For me it's being able to sustain a balance between being able to do the things i enjoy and doing the things I need to do but not necessarily prefer doing. It's actually a rather difficult task. It's not hard to make time to do the things i like to do, but it's all that school grunge work that's so tedious and thorny to cope with. It's that aspect of my whelmness that makes my balance so hard to attain. haha... okay this entry is getting long...and I'll stop before I lose myself and I lose you. This is by far one of the most meaningless entries I've ever written.
Did I ever mention that I got this email from this person who has a website and they wanted to link my blog under the "chinese herbal medicine" category? I found that rather amusing...chinese herbal is good stuff...does everything need a scientific explanation?
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" Phil 4: 6-7
Sunday, March 28, 2004
from here on out.......
brace yourselves for a long one
It's funny how when I was younger, I dealt with things a certain way; and as a result of the experiences in my life, I gained more wisdom in my decisions, and a different perspective about a lot of things. Some of the same issues I encounter now that I had to face when I was younger, seem so trivial and so not worth the time...knowing that it's not as important as I once perceived it to be. But back in the day, if things failed or just didn't go my way, it was the end of the world. Throughout the years I've come to understand that the sacrifices made are worth it cuz through it all you learn what things are truly important in life. So i guess growing older does have it's pluses.
For a while I knew I wanted to go to UT. I've always been passionate about going into social work, and when i visited the Longhorn saturday, I loved it. The students that gave the orientation were great. After that I liked UT, but I knew that if i didn't get in, I wouldn't be bummed at all cuz I know my Father has the perfect, most beautiful plan for my life, and I was excited to wait and see what that would be. After getting my acceptance to St. Edwards, it was awesome knowing that my future could be in social work and that I would be in Austin. I liked almost everything about St. Edwards. It was then that I realized my contentment for God's plan, and amazingly I got accepted into UT.
After my acceptance I had one fear, and that was to fall into the college trend. I've moved around a lot throughout my life, and I know what it feels like to start over-- to feel totally uncomfortable with your surroundings...and it's not a pretty feeling. But I've always thought that college would be somewhat like that. It may sound odd, but that's actually how i want college to be. I want it to be a place where I'm lifted out of my comfort zone and truly have to learn dependence and trust in God. I figured that if I went to UT i wouldn't be able to experience that completely. so.. for the past several months, I'd been praying about joining a servant team this summer in Mexico. I pretty much left it up to God, although I really wanted to go. After months of praying, I realized that Mexico this summer wasn't in God's will. I'd initially wanted to be a part of the work crew down there to able to serve God and discover more about him by taking a step out of my comfort zone. Well, my plans got shot down...but that's when God's plan came into play. I was seriously considering St.Ed's over UT believing it would be a good experience to explore something different...away from friends...despite the fact that I know perfectly well what that's like. And there were a lot of other reasons why I would have chosen St. Ed's over UT. But through prayer... the little reasons started becoming reasons why I should go to UT. It's funny how God works. Cuz today I was still having some doubts....but well friends are like messengers from God sometimes, and I'm glad God crossed one in my path today. She really reminded me that the college experience depends on how I make it. No matter where I go I wont have to worry about the whole comfort issue... when you go to school with tens of thousands of people...one way or another you'll face an uncomfortable situation....it's just an added bonus when you have friends to share the experience with. I still dont want to be just another typical machine pumped chinese church going person at UT making all sorts of commitments as a frosh, but I do want to lead a fulfilling college experience...and I know God will make that happen at UT...so that's where I'm headed this fall.
And you know what else is funny? Just when you think you're done praying.....that's when the praying really begins. =) It's like i've overcome my plans....letting go of all I've hoped for...but now it's God's turn to run things...and His path is beginning to look clear...but somewhat scary as well. But like I always say, I dont know what the future holds, but I'm sure glad I know who holds the future.
brace yourselves for a long one
It's funny how when I was younger, I dealt with things a certain way; and as a result of the experiences in my life, I gained more wisdom in my decisions, and a different perspective about a lot of things. Some of the same issues I encounter now that I had to face when I was younger, seem so trivial and so not worth the time...knowing that it's not as important as I once perceived it to be. But back in the day, if things failed or just didn't go my way, it was the end of the world. Throughout the years I've come to understand that the sacrifices made are worth it cuz through it all you learn what things are truly important in life. So i guess growing older does have it's pluses.
For a while I knew I wanted to go to UT. I've always been passionate about going into social work, and when i visited the Longhorn saturday, I loved it. The students that gave the orientation were great. After that I liked UT, but I knew that if i didn't get in, I wouldn't be bummed at all cuz I know my Father has the perfect, most beautiful plan for my life, and I was excited to wait and see what that would be. After getting my acceptance to St. Edwards, it was awesome knowing that my future could be in social work and that I would be in Austin. I liked almost everything about St. Edwards. It was then that I realized my contentment for God's plan, and amazingly I got accepted into UT.
After my acceptance I had one fear, and that was to fall into the college trend. I've moved around a lot throughout my life, and I know what it feels like to start over-- to feel totally uncomfortable with your surroundings...and it's not a pretty feeling. But I've always thought that college would be somewhat like that. It may sound odd, but that's actually how i want college to be. I want it to be a place where I'm lifted out of my comfort zone and truly have to learn dependence and trust in God. I figured that if I went to UT i wouldn't be able to experience that completely. so.. for the past several months, I'd been praying about joining a servant team this summer in Mexico. I pretty much left it up to God, although I really wanted to go. After months of praying, I realized that Mexico this summer wasn't in God's will. I'd initially wanted to be a part of the work crew down there to able to serve God and discover more about him by taking a step out of my comfort zone. Well, my plans got shot down...but that's when God's plan came into play. I was seriously considering St.Ed's over UT believing it would be a good experience to explore something different...away from friends...despite the fact that I know perfectly well what that's like. And there were a lot of other reasons why I would have chosen St. Ed's over UT. But through prayer... the little reasons started becoming reasons why I should go to UT. It's funny how God works. Cuz today I was still having some doubts....but well friends are like messengers from God sometimes, and I'm glad God crossed one in my path today. She really reminded me that the college experience depends on how I make it. No matter where I go I wont have to worry about the whole comfort issue... when you go to school with tens of thousands of people...one way or another you'll face an uncomfortable situation....it's just an added bonus when you have friends to share the experience with. I still dont want to be just another typical machine pumped chinese church going person at UT making all sorts of commitments as a frosh, but I do want to lead a fulfilling college experience...and I know God will make that happen at UT...so that's where I'm headed this fall.
And you know what else is funny? Just when you think you're done praying.....that's when the praying really begins. =) It's like i've overcome my plans....letting go of all I've hoped for...but now it's God's turn to run things...and His path is beginning to look clear...but somewhat scary as well. But like I always say, I dont know what the future holds, but I'm sure glad I know who holds the future.
Saturday, March 27, 2004
I wanna hold your hand.......
I love oldies. awesome song....is it by the beetles?
The past couple of days have been a blur. A lot of busy work this week. I know I wanted to blog about something yesterday, but I fell asleep around 9 and i missed that chance. So I'll talk about my track meet today.
