"the horror the horror".......
This week, this week, what could i possibly say about this week? I seriously need to stop feeling that the weeks are long. However, that is the plain truth-- my week was long. You could almost say that it was unbearably long..... In fact, i cant really recall anything that happened.... only that I fell asleep when i didnt want to (or even remember that i did), and wasn't able to accomplish what i needed to. In a nutshell, this week was out of wack. It was funny though....once again God flashed the word PERSEVERANCE in my face.
Grace shared about persevering in times of struggles at SFC today. That's something that God has continued to press me foward on. If there's one thing that I've learned this year, it is that God always calls out to each of us because he never gives up on us....the only reason it would seem that he's left us is that we didnt listen to him in the first place, so when he calls, we stop hearing his voice. I know that God hasnt given up on me because I hear him incessantly calling me to persevere through my struggles.
School is one big struggle for me. But by struggling, God is testing my faith. The distractions I'm faced with constantly tries to hinder me from accomplishing what I need to. Studying and school work are the duties that God has purposefully placed in my life to build me in many areas...both intellectually and spiritually. I always seem to find a sense of completeness when fulfilling the tasks assigned to me. I know the deeds are simple, but they're applauded and pleasing to my Father in heaven.
"Consider it pur joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of man kinds, because you know that testing of your faith develops perseverance. Persevearnce must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4
On a lighter note, International festival was fun. Let's just say there are some people out there who are amazingly talented and blessed to have the culture that they do. I really enjoyed all the cultural enlightenment.... from the outfits, performances, to the food. Oh, and even clean up was fun....lots of ripping paper and tape...and yeah... picking up trash, the works ya know? Oh...and eating chicken and candy hearts off the floor was super great. It was a relaxing event after a tedious day of tests.
heh.. arite.. i think i should stop rambling now before i write a book. Ahhh... tomorrow is saturday, and I get to proctor at the math competition....kewl... gives me more time to finish my seminar book! =) peace out.
Tuesday, January 27, 2004
my claim to fame.....
man... it was SO gorgeous outside this afternoon...and as a result i had this huge urge to go run after i came home from school. However, i refrained....knowing that wednesdays means super hard workouts....and i wouldnt want a burnout instead. I love the cold 40 degree chilling wind blowing in my face....=) It's actually gonna be below 30 tonight! stellar.
I just discovered that Chad Michael Murray has green eyes. I wonder what oriental people look like with green eyes....that would be kewl... Maybe, I'll get green contacts for kicks. on second thought i guess... i'll stick to my "not being able to see you unless you are within 3 feet of me" blindness dealio. My glasses are pretty scratched up from being without a case in my purse and more crooked than before due to another round of being sat on. This calls for new ones. Time to schedule my optomology appointment as well....so just in time. Now that I think about it, I've had the same pair of glasses since 7th grade. I wonder...perhaps this time around glasses will become a permanent accessory on my face.
Isnt it an exhilarating feeling when you can run faster, jump higher, and breathe lighter?
man... it was SO gorgeous outside this afternoon...and as a result i had this huge urge to go run after i came home from school. However, i refrained....knowing that wednesdays means super hard workouts....and i wouldnt want a burnout instead. I love the cold 40 degree chilling wind blowing in my face....=) It's actually gonna be below 30 tonight! stellar.
I just discovered that Chad Michael Murray has green eyes. I wonder what oriental people look like with green eyes....that would be kewl... Maybe, I'll get green contacts for kicks. on second thought i guess... i'll stick to my "not being able to see you unless you are within 3 feet of me" blindness dealio. My glasses are pretty scratched up from being without a case in my purse and more crooked than before due to another round of being sat on. This calls for new ones. Time to schedule my optomology appointment as well....so just in time. Now that I think about it, I've had the same pair of glasses since 7th grade. I wonder...perhaps this time around glasses will become a permanent accessory on my face.
Isnt it an exhilarating feeling when you can run faster, jump higher, and breathe lighter?