Well, I had A lunch so i got to see ALL the girls at school!!!!! that's the first time besides Glo's orch concert that that's happened. Juice, G-shock, Coons, and Honer were ALL there!!! and the kewl part was coons and honer dont usually have A lunch...so today was extra bonus day. So it was pleasant missing physics, although I have to make up a lab now... and it's a shame i missed english cuz I really like that class and ms. spradley's awesome. It was amusing having her explain the assignment to me.
Anyhoo, got to bus around 12 and headed to Brenham, home of the bluebell ice cream. OOOOH and the stadium we ran at was right across the street from bluebell and a coke factory. Well, it took close to two hours to get there. We were 30 minutes away from A&M so...and ex-track hero from clements came to visit us. OHH and this dude from UT who went to Brenham HS came to watch the meet cuz he holds the high jump record there...the high jump record for Texas, the high jump record for nationals, and the high jump record for the junior olympics....and he's trying out for the olympics in a few weeks. And he was wearing this HUGE burnt orange wind breaker...and he was SUPER tall. I guess that's why he can almost jump an 8 foot pole.
I shant reminisce about my debut on the track today, cuz that's nothing to remember this all-star by. But I think this is the first meet I've actually bonded with the rest of the team. I've always known the hurdlers and we're tite cuz we know how it feels to suffer the joys and pains in our event. But then I actually got to know a couple of other people pretty well in the past two meets also. It's funny how we've actually known each other for the past three years but never really associated with one another till the second to last meet before districts. The meet was really fun...good times, bumming with two weirdos on the bus.....although this sleeping machine couldn't help falling asleep and waking at random moments.
Every track season, I get this feeling that I want it to end because it's time consuming, stressful, and tiring...but when it ends I wish it wasn't over year. This year, I feel a little different cuz I know it's the last time in my life that I'm gonna be doing something that I really love doing....so the thought of wanting this season to be over hasn't really crossed my mind....and I'm definitely gonna be pretty darn sad when my track career is over. Don't even give me the "you can run in college" business... I sorta blew my chance at that after freshman year....but it woulda been awesome to be good enough for college track. But I figure there's gonna be bigger and better things....and track will always have one of the fondest memories in my mind.
I cant wait until the olympics. Watching the olympics makes me feel alive for some reason. It's amazingly exhilarating watching people run fast, jump high, fly through the air, and do all sorts of tricks. I'm oober excited =)
bahh.. waking at the crack of dawn tomorrow.....sorta.
I love oldies. awesome song....is it by the beetles?
The past couple of days have been a blur. A lot of busy work this week. I know I wanted to blog about something yesterday, but I fell asleep around 9 and i missed that chance. So I'll talk about my track meet today.
Well, I had A lunch so i got to see ALL the girls at school!!!!! that's the first time besides Glo's orch concert that that's happened. Juice, G-shock, Coons, and Honer were ALL there!!! and the kewl part was coons and honer dont usually have A lunch...so today was extra bonus day. So it was pleasant missing physics, although I have to make up a lab now... and it's a shame i missed english cuz I really like that class and ms. spradley's awesome. It was amusing having her explain the assignment to me.
Anyhoo, got to bus around 12 and headed to Brenham, home of the bluebell ice cream. OOOOH and the stadium we ran at was right across the street from bluebell and a coke factory. Well, it took close to two hours to get there. We were 30 minutes away from A&M so...and ex-track hero from clements came to visit us. OHH and this dude from UT who went to Brenham HS came to watch the meet cuz he holds the high jump record there...the high jump record for Texas, the high jump record for nationals, and the high jump record for the junior olympics....and he's trying out for the olympics in a few weeks. And he was wearing this HUGE burnt orange wind breaker...and he was SUPER tall. I guess that's why he can almost jump an 8 foot pole.
I shant reminisce about my debut on the track today, cuz that's nothing to remember this all-star by. But I think this is the first meet I've actually bonded with the rest of the team. I've always known the hurdlers and we're tite cuz we know how it feels to suffer the joys and pains in our event. But then I actually got to know a couple of other people pretty well in the past two meets also. It's funny how we've actually known each other for the past three years but never really associated with one another till the second to last meet before districts. The meet was really fun...good times, bumming with two weirdos on the bus.....although this sleeping machine couldn't help falling asleep and waking at random moments.
Every track season, I get this feeling that I want it to end because it's time consuming, stressful, and tiring...but when it ends I wish it wasn't over year. This year, I feel a little different cuz I know it's the last time in my life that I'm gonna be doing something that I really love doing....so the thought of wanting this season to be over hasn't really crossed my mind....and I'm definitely gonna be pretty darn sad when my track career is over. Don't even give me the "you can run in college" business... I sorta blew my chance at that after freshman year....but it woulda been awesome to be good enough for college track. But I figure there's gonna be bigger and better things....and track will always have one of the fondest memories in my mind.
I cant wait until the olympics. Watching the olympics makes me feel alive for some reason. It's amazingly exhilarating watching people run fast, jump high, fly through the air, and do all sorts of tricks. I'm oober excited =)
bahh.. waking at the crack of dawn tomorrow.....sorta.
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
Omnipotent.....
I was driving home from C.O.P when I started singing this hymn:
God's way is the best way
God's way is the right way
I'll trust in Him always
He knoweth the best
Being in the presence of God and finding confidence that he heard my prayers tonight at concert of prayer left me standing in awe of Him. I love knowing that there's someone out there that has total control of what's going on and what's going to happen...and He's got the perfect plan for my life. This hymn reminds me of how sometimes when I pray, I expect things to happen just as I'd hoped they would...but "God's way is the best way" and he truly "knoweth the best" so at times life isn't the pretty picture you paint for yourself. Sometimes after God's answered my prayer, I'll reflect on just how he answered it; and if I'm lucky, I'll understand a part of the reason why things turned out God's way and not my own. Thank goodness God doesn't always answer prayers my way....His purposes are always so richly blessed. It's not always evident at first, but it's like a puzzle...bit by bit...it all starts to piece together. As overstated as it may be.... there is a reason for everything....
and now.. to be anticlimatic....I went to baskin robins today with one of the awesome track girls. She had my all time favorite Pralines and cream...and i ventured to try something new: Key Lime Pie.....talk about DElicioUS. IOno...everyone should try it...just like everyone should try pralines and cream and bubble gum at maggie moos. Oh and grapes are good....I came home today and witnessed the most amazing spectacle... grapes and apples in the same drainer...*drool....I love fruit.
I was driving home from C.O.P when I started singing this hymn:
God's way is the best way
God's way is the right way
I'll trust in Him always
He knoweth the best
Being in the presence of God and finding confidence that he heard my prayers tonight at concert of prayer left me standing in awe of Him. I love knowing that there's someone out there that has total control of what's going on and what's going to happen...and He's got the perfect plan for my life. This hymn reminds me of how sometimes when I pray, I expect things to happen just as I'd hoped they would...but "God's way is the best way" and he truly "knoweth the best" so at times life isn't the pretty picture you paint for yourself. Sometimes after God's answered my prayer, I'll reflect on just how he answered it; and if I'm lucky, I'll understand a part of the reason why things turned out God's way and not my own. Thank goodness God doesn't always answer prayers my way....His purposes are always so richly blessed. It's not always evident at first, but it's like a puzzle...bit by bit...it all starts to piece together. As overstated as it may be.... there is a reason for everything....
and now.. to be anticlimatic....I went to baskin robins today with one of the awesome track girls. She had my all time favorite Pralines and cream...and i ventured to try something new: Key Lime Pie.....talk about DElicioUS. IOno...everyone should try it...just like everyone should try pralines and cream and bubble gum at maggie moos. Oh and grapes are good....I came home today and witnessed the most amazing spectacle... grapes and apples in the same drainer...*drool....I love fruit.