Monday, January 26, 2004
good bye to yoooo....good by to everything that eeeyee doooo....
I've discovered that settin my alarm clock 30mins b4 i actually needa get up is a good plan. I was able to press my snooze button 4 times and still wake up in time to do my morning jobbie and make it to school just in time. I'm back into the weird sleep habits and doing my hw during the school day habit, this cycle shall terminate immediately.
Track practice was tough today, for me anyhow. I mean if you looked at the youngins out there....u cudnt tell they'd been working out...unlike the old weezer. However, it was a great workout. I felt like I had more energy after we finished than when we began. So yay for track. I like our new coach. He's a lot nicer and skill oriented than our last coach. In fact, I have a lot of respect for him cuz he actually works out with us once in a while. He's the complete opposite of the typical pot belly coach. Our other new coach is only nice to the girls involved in 20873497 other sports, but she seems like a very motivating typa coach. So i guess i should make this last year of my track career count eh? maybe i'll pick up field events again......
After school we had an n'syncers reunion =) Just like old times.......it's amazing how the mind works. You probably have a better memory than you thought.
So now... as God has so graciously continued to prompt me... i shall go and persevere in the rough road of school work. have a peace filled week =)
I've discovered that settin my alarm clock 30mins b4 i actually needa get up is a good plan. I was able to press my snooze button 4 times and still wake up in time to do my morning jobbie and make it to school just in time. I'm back into the weird sleep habits and doing my hw during the school day habit, this cycle shall terminate immediately.
Track practice was tough today, for me anyhow. I mean if you looked at the youngins out there....u cudnt tell they'd been working out...unlike the old weezer. However, it was a great workout. I felt like I had more energy after we finished than when we began. So yay for track. I like our new coach. He's a lot nicer and skill oriented than our last coach. In fact, I have a lot of respect for him cuz he actually works out with us once in a while. He's the complete opposite of the typical pot belly coach. Our other new coach is only nice to the girls involved in 20873497 other sports, but she seems like a very motivating typa coach. So i guess i should make this last year of my track career count eh? maybe i'll pick up field events again......
After school we had an n'syncers reunion =) Just like old times.......it's amazing how the mind works. You probably have a better memory than you thought.
So now... as God has so graciously continued to prompt me... i shall go and persevere in the rough road of school work. have a peace filled week =)
Sunday, January 25, 2004
got hair?
Cruising down the road at 50 miles an hour, glancing out the driver side window, i witnessed a painting-- a painting from an artists brush swiped across the sky revealing marvelous shades of pink,orange, purple, green, and blue. That sunset spread across the horizon was the most beautiful sight I have ever seen in the whole of my existence . Gosh...this sunset was extreme....if ever i wanted a camera badly...this was it.
Then on the drive home from church, ksbj did a special on the hair prosthetics/donation organization, Locks of Love. It got its origins back in 1998. But it all began when the founder was diagnosed with a disorder as a result of Hepatitis C where you lose your hair constantly, it grows out, and then you lose it again. Fifteen years later, her daughter (who was 4 at the time) acquired the same disorder. It was then that she started locks of love. There are over 1200 children that hope to someday have hair again. The wigs are extremely kewl. They are hand made, and they take from 4-6 months to make. It requires about 140,000 strands of hair (approximates about four 10" locks). The lady on the air shared this really cute story about this girl who received prosthetic hair. The little girl was at a camp, and she got nominated for an award. She called the director of locks of love and asked her "guess what award I won? I won the Best Hair award!" The wigs are so well made that you cant really tell the kids have fake hair. However, the more hair the merrier, and the more smiling faces this world will see. Although the site says you need 10" of hair, you can also donate 6-9 inches. What they do with that hair is make men's wigs and doll hair.