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
Every time.....
So I decided to play a little catch up with my fob tv before I started off on my Gulliver's Travel binge. I flipped to the movie channel and I came across this really wacky korean movie. My face was twisted up after watching the last 4 minutes of the movie. So here's the plot so you can share in my twisted face experience:
So this guy meets his roomie's older sister in high school and he totally falls head over heals for her. This guy gets really sad when he sees the girl of his dreams going out with all these guys in college. So he had planned to express his feelings for her when he realized he couldn't muster up enough courage to do so. SO the alternate solution? Dress up like a woman so he could get close to her and become her best friend....and that's exactly what happened. Well, the girl finally finds herself a man whom she thinks she can settle with and now that her and the guy that really likes her are best friends, she tells him everything about her life (not knowing that he/she was truly her brother's roommate) Then she finds out that her bf was cheating on her and she runs home and pours out her heart to the cross dresser that really likes her. SO then the love sick puppy guy goes to find the girl's bf and confronts him about his appalling behavior...and he gets SO ticked that he pulls off his wig and reveals his true man identity just as the girl walks into the restaurant...thus discovering his little secret *gasp* so at this point everyone is a little disgusted. The girl's bf gets the socking of his life and faints....and the girl later confronts her secret admire about his little secret.....life goes on and they split for good. Time goes by and the girl finds the ex-cross dressers diary in her brother's college boxes in her house. She discovers all the sacrifices the guy had made for her and decides to dump her bf and hook up with the younger-than-her-cross-dressing-man-who-was-deeply-infatuated with her.
I was actually anticipating one of those typical Asian endings. You know....how the girl all of a sudden acquires cancer thus providing the opportunity for the guy to express his true feelings for her...and when he finally decides to tell her how much he loves her...she dies. So in a way I'm glad I didn't waste ten minutes of my life watching another Asian tragedy...
When it comes to reading books, I have one fear: The Fear of Falling Asleep. I love to read, but I love to sleep more...and it doesn't help that I'm one of the world’s second slowest readers. But you know, for once I have the determination to press on....
Deuteronomy 31:6
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
In my weakness He is my strength...and when I can't bear to stay awake any longer...He'll be there to wake me up. So now I'm off to an adventure of a lifetime.....reading a novel satirizing old fashioned travel books.
So I decided to play a little catch up with my fob tv before I started off on my Gulliver's Travel binge. I flipped to the movie channel and I came across this really wacky korean movie. My face was twisted up after watching the last 4 minutes of the movie. So here's the plot so you can share in my twisted face experience:
So this guy meets his roomie's older sister in high school and he totally falls head over heals for her. This guy gets really sad when he sees the girl of his dreams going out with all these guys in college. So he had planned to express his feelings for her when he realized he couldn't muster up enough courage to do so. SO the alternate solution? Dress up like a woman so he could get close to her and become her best friend....and that's exactly what happened. Well, the girl finally finds herself a man whom she thinks she can settle with and now that her and the guy that really likes her are best friends, she tells him everything about her life (not knowing that he/she was truly her brother's roommate) Then she finds out that her bf was cheating on her and she runs home and pours out her heart to the cross dresser that really likes her. SO then the love sick puppy guy goes to find the girl's bf and confronts him about his appalling behavior...and he gets SO ticked that he pulls off his wig and reveals his true man identity just as the girl walks into the restaurant...thus discovering his little secret *gasp* so at this point everyone is a little disgusted. The girl's bf gets the socking of his life and faints....and the girl later confronts her secret admire about his little secret.....life goes on and they split for good. Time goes by and the girl finds the ex-cross dressers diary in her brother's college boxes in her house. She discovers all the sacrifices the guy had made for her and decides to dump her bf and hook up with the younger-than-her-cross-dressing-man-who-was-deeply-infatuated with her.
I was actually anticipating one of those typical Asian endings. You know....how the girl all of a sudden acquires cancer thus providing the opportunity for the guy to express his true feelings for her...and when he finally decides to tell her how much he loves her...she dies. So in a way I'm glad I didn't waste ten minutes of my life watching another Asian tragedy...
When it comes to reading books, I have one fear: The Fear of Falling Asleep. I love to read, but I love to sleep more...and it doesn't help that I'm one of the world’s second slowest readers. But you know, for once I have the determination to press on....
Deuteronomy 31:6
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
In my weakness He is my strength...and when I can't bear to stay awake any longer...He'll be there to wake me up. So now I'm off to an adventure of a lifetime.....reading a novel satirizing old fashioned travel books.
Monday, March 22, 2004
I'm alright...it only hurts when I'm breathing......
So what did this long long day of mine consist of?
I couldn't find two matching socks this morning, so one sock was longer than the other.
I discovered that I bought crunchy granola bars instead of chewy.
I ordered a small track shirt, they gave me a medium.
I found an entire package of strudel bites with mold all over them, which i had to throw away.
I discovered we have packages of chicken sandwich meat that looks like ham.
I finally passed a cal test.
I realized I stayed up until the wee hours to finish my govt packet for no reason, but now i'm ahead of the gang so woohoo.
It feels like my legs are splitting in half, shin splins = big mofo. (currently have huge ice packs on legs)
I came home after practice (thank goodness we didn't go to kempner today), and made myself a nice large cup of ICED CHAI tea latte =)
And now....I think it's time to start my hw since teachers are so kind to us these months right before the APs...and we're bombarded with oodles of reviews. But you know what? That's okay...in a few months these little high school joys will come to a permanent close. *tear*
oh and Peter so kindly reminded me that I have indeed accomplished more than one task on my to-do before graduation list: college acceptance letter. =)
I heard Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is really good.
So what did this long long day of mine consist of?
I couldn't find two matching socks this morning, so one sock was longer than the other.
I discovered that I bought crunchy granola bars instead of chewy.
I ordered a small track shirt, they gave me a medium.
I found an entire package of strudel bites with mold all over them, which i had to throw away.
I discovered we have packages of chicken sandwich meat that looks like ham.
I finally passed a cal test.
I realized I stayed up until the wee hours to finish my govt packet for no reason, but now i'm ahead of the gang so woohoo.
It feels like my legs are splitting in half, shin splins = big mofo. (currently have huge ice packs on legs)
I came home after practice (thank goodness we didn't go to kempner today), and made myself a nice large cup of ICED CHAI tea latte =)
And now....I think it's time to start my hw since teachers are so kind to us these months right before the APs...and we're bombarded with oodles of reviews. But you know what? That's okay...in a few months these little high school joys will come to a permanent close. *tear*
oh and Peter so kindly reminded me that I have indeed accomplished more than one task on my to-do before graduation list: college acceptance letter. =)
I heard Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is really good.
Sunday, March 21, 2004
every person is a book waiting to be read....we all have a story to tell...
This is by far one of the best breaks I've had in a while. I didn't really have to worry about any homework stuff until about an hour ago =) but that's another story I'll save for later.
This time last year I went camping in Corpus Christi. That took me a while to remember. Gosh...i've made a lot of memories this past year. I was putting some pictures in my photo album this afternoon and I realized that a lot has changed, and in the days to come, a lot more will change. It's a pitty how changes aren't always good. There's so many times in my life where I wish I could freeze frame the picture. You know what they say about pictures...they only show the best part of memories...I guess that's what makes them so treasured...and maybe that's why I like em so much. Looking at old pictures always makes me smile really big...like how a baby smiles when they see this super awesome fluffy stuffed bunny. I like looking at old pictures and remembering the good and the bad times, and think about the things i've learned and how i've grown as a result of the pain, frustration, joy, and love.
I remember that list of things I want to do before I graduate. So far I've only accomplished one thing...cooking dinner for my family. Next weekend, isabel might come visit my potentially clean room. Hopefully, I'll get to go to a concert in the months to come, and maybe if I'm lucky, I'll stay awake long enough to witness the sunrise.
God's been good to me Oh God's always been good....
This is by far one of the best breaks I've had in a while. I didn't really have to worry about any homework stuff until about an hour ago =) but that's another story I'll save for later.
This time last year I went camping in Corpus Christi. That took me a while to remember. Gosh...i've made a lot of memories this past year. I was putting some pictures in my photo album this afternoon and I realized that a lot has changed, and in the days to come, a lot more will change. It's a pitty how changes aren't always good. There's so many times in my life where I wish I could freeze frame the picture. You know what they say about pictures...they only show the best part of memories...I guess that's what makes them so treasured...and maybe that's why I like em so much. Looking at old pictures always makes me smile really big...like how a baby smiles when they see this super awesome fluffy stuffed bunny. I like looking at old pictures and remembering the good and the bad times, and think about the things i've learned and how i've grown as a result of the pain, frustration, joy, and love.
I remember that list of things I want to do before I graduate. So far I've only accomplished one thing...cooking dinner for my family. Next weekend, isabel might come visit my potentially clean room. Hopefully, I'll get to go to a concert in the months to come, and maybe if I'm lucky, I'll stay awake long enough to witness the sunrise.
God's been good to me Oh God's always been good....
Saturday, March 20, 2004
the agony of defeat.....
Today could have easily been the worst day of my life...but you know, God wouldn't let that happen. I could have fallen miserably and once again scrapped up my entire body. I could have gotten a heat stroke. I could have thrown up. I could have missed the bus. I could have been spiked in the head. But God didn't let that happen =)
Despite all that did not happen, I shall share with you what did happen. Today was by far the longest day of my entire life. Woke up at 6:20 this morning. Brushed my teeth and then I ate a nice hearty peanut butter and banana sandwich. =D Dug around my house for a working set of headsets for my cd player...didnt find one. Left my house at 6:55....and made it to school just as the bus was about to leave at 7:03. We arrived at Warton at who knows when, but I just woke up from a nice 45 minutes nap. It was really cloudy and the entire team was hoping and praying that perhaps the meet would rain out and no one would have to run. It didn't rain. In fact, the weather was SOO good that everyone got burned in some way or another. So i waited for about 4-5 hours before I had to run. By that time I was rather sleepy. Warmed up with the resta the hurdle girls (and surprise we were the majority at the meet today =D) Ran a stinky race, buuttt I made finals so that was awesome. So after I ran, I cheered on my teamates who did superb. OHHH and lunch was REALLY GOOD. I love attending events with great lunches...that's why Jess draged me to math olympiad in middle school =P So you're prolly wondering wut i ate. Well, I ate a HUGE sloppy joe sandwich, pickels, cheetos, starbursts, and a dr.pepper. Talk abt massive energy boost. Aftear waiting another 2 hrs. I ran again. and AHHHHHH I RAN THE FASTEST TIME I'VE EVER RUN IN HS! so that was the good part.....and the bad part is... I've never had such a painful race before. The two girls to the left and right lanes of me in the heat...were clearly amateurs. I've NEVER in my hurdling career been slapped so brutally. I remember my deathly fall freshman year was the result of such an attack. However, today I was a fighter....but these girls were beastly. Maaan....and you will never understand the agony of defeat until you miss the silver medal by .01 seconds...yes.... a HUNDRETH of a second. And so i came in fourth because both the girls slapped me at the last hurdle and I came tumbling in fourth. and my dreams of getting a medal melted away in less than a blink of an eye. I'll take me some time to forgive myself. However, after I ran through the first flight of hurdles to qualify for finals, I could SOOO feel the presence of God and i KNEW that someone had been praying for me. So I thank you. You know who you are...and I'm so blessed to have experienced the power of that prayer today. =)
Like I said...today was a long day. And I've been SO blessed in every way. I didnt have to run the 300 meter hurdles, which i absolutely loathe....and i was fortunate to walk away unscathed .....save for a burnt nose. And when I only expected to be running through 100 meter hurdles once today...God placed me in a position to run twice...and both times I was able to overcome that jinx of falling at the first meet of every season. God is good all the time....all the time God is good....
when in doubt...trust in God....and pray....the ultimate solution to every great obstacle in life.
boy is it good to be home 12 hrs from this morning.
Today could have easily been the worst day of my life...but you know, God wouldn't let that happen. I could have fallen miserably and once again scrapped up my entire body. I could have gotten a heat stroke. I could have thrown up. I could have missed the bus. I could have been spiked in the head. But God didn't let that happen =)
Despite all that did not happen, I shall share with you what did happen. Today was by far the longest day of my entire life. Woke up at 6:20 this morning. Brushed my teeth and then I ate a nice hearty peanut butter and banana sandwich. =D Dug around my house for a working set of headsets for my cd player...didnt find one. Left my house at 6:55....and made it to school just as the bus was about to leave at 7:03. We arrived at Warton at who knows when, but I just woke up from a nice 45 minutes nap. It was really cloudy and the entire team was hoping and praying that perhaps the meet would rain out and no one would have to run. It didn't rain. In fact, the weather was SOO good that everyone got burned in some way or another. So i waited for about 4-5 hours before I had to run. By that time I was rather sleepy. Warmed up with the resta the hurdle girls (and surprise we were the majority at the meet today =D) Ran a stinky race, buuttt I made finals so that was awesome. So after I ran, I cheered on my teamates who did superb. OHHH and lunch was REALLY GOOD. I love attending events with great lunches...that's why Jess draged me to math olympiad in middle school =P So you're prolly wondering wut i ate. Well, I ate a HUGE sloppy joe sandwich, pickels, cheetos, starbursts, and a dr.pepper. Talk abt massive energy boost. Aftear waiting another 2 hrs. I ran again. and AHHHHHH I RAN THE FASTEST TIME I'VE EVER RUN IN HS! so that was the good part.....and the bad part is... I've never had such a painful race before. The two girls to the left and right lanes of me in the heat...were clearly amateurs. I've NEVER in my hurdling career been slapped so brutally. I remember my deathly fall freshman year was the result of such an attack. However, today I was a fighter....but these girls were beastly. Maaan....and you will never understand the agony of defeat until you miss the silver medal by .01 seconds...yes.... a HUNDRETH of a second. And so i came in fourth because both the girls slapped me at the last hurdle and I came tumbling in fourth. and my dreams of getting a medal melted away in less than a blink of an eye. I'll take me some time to forgive myself. However, after I ran through the first flight of hurdles to qualify for finals, I could SOOO feel the presence of God and i KNEW that someone had been praying for me. So I thank you. You know who you are...and I'm so blessed to have experienced the power of that prayer today. =)
Like I said...today was a long day. And I've been SO blessed in every way. I didnt have to run the 300 meter hurdles, which i absolutely loathe....and i was fortunate to walk away unscathed .....save for a burnt nose. And when I only expected to be running through 100 meter hurdles once today...God placed me in a position to run twice...and both times I was able to overcome that jinx of falling at the first meet of every season. God is good all the time....all the time God is good....
when in doubt...trust in God....and pray....the ultimate solution to every great obstacle in life.
boy is it good to be home 12 hrs from this morning.