Anyhow, I was really touched by the Locks of Love special they had. When i decided to grow my hair out to donate it, I was just thinking about providing someone with a head of hair, but it's so much more than that. It really brings joy into the hearts of children who wont ever have their own head of hair to comb or worry about the style for. It even improves their self-esteem and so many other mental and emotional issues. It made me feel so lucky to have the ability to grow my hair out, or even fuss about wanting to get it cut. The people who dont have hair to worry about have so many other issues to deal with. All of the discomforts that come with long hair seem SO worth it compared to the smile and gratitude a little child will experience.
And another story they shared on the air: There's a little girl who wakes up every morning, puts on her prosthetic wig, clasps her hands together, and thanks everyone who contributed to the hair she can now enjoy on her head.
So the next time you have 6+ inches of hair to cut, be remind of the kids and adults who really need the hair and consider donating it for the cause. =)
have a great week!
ps check out Locksoflove.org (they have some really neat before and after pictures of the kids with wigs)
Cruising down the road at 50 miles an hour, glancing out the driver side window, i witnessed a painting-- a painting from an artists brush swiped across the sky revealing marvelous shades of pink,orange, purple, green, and blue. That sunset spread across the horizon was the most beautiful sight I have ever seen in the whole of my existence . Gosh...this sunset was extreme....if ever i wanted a camera badly...this was it.
Then on the drive home from church, ksbj did a special on the hair prosthetics/donation organization, Locks of Love. It got its origins back in 1998. But it all began when the founder was diagnosed with a disorder as a result of Hepatitis C where you lose your hair constantly, it grows out, and then you lose it again. Fifteen years later, her daughter (who was 4 at the time) acquired the same disorder. It was then that she started locks of love. There are over 1200 children that hope to someday have hair again. The wigs are extremely kewl. They are hand made, and they take from 4-6 months to make. It requires about 140,000 strands of hair (approximates about four 10" locks). The lady on the air shared this really cute story about this girl who received prosthetic hair. The little girl was at a camp, and she got nominated for an award. She called the director of locks of love and asked her "guess what award I won? I won the Best Hair award!" The wigs are so well made that you cant really tell the kids have fake hair. However, the more hair the merrier, and the more smiling faces this world will see. Although the site says you need 10" of hair, you can also donate 6-9 inches. What they do with that hair is make men's wigs and doll hair.
Anyhow, I was really touched by the Locks of Love special they had. When i decided to grow my hair out to donate it, I was just thinking about providing someone with a head of hair, but it's so much more than that. It really brings joy into the hearts of children who wont ever have their own head of hair to comb or worry about the style for. It even improves their self-esteem and so many other mental and emotional issues. It made me feel so lucky to have the ability to grow my hair out, or even fuss about wanting to get it cut. The people who dont have hair to worry about have so many other issues to deal with. All of the discomforts that come with long hair seem SO worth it compared to the smile and gratitude a little child will experience.
And another story they shared on the air: There's a little girl who wakes up every morning, puts on her prosthetic wig, clasps her hands together, and thanks everyone who contributed to the hair she can now enjoy on her head.
So the next time you have 6+ inches of hair to cut, be remind of the kids and adults who really need the hair and consider donating it for the cause. =)
have a great week!
ps check out Locksoflove.org (they have some really neat before and after pictures of the kids with wigs)
Saturday, January 24, 2004
are you listening...whoAooOhhhh......
Man... for the middle of winter, it's pretty crazy hot. I think it's about 70 degrees outside with a humidity of 10983249874.
herm..so my dad came home for HK yesterday =DDD. Yeah... isabel and I went crazy when he came throught he door. just picture it, a 5'10" oriental man being mowed down at a 2 ft wide door by his two beloved children. it was great. man.. my dad is the awesomest! He saw how sad i was when my ultraman watch broke....so he got me a new one!!!!!!! It looks almost the same, the band is exactly the same as my other one, but the face is smaller and the band isnt as wide....BUT i love it! it's super kewl!!! Oh oh oh...and he brought me back the old Jay Chou cd. It's got my ringtone on it =) And he also got me a Nicolas Tse cd..not the one i wanted, but it's koo. He sings "Your Song" on it. gosh.. he's not the greatest singer live. Buut...the one thing that gifts can never replace is home....and that's all that really matters.