Friday, March 19, 2004
I'll save you the pain of having to read another senseless heading. SO anyhow...wut a wonderful week this one has been. I remembered that I had something to blog about last night when i got home...but now i dont really remember.
Thai Gourmet last night was fun. The loft wasn't as lofty as I'd imagined. I actually imagined this lofty place above the restaurant overlooking the other customers.....I sorta imagined us eating at this table where we would have to kneel and eat uncomfortably. NOw that I think about it, I sorta thought of a Japanese restaurant. Anyhow, the food was good, but not worth the price...however the fellowship really made up for any complaints i might have had. I'll be getting my pictures back soon.... so maybe i'll attempted scanning pictures again. I realize that after using a digital for a while....a roll of film is nothing...24 pictures goes quick...like *snap*
So my first meet fears have returned...not quite as bad as the previous time. so PTL for that. But say a prayer for me if u have the time or if u remember....I dont wanna fall tomorrow, but that's not really a great fear anymore....i really dont know wut im afraid of. It's one of those "walls" in life that I just gotta overcome. Once again... trust God with everything...even the stupid things like being able to survive 18 hurdles. That's like...nothing for the guy who created the heavens and the earth right?
I think i've succumbed to writing with lots of periods again... after finishing all my college essays...i've ascending from that mentality. I'm back to my old self again...no longer striving to achieve high writing quality...i mean... cuz "it doesnt really matter anymore." Hum...i'm having some really random thoughts today.
Drama team was great. The whole team is very lovable. They're talented, easy-going, and fun to work with. I learn new things about them every time. Last time... il learned that if Niki kept her last name, got married, and had a child, and named it CHCH....then her kid would be called CH-CHNG...sorta like ch-ching. Oh...and today I learned that Johanan was born in Florida. Iono...for some reason I find that really interesting. I wonder wut our next encounters will hold.
Ahhh... i love spring break. In fact, I've enjoyed it SO much that my work has been utterly neglected. I feel both ashamed and overwhelmed. But you know...there's no better way to finish my high school career ....but to finish it off strong. My work load isnt too burdensome...i should be able to finish it all tomorrow at the track meet....heck.. i have ALL day to do hw.....it's a blessing in disguise...despite my fears
I guess this kind of entry is the result of lack of brain usage for the past howevermanydayswe'vebeenonbreak. Hope your break was super duperde duuuuper great.
Thai Gourmet last night was fun. The loft wasn't as lofty as I'd imagined. I actually imagined this lofty place above the restaurant overlooking the other customers.....I sorta imagined us eating at this table where we would have to kneel and eat uncomfortably. NOw that I think about it, I sorta thought of a Japanese restaurant. Anyhow, the food was good, but not worth the price...however the fellowship really made up for any complaints i might have had. I'll be getting my pictures back soon.... so maybe i'll attempted scanning pictures again. I realize that after using a digital for a while....a roll of film is nothing...24 pictures goes quick...like *snap*
So my first meet fears have returned...not quite as bad as the previous time. so PTL for that. But say a prayer for me if u have the time or if u remember....I dont wanna fall tomorrow, but that's not really a great fear anymore....i really dont know wut im afraid of. It's one of those "walls" in life that I just gotta overcome. Once again... trust God with everything...even the stupid things like being able to survive 18 hurdles. That's like...nothing for the guy who created the heavens and the earth right?
I think i've succumbed to writing with lots of periods again... after finishing all my college essays...i've ascending from that mentality. I'm back to my old self again...no longer striving to achieve high writing quality...i mean... cuz "it doesnt really matter anymore." Hum...i'm having some really random thoughts today.
Drama team was great. The whole team is very lovable. They're talented, easy-going, and fun to work with. I learn new things about them every time. Last time... il learned that if Niki kept her last name, got married, and had a child, and named it CHCH....then her kid would be called CH-CHNG...sorta like ch-ching. Oh...and today I learned that Johanan was born in Florida. Iono...for some reason I find that really interesting. I wonder wut our next encounters will hold.
Ahhh... i love spring break. In fact, I've enjoyed it SO much that my work has been utterly neglected. I feel both ashamed and overwhelmed. But you know...there's no better way to finish my high school career ....but to finish it off strong. My work load isnt too burdensome...i should be able to finish it all tomorrow at the track meet....heck.. i have ALL day to do hw.....it's a blessing in disguise...despite my fears
I guess this kind of entry is the result of lack of brain usage for the past howevermanydayswe'vebeenonbreak. Hope your break was super duperde duuuuper great.
Thursday, March 18, 2004
reality check.....
It was fun volunteering to put together easter baskets this morning. Through miss Jan's sharing I was reminded that full time ministry emcompasses a wide array of things, even a doll ministry. It's always a curious thing when God calls you to something but a direction hasn't completely been revealed. But then, in the long run it becomes so clear what it is you're lead to do.
I like my CBS group. We are the epitome of a small group...in a literal sense of course. Our rather small number of members enabled us to ride in Margarete's convertible. It was amusing watching Mich's hair flap around in the wind. Anyhow, it was nice just talking with the girls tonight about whatnot. some things to think about.
To my surprise, I actually got myself out to a track today. This afternoon i went track hunting. Apparently, most schools lock up their competition tracks over the break, makes sense. So after about half an hour, I finally found a track. I went to run at the dulles track behind the school. Fortunately, I found some hurdles around the track. There were only 2 and they were both broken. So i looked around the grass for sticks or just any objects to stick into the hurdles so they could be the right size. I managed to find a piece of plastic and bubble gum wrapper, those worked the best. I wonder wut saturday's meet is gonna be like.
tomorrow is another day.
It was fun volunteering to put together easter baskets this morning. Through miss Jan's sharing I was reminded that full time ministry emcompasses a wide array of things, even a doll ministry. It's always a curious thing when God calls you to something but a direction hasn't completely been revealed. But then, in the long run it becomes so clear what it is you're lead to do.
I like my CBS group. We are the epitome of a small group...in a literal sense of course. Our rather small number of members enabled us to ride in Margarete's convertible. It was amusing watching Mich's hair flap around in the wind. Anyhow, it was nice just talking with the girls tonight about whatnot. some things to think about.
To my surprise, I actually got myself out to a track today. This afternoon i went track hunting. Apparently, most schools lock up their competition tracks over the break, makes sense. So after about half an hour, I finally found a track. I went to run at the dulles track behind the school. Fortunately, I found some hurdles around the track. There were only 2 and they were both broken. So i looked around the grass for sticks or just any objects to stick into the hurdles so they could be the right size. I managed to find a piece of plastic and bubble gum wrapper, those worked the best. I wonder wut saturday's meet is gonna be like.
tomorrow is another day.