so i walked downstairs this morning with my hair down....the whole mop of it. and concluded to get it cut. It really doesnt look like i cut it, cuz I'm still growing it out to donate to locks of love....but it's thinner now...and less moppy. It's believed that my heavy head of hair was the cause of my constant headaches. The fact that i had to tie it up every day sorta got to my head...or some weird logic like that. But yea... now i feel like i can grow my hair out for at least another 2 months.
ice skating was fun today. None of the little kids showed up.....(i've taken a liking to calling the freshmen that....) But it was fun having the crew that did show up there. herm.. and in a bit i'll be heading over to the canton new years festives....and there will be lots of food. weird... several days without bloggin..and i feel all blogged out. ok.. im out...
have a great one.
Man... for the middle of winter, it's pretty crazy hot. I think it's about 70 degrees outside with a humidity of 10983249874.
herm..so my dad came home for HK yesterday =DDD. Yeah... isabel and I went crazy when he came throught he door. just picture it, a 5'10" oriental man being mowed down at a 2 ft wide door by his two beloved children. it was great. man.. my dad is the awesomest! He saw how sad i was when my ultraman watch broke....so he got me a new one!!!!!!! It looks almost the same, the band is exactly the same as my other one, but the face is smaller and the band isnt as wide....BUT i love it! it's super kewl!!! Oh oh oh...and he brought me back the old Jay Chou cd. It's got my ringtone on it =) And he also got me a Nicolas Tse cd..not the one i wanted, but it's koo. He sings "Your Song" on it. gosh.. he's not the greatest singer live. Buut...the one thing that gifts can never replace is home....and that's all that really matters.
so i walked downstairs this morning with my hair down....the whole mop of it. and concluded to get it cut. It really doesnt look like i cut it, cuz I'm still growing it out to donate to locks of love....but it's thinner now...and less moppy. It's believed that my heavy head of hair was the cause of my constant headaches. The fact that i had to tie it up every day sorta got to my head...or some weird logic like that. But yea... now i feel like i can grow my hair out for at least another 2 months.
ice skating was fun today. None of the little kids showed up.....(i've taken a liking to calling the freshmen that....) But it was fun having the crew that did show up there. herm.. and in a bit i'll be heading over to the canton new years festives....and there will be lots of food. weird... several days without bloggin..and i feel all blogged out. ok.. im out...
have a great one.
Tuesday, January 20, 2004
i dont know what the future brings...but i know that this much is true.......
Daniel Beddingfield =) yeah...a member of my "favorite songs" category. They always play that song on Casey Casem's America's top 20. perhaps now you know something you didnt about me.
Today, sfc's prayer meeting was quite different. Around 7:10 only Alex and Jeremy were there, so we sorta talked about the verse and prayed about it. Then Jessica and Lisamarie walk in, so i pray with them and we talked and stuff, then I got to read and meditate on the verse again when Jeff walked in. The unique experience came when i realized that after every group I prayed with, God revealed something new, refreshing, and true about His word. and to think.... in a span of 30+ minutes, God could say so much through a sentence. So now, i want to share it with you.
"And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him." Colossians 3:17
On the outside it looks just like a "God gives me the strength" and "I do everything to glorify God" kinda verse. Initially, those were the thoughts that came to mind when i read that for my quiet time yesterday. Then the more i thought about it, the more applicable the verse became for my life. Sadly, I'm a sick little senior suffering the deep and scaring oppression of senioritis. It became so bad last week when i was sick. The irony of it all was that the previous week, I had made a commitment to God (which im still keeping btw) about being discplined in working hard this semester. The devil sure knows how to play his cards though. The struggle came the first day back... when I got sick....the work stopped. Reading that verse in colossians was like a big wack over the head. The way i saw it, God was telling me to persevere even when the going got a little rough because in my possession was the power of Jesus' name. Through prayer, I would be able to get up again. The verse also reminded me of the reason i get up early every morning. Right now, the duty that God's placed in my life is to be a student. The least i can do is to be obedient to my duty, and allow God to help me in the process. "I can do all things through God who gives me strength," because I am confident in his power. When i pursue the tasks he places in my life, He will pull me through them. He wont do them for me, but He will enable me to accomplish them.
God's word is truly powerful and living. Living because He speaks differently to different people according to what they're going through in their lives and how He can be revealed to each one of us. Word...God's word....God's word is powerful =)
have a great one!
Daniel Beddingfield =) yeah...a member of my "favorite songs" category. They always play that song on Casey Casem's America's top 20. perhaps now you know something you didnt about me.
Today, sfc's prayer meeting was quite different. Around 7:10 only Alex and Jeremy were there, so we sorta talked about the verse and prayed about it. Then Jessica and Lisamarie walk in, so i pray with them and we talked and stuff, then I got to read and meditate on the verse again when Jeff walked in. The unique experience came when i realized that after every group I prayed with, God revealed something new, refreshing, and true about His word. and to think.... in a span of 30+ minutes, God could say so much through a sentence. So now, i want to share it with you.
"And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him." Colossians 3:17
On the outside it looks just like a "God gives me the strength" and "I do everything to glorify God" kinda verse. Initially, those were the thoughts that came to mind when i read that for my quiet time yesterday. Then the more i thought about it, the more applicable the verse became for my life. Sadly, I'm a sick little senior suffering the deep and scaring oppression of senioritis. It became so bad last week when i was sick. The irony of it all was that the previous week, I had made a commitment to God (which im still keeping btw) about being discplined in working hard this semester. The devil sure knows how to play his cards though. The struggle came the first day back... when I got sick....the work stopped. Reading that verse in colossians was like a big wack over the head. The way i saw it, God was telling me to persevere even when the going got a little rough because in my possession was the power of Jesus' name. Through prayer, I would be able to get up again. The verse also reminded me of the reason i get up early every morning. Right now, the duty that God's placed in my life is to be a student. The least i can do is to be obedient to my duty, and allow God to help me in the process. "I can do all things through God who gives me strength," because I am confident in his power. When i pursue the tasks he places in my life, He will pull me through them. He wont do them for me, but He will enable me to accomplish them.
God's word is truly powerful and living. Living because He speaks differently to different people according to what they're going through in their lives and how He can be revealed to each one of us. Word...God's word....God's word is powerful =)
have a great one!
Monday, January 19, 2004
how ya feeling.......
Chilled with some '04-ers today...as mentioned in numerous other blogs, so go check those out. what an amusing day....thai cottage peanut sauce salad and crispy roll gets 5 stars. My thoughts on pool have become much less skewed after today in comparison to the first experience I had...twas a good and friendly game in which lau and I dominated! It was just what i needed to put a close to this niice weekend. So i just realized a moment ago, that all my hw isnt due until wednesday. Yay for senior assemblies. Although the once foreign senioritis has hit, I'll probably end up doing some hw before i sleep....
if we dont listen to God's voice, we'll stop hearing it. Not hearing God's voice is almost like allowing your relationship with Him to be cut off. To me, that's pretty scary. I remember someone saying once that if God is still doing miracles in your life, He hasnt given up on you yet. I also recall when someone thought, "oh shoot, God's not doing any miracles in my life, does that mean He's cut His connections with me?" maybe we dont see these miracles because our vision becomes clouded by everything else in life...but God is definitely doing miracles all the time. Perhaps not as apparent as ones in the Bible, but they're still all around. Each day is a new opportunity to open our eyes a little bigger, and expand our vision a little wider to see the miracles God is doing in our lives.
and it's back to school we go.