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
it's a beautiful day in the neighborhood....
I dont know where to begin. I'm lodged at that point where I'm tired and not tired but I dont exactly feel like sleeping either. So i guess i'll talk about my break thus far. exciting i tell ya. Renewed my passport yesterday, got a chance to unintentionally explore Richmond, that was exciting. I also got to try the Santa Fe Trio sandwich at Quiznos. Em... man.. now i really cant decide which i like better...Subway or Quiznos. They both have their pluses. Speaking of which I'm craving subway. I think i've been craving it since last summer.....the last time i had it.
Went to Galveston today. It was a lot cooler than I expected, but I like cool weather, so it was really nice. I think i flew a kite for about 2 hrs. It's actually pretty fun watching this colorful flying thing fluttering in the sky. And there's this odd thrill of letting the kite string roll between the grip of your hands and watching the kite fly. I remember when i was younger, I always go those cheapy paper kites that birds liked to peck at, so they never lasted too long. I always wanted those more plasticy material kites, like Annie's kite that i flew today. And my greatest apologies to JE for all those jabs to his spine i made with my knee. But it was worth the pain right? We eventually got a wonderful picture of a pyramid! Just look at Debstine blog. hehe...It was fun being at the beach, altho galveston beaches aren't the prettiest ones i've ever been to, I still think the ocean's awesome. I still can't believe I didnt manage to stay up all night to watch the sunrise at wintergetaway. I have yet to accomplish the task of watching a sunrise before i graduate.
It's frustrating sometimes knowing that your friend is doing something stupid but they're forcing themselves to learn the hard way because they wont believe you.
I dont know where to begin. I'm lodged at that point where I'm tired and not tired but I dont exactly feel like sleeping either. So i guess i'll talk about my break thus far. exciting i tell ya. Renewed my passport yesterday, got a chance to unintentionally explore Richmond, that was exciting. I also got to try the Santa Fe Trio sandwich at Quiznos. Em... man.. now i really cant decide which i like better...Subway or Quiznos. They both have their pluses. Speaking of which I'm craving subway. I think i've been craving it since last summer.....the last time i had it.
Went to Galveston today. It was a lot cooler than I expected, but I like cool weather, so it was really nice. I think i flew a kite for about 2 hrs. It's actually pretty fun watching this colorful flying thing fluttering in the sky. And there's this odd thrill of letting the kite string roll between the grip of your hands and watching the kite fly. I remember when i was younger, I always go those cheapy paper kites that birds liked to peck at, so they never lasted too long. I always wanted those more plasticy material kites, like Annie's kite that i flew today. And my greatest apologies to JE for all those jabs to his spine i made with my knee. But it was worth the pain right? We eventually got a wonderful picture of a pyramid! Just look at Debstine blog. hehe...It was fun being at the beach, altho galveston beaches aren't the prettiest ones i've ever been to, I still think the ocean's awesome. I still can't believe I didnt manage to stay up all night to watch the sunrise at wintergetaway. I have yet to accomplish the task of watching a sunrise before i graduate.
It's frustrating sometimes knowing that your friend is doing something stupid but they're forcing themselves to learn the hard way because they wont believe you.
Monday, March 15, 2004
honesty like a rock.....
Today was a great day. I was little deaf in both my ears cuz of congestion....but nonetheless it was enjoyable. Lunch with friends and dinner with family, what a way to start a break. =) Then I got a call from one of the awesomest people on the face of this planet. It's always so refreshing to catch up with old friends. One of the best kinds of friendships are those that-- although you only see one another once a year, every time you're reunited, the bond is still pretty tight. The bond that holds you together is the connection you have through God. You dont have to see them or talk to them all the time, but you pray for each other whether you ask for it or not, and you listen to each other because of the love and care in the relationship. There's never any frustration, conflict, resentment, or arguments. Nor is there anything to keep from one another. Every thought, every feeling, every emotion, can be totally and completely revealed without any fear. And through all the struggles, hardships, and pain, there's always time in a day to say a prayer or two. This kind of friendship is hard to find, but blessed to have. I praise God for teaching me what it's like to have genunine friendships.
Today was a great day. I was little deaf in both my ears cuz of congestion....but nonetheless it was enjoyable. Lunch with friends and dinner with family, what a way to start a break. =) Then I got a call from one of the awesomest people on the face of this planet. It's always so refreshing to catch up with old friends. One of the best kinds of friendships are those that-- although you only see one another once a year, every time you're reunited, the bond is still pretty tight. The bond that holds you together is the connection you have through God. You dont have to see them or talk to them all the time, but you pray for each other whether you ask for it or not, and you listen to each other because of the love and care in the relationship. There's never any frustration, conflict, resentment, or arguments. Nor is there anything to keep from one another. Every thought, every feeling, every emotion, can be totally and completely revealed without any fear. And through all the struggles, hardships, and pain, there's always time in a day to say a prayer or two. This kind of friendship is hard to find, but blessed to have. I praise God for teaching me what it's like to have genunine friendships.
Sunday, March 14, 2004
Springtastic
if you were wondering...the rodeo was fun. It's kinda relaxing bumming with your family after a long week. The highlights of the night had to be bumper car-ing with Haisun and going on this rollercoaster with Isabel. For starters, my sister (this insanely brave kid that wants to ride on the scariest rides ever) decides to drag her little friend (who is also 7) on this scary ride that spins around and around and around backwards in circles. Well, my sister's friend little bro, Haisun, decides to be brave and wants to go on this ride as well...so the three of them go on this ride. And as it turned out, Haisun was too short to ride by himself, so I had to go with him. I got to ride for free...which was kewl...but then halfway through the ride, he started to wimper...so i waved my arms around like a madwoman to make the guy stop the ride. After that ride, I realized i cant go on rides... not like i use to be able to. Rollercoasters are okay...but nothing that goes around in circles like crazy. Despite my new discovery....i was dragged on to several other rides. Oh and the BEST part was going on this rollercoaster which takes a pic of u during the free fall. So when isabel and i got off the ride we went to see our picture. On the right hand side you see me laughing and next to me is this picture Isabel totally freaked out....her mouth was all twisted and her eyes looked like they'd seen a ghost. We seriously cud not stop cracking up....hahaa....i love my sister she rocks.
The rodeo part of the rodeo was kewl....watching all the Bronc riding and cow wrestling...and barrel racing....yeah.. i never knew u cud do that much with cows and horses. And I never knew that bull riding was an olympic sport! yeah.. rodeo=kewl...altho i didnt get to eat a turkey leg...so the whole experience wasnt complete...nor did I get any funnel cake...but i still had fun. and did i mention....I had to sit through an hour of country music?
watched the Passion for Christ again today. The second time around was much more difficult to watch than the first. Watching it the first time was definitely very emotional. This time was very reflective and eye-cringing. Nevertheless, it was still a great movie. I wont ever be able to fully grasp the depth and love of Christ's passion....
I'm excited about spring break. It couldn't have come at a better timing. perfect timing no?
if you were wondering...the rodeo was fun. It's kinda relaxing bumming with your family after a long week. The highlights of the night had to be bumper car-ing with Haisun and going on this rollercoaster with Isabel. For starters, my sister (this insanely brave kid that wants to ride on the scariest rides ever) decides to drag her little friend (who is also 7) on this scary ride that spins around and around and around backwards in circles. Well, my sister's friend little bro, Haisun, decides to be brave and wants to go on this ride as well...so the three of them go on this ride. And as it turned out, Haisun was too short to ride by himself, so I had to go with him. I got to ride for free...which was kewl...but then halfway through the ride, he started to wimper...so i waved my arms around like a madwoman to make the guy stop the ride. After that ride, I realized i cant go on rides... not like i use to be able to. Rollercoasters are okay...but nothing that goes around in circles like crazy. Despite my new discovery....i was dragged on to several other rides. Oh and the BEST part was going on this rollercoaster which takes a pic of u during the free fall. So when isabel and i got off the ride we went to see our picture. On the right hand side you see me laughing and next to me is this picture Isabel totally freaked out....her mouth was all twisted and her eyes looked like they'd seen a ghost. We seriously cud not stop cracking up....hahaa....i love my sister she rocks.
The rodeo part of the rodeo was kewl....watching all the Bronc riding and cow wrestling...and barrel racing....yeah.. i never knew u cud do that much with cows and horses. And I never knew that bull riding was an olympic sport! yeah.. rodeo=kewl...altho i didnt get to eat a turkey leg...so the whole experience wasnt complete...nor did I get any funnel cake...but i still had fun. and did i mention....I had to sit through an hour of country music?
watched the Passion for Christ again today. The second time around was much more difficult to watch than the first. Watching it the first time was definitely very emotional. This time was very reflective and eye-cringing. Nevertheless, it was still a great movie. I wont ever be able to fully grasp the depth and love of Christ's passion....
I'm excited about spring break. It couldn't have come at a better timing. perfect timing no?
Thursday, March 11, 2004
too lazy to think of an unrelated heading...i can almost hear the applause.
I needed a break from the studying I have just begun. This'll only take a few minutes...which i cant really spare...but i guess you could say im falling for the temptation to blog.
Well, as it turns out, I'm not running in the track meet tomorrow. I guess i feel a sense of relief, but saddness at the same time. Something always seems to come up the day of track meets. Anyhow, my mom got tickets to the rodeo, and i dont really get a chance to hang out with my family much, so I decided I would rather go to the rodeo than a track meet. So for everyone who prayed for me and encouraged me, thank you. I really appreciate it.
It's so bizzare how quickly good news travels. You can tell one person something in the morning...and 3 hrs later a dozen people know about the news. Wouldn't it be exciting if the Good News of Jesus was spread by word of mouth so quickly? Can you imagine HOW many seeds would be planted in a day? It's crazy...why isnt there an excitement to share Jesus the way we cant hold good news in?
well the good news today is...we only have one more obstacle before we will be confronted by the comforts of spring break.....tomorrow.....*pulls hair out* those of you guys will 3874628734 tests tomorrow...I'll definitely be praying for that alertness to stay up and the energy to remember all that you've studied.
I needed a break from the studying I have just begun. This'll only take a few minutes...which i cant really spare...but i guess you could say im falling for the temptation to blog.
Well, as it turns out, I'm not running in the track meet tomorrow. I guess i feel a sense of relief, but saddness at the same time. Something always seems to come up the day of track meets. Anyhow, my mom got tickets to the rodeo, and i dont really get a chance to hang out with my family much, so I decided I would rather go to the rodeo than a track meet. So for everyone who prayed for me and encouraged me, thank you. I really appreciate it.
It's so bizzare how quickly good news travels. You can tell one person something in the morning...and 3 hrs later a dozen people know about the news. Wouldn't it be exciting if the Good News of Jesus was spread by word of mouth so quickly? Can you imagine HOW many seeds would be planted in a day? It's crazy...why isnt there an excitement to share Jesus the way we cant hold good news in?
well the good news today is...we only have one more obstacle before we will be confronted by the comforts of spring break.....tomorrow.....*pulls hair out* those of you guys will 3874628734 tests tomorrow...I'll definitely be praying for that alertness to stay up and the energy to remember all that you've studied.
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
Sunday, March 07, 2004
there's always gonna be someone taller......
despite the fact that I'm really glad my english group gets to go tomorrow for our project...I really wish we woulda gotten to do it last week so I wouldnt have to miss korean bbq tonight. And to think....i really dont have hw cuz i actually finished the stuff due tomorrow yesterday. How diligent...eh?
It's pretty ridiculous how nervous I'm feeling about my track meet this friday. I think going this far into the season and not having run in a track meet yet has really killed my _______ i dont even know the word for it. But yeah, i feel like i'm gonna die. While 3 stepping hurdles once means I've improved, it also means that I'm more prone to falling and landing on my head and eating it bad, like every other year. It's not that past years have casted a shadow over my track career, it's just well, I cant exactly put my emotions into words. My stomach is a mumbo jumbo of feelings right now....and to think it's 5 days away. I cant really remember if I've felt like this in past years or not. Nervousness? Of course. Ridiculously nervous? maybe. There's very few things that I'm actually nervous about. And it's this aspect of track that I would perfer never to have to deal with again after this season. It's funny how the stupidest things can cause a person to feel this way.
And yes, you can even trust God with those things you consider stupid in life. Am I gonna pray about this nervous build up inside of me that feels like it's tearing out my insides? You bet I am. In fact, I'll be so bold as to ask you to pray for me. Running track and living life are relative. Having to overcome obstacles is a part of life as well as running a race. Heck... i run hurdles....i live to overcome hurdles. Just pray that I overcome the ones I'll face friday =) thanks
despite the fact that I'm really glad my english group gets to go tomorrow for our project...I really wish we woulda gotten to do it last week so I wouldnt have to miss korean bbq tonight. And to think....i really dont have hw cuz i actually finished the stuff due tomorrow yesterday. How diligent...eh?
It's pretty ridiculous how nervous I'm feeling about my track meet this friday. I think going this far into the season and not having run in a track meet yet has really killed my _______ i dont even know the word for it. But yeah, i feel like i'm gonna die. While 3 stepping hurdles once means I've improved, it also means that I'm more prone to falling and landing on my head and eating it bad, like every other year. It's not that past years have casted a shadow over my track career, it's just well, I cant exactly put my emotions into words. My stomach is a mumbo jumbo of feelings right now....and to think it's 5 days away. I cant really remember if I've felt like this in past years or not. Nervousness? Of course. Ridiculously nervous? maybe. There's very few things that I'm actually nervous about. And it's this aspect of track that I would perfer never to have to deal with again after this season. It's funny how the stupidest things can cause a person to feel this way.
And yes, you can even trust God with those things you consider stupid in life. Am I gonna pray about this nervous build up inside of me that feels like it's tearing out my insides? You bet I am. In fact, I'll be so bold as to ask you to pray for me. Running track and living life are relative. Having to overcome obstacles is a part of life as well as running a race. Heck... i run hurdles....i live to overcome hurdles. Just pray that I overcome the ones I'll face friday =) thanks
Saturday, March 06, 2004
Dear God Boyz II Men
Dear god, it’s me again
I am so far from where I could have been
Dear god, I would be incomplete
But you came and touched my life in time of need
So I’m thanking you for all you’ve done
And for sacrificing your only Son
That’s why I’m writing you this letter
To let you know that I love you
Thank you for all that I am and for being a friend
Lord, my love for you will never end
Dear god, it’s Ophelia this time
I’m so grateful for the way you’ve changed my life
I’d give all I have, I’d just throw it all away
For a chance to walk with you through heaven’s gates
That’s why I’m thanking you for your love and your grace
I don’t deserve these blessings that you give me
Dear god, as a humble [woman] I come to you like a child
Needing your knowledge, your love, and your guidance, lord
Thank you for trusting me with my own life’s decisions
But I’m just a [woman], and I don’t deserve
This incredible life that you’ve given me
I love you lord, I love you
Dear god, it’s me Ophelia
I’m so sorry, so sorry for living for me
But I promise from this day on I’m livin’ for you
’cause without you my life means nothing
Dear god, it’s me again
I am so far from where I could have been
Dear god, I would be incomplete
But you came and touched my life in time of need
So I’m thanking you for all you’ve done
And for sacrificing your only Son
That’s why I’m writing you this letter
To let you know that I love you
Thank you for all that I am and for being a friend
Lord, my love for you will never end
Dear god, it’s Ophelia this time
I’m so grateful for the way you’ve changed my life
I’d give all I have, I’d just throw it all away
For a chance to walk with you through heaven’s gates
That’s why I’m thanking you for your love and your grace
I don’t deserve these blessings that you give me
Dear god, as a humble [woman] I come to you like a child
Needing your knowledge, your love, and your guidance, lord
Thank you for trusting me with my own life’s decisions
But I’m just a [woman], and I don’t deserve
This incredible life that you’ve given me
I love you lord, I love you
Dear god, it’s me Ophelia
I’m so sorry, so sorry for living for me
But I promise from this day on I’m livin’ for you
’cause without you my life means nothing
Friday, March 05, 2004
Thursday, March 04, 2004
if you give a mouse a cookie.....
What's so delightful about those caramel delights/Samoas? It's odd how they seem to be the most widely adored cookie of them all. Didn't the peanutbutter patties use to be up there on the most wanted list? There's some unspoken policy in my household that only one package of girl scout cookies are opened at a time. First it was these really tasty lemon things....then we had the pinatas and then..the samoas. So i was anxiously waiting for everyone to finishing eating the samoas so we could open our final pack of cookies. yes.....the long awaited THIN MINTS!
I miss those childhood years when my dad use to buy 5 packs of thin mints from every girl scout on the street. We'd have a stash of 20 boxes of thin mints in the freezer that'd last us around a year. Ah yes...the good ole days.
So you might be wondering....but wait! Ophelia hates chocolate! She's allergic to it! She'll break out in hives! Will it kill her?!!? Well, oddly enough....thin mints have never had a bad effect on me. I actually dont really like cookies either, but I like thin mints. So that makes thin mints a combination of two things I dont really like, yet when you put them together it creates a delightful sensation in my mouth.
I was going a little cuckoo reading One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest and writing poetry about the characters....when I discovered my family had broken the golden rule....2 open boxes of girl scout cookies! So I decided thin mints deserves a post all its own. Heck it sure made my day....now it's back to reading and writing...woopdee.
What's so delightful about those caramel delights/Samoas? It's odd how they seem to be the most widely adored cookie of them all. Didn't the peanutbutter patties use to be up there on the most wanted list? There's some unspoken policy in my household that only one package of girl scout cookies are opened at a time. First it was these really tasty lemon things....then we had the pinatas and then..the samoas. So i was anxiously waiting for everyone to finishing eating the samoas so we could open our final pack of cookies. yes.....the long awaited THIN MINTS!
I miss those childhood years when my dad use to buy 5 packs of thin mints from every girl scout on the street. We'd have a stash of 20 boxes of thin mints in the freezer that'd last us around a year. Ah yes...the good ole days.
So you might be wondering....but wait! Ophelia hates chocolate! She's allergic to it! She'll break out in hives! Will it kill her?!!? Well, oddly enough....thin mints have never had a bad effect on me. I actually dont really like cookies either, but I like thin mints. So that makes thin mints a combination of two things I dont really like, yet when you put them together it creates a delightful sensation in my mouth.
I was going a little cuckoo reading One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest and writing poetry about the characters....when I discovered my family had broken the golden rule....2 open boxes of girl scout cookies! So I decided thin mints deserves a post all its own. Heck it sure made my day....now it's back to reading and writing...woopdee.
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
when all is said and all has come undone.....
you know how the little things in life can make you really happy sometimes? Like listening to a funny song, talking to an old friend, or bumming around with people that never cease to put a smile on ur face. In a nutshell, this week has kinda been like that for me. I admit that on the academic side, this week has been an uproar, but mentally and spiritually, it's been pretty refreshing....and at times even ironically relaxing.
Yesterday was by far one of the most amazing days of this semester. For starters the day was kinda surreal and left me questioning if some of the things that happened really happened. At track practice I managed to meet one of my life goals. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I have FINALLY (after 6 years) managed to three step more than once over hurdles. Like i've mentioned before, three stepping is the goal of any hurdler across the world. I was literally screaming and jumping up and down after i unconciously three stepped over the hurdle.....I'm still shocked. I actually havent run in a meet this season yet. I've had to miss the past 2 because of csm stuff, and there wasn't a meet this week....but next friday will bring on the pain. So i guess my love for the sport has been rejuvenated. =) or well... hurdling anyhow.
CBS was great tonight. Interesting as usual ...i love my girls...and Margarete is da bomb. She rocks...just ask Debs or Mich. To say the least, it was both relaxing and edifying being there and seeing some faces that I miss only too often. Yay for friends =)
May this week be a blessing to you. I remember at Star of Hope this guy was praying and he said something i never really think about. he said "Dear Lord, I thank you for this day that I will never live again." It's true...each day you live and the life you live, will only be lived once. John 10:10 Jesus came so that we could live the days that we only have one chance to live to the fullest.
you know how the little things in life can make you really happy sometimes? Like listening to a funny song, talking to an old friend, or bumming around with people that never cease to put a smile on ur face. In a nutshell, this week has kinda been like that for me. I admit that on the academic side, this week has been an uproar, but mentally and spiritually, it's been pretty refreshing....and at times even ironically relaxing.
Yesterday was by far one of the most amazing days of this semester. For starters the day was kinda surreal and left me questioning if some of the things that happened really happened. At track practice I managed to meet one of my life goals. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I have FINALLY (after 6 years) managed to three step more than once over hurdles. Like i've mentioned before, three stepping is the goal of any hurdler across the world. I was literally screaming and jumping up and down after i unconciously three stepped over the hurdle.....I'm still shocked. I actually havent run in a meet this season yet. I've had to miss the past 2 because of csm stuff, and there wasn't a meet this week....but next friday will bring on the pain. So i guess my love for the sport has been rejuvenated. =) or well... hurdling anyhow.
CBS was great tonight. Interesting as usual ...i love my girls...and Margarete is da bomb. She rocks...just ask Debs or Mich. To say the least, it was both relaxing and edifying being there and seeing some faces that I miss only too often. Yay for friends =)
May this week be a blessing to you. I remember at Star of Hope this guy was praying and he said something i never really think about. he said "Dear Lord, I thank you for this day that I will never live again." It's true...each day you live and the life you live, will only be lived once. John 10:10 Jesus came so that we could live the days that we only have one chance to live to the fullest.