Chilled with some '04-ers today...as mentioned in numerous other blogs, so go check those out. what an amusing day....thai cottage peanut sauce salad and crispy roll gets 5 stars. My thoughts on pool have become much less skewed after today in comparison to the first experience I had...twas a good and friendly game in which lau and I dominated! It was just what i needed to put a close to this niice weekend. So i just realized a moment ago, that all my hw isnt due until wednesday. Yay for senior assemblies. Although the once foreign senioritis has hit, I'll probably end up doing some hw before i sleep....
if we dont listen to God's voice, we'll stop hearing it. Not hearing God's voice is almost like allowing your relationship with Him to be cut off. To me, that's pretty scary. I remember someone saying once that if God is still doing miracles in your life, He hasnt given up on you yet. I also recall when someone thought, "oh shoot, God's not doing any miracles in my life, does that mean He's cut His connections with me?" maybe we dont see these miracles because our vision becomes clouded by everything else in life...but God is definitely doing miracles all the time. Perhaps not as apparent as ones in the Bible, but they're still all around. Each day is a new opportunity to open our eyes a little bigger, and expand our vision a little wider to see the miracles God is doing in our lives.
and it's back to school we go.
Sunday, January 18, 2004
fading memories of the desired forgotten......
it finally feels like winter break is officially over. It's sorta like camp when all the college dudes leave, and that signifies the end of summer. Likewise, the departure of many of the college dudes today marks the close of yet another wonderful winter break. I remember this time last year was the kick off of many new friendships....and to think, it's only been a year...seems longer. Gosh.. i feel like a senior citizen reminiscing about the past speaking in those "back in the day when i was your age" terms. Is that because the older you get, the more sentimental you become? I'm more of a picture buff now that i was several years go. But heck..who doesnt like pictures?
Friday was a good day. Yay for Friends =) Good food, good friends, good times, plenty of enduring sentimentalisms.....and then some. *cough* gno was out of this galaxy, as usual. Finally watched Bend It Like Beckam, which so many peeps spoke so fondly of. I thought it was good... the guy that was suppose to be the cute one was only slightly good looking at an angle, but i'll save the girlie shallowness and say that the overall idea of the movie was watch-worthy. I pretty much passed out after the movie....and the last recollection of the night that i had was getting a picture taken of my sleepy head. ohh and we watched Down With Love. Once again getting a little on the shallower end, Ewan McGregor looked quite suave and handsome in that film, not to mention a superb acting and singing job. kudos those who chose the cast. The movie was cute....nice overall transition from beginning to end.
Now it's back to the blessed cycle of life and the reality of the duties possessed by a student.
it finally feels like winter break is officially over. It's sorta like camp when all the college dudes leave, and that signifies the end of summer. Likewise, the departure of many of the college dudes today marks the close of yet another wonderful winter break. I remember this time last year was the kick off of many new friendships....and to think, it's only been a year...seems longer. Gosh.. i feel like a senior citizen reminiscing about the past speaking in those "back in the day when i was your age" terms. Is that because the older you get, the more sentimental you become? I'm more of a picture buff now that i was several years go. But heck..who doesnt like pictures?
Friday was a good day. Yay for Friends =) Good food, good friends, good times, plenty of enduring sentimentalisms.....and then some. *cough* gno was out of this galaxy, as usual. Finally watched Bend It Like Beckam, which so many peeps spoke so fondly of. I thought it was good... the guy that was suppose to be the cute one was only slightly good looking at an angle, but i'll save the girlie shallowness and say that the overall idea of the movie was watch-worthy. I pretty much passed out after the movie....and the last recollection of the night that i had was getting a picture taken of my sleepy head. ohh and we watched Down With Love. Once again getting a little on the shallower end, Ewan McGregor looked quite suave and handsome in that film, not to mention a superb acting and singing job. kudos those who chose the cast. The movie was cute....nice overall transition from beginning to end.
Now it's back to the blessed cycle of life and the reality of the duties possessed by a student.
Sometimes you can almost make your head believe what you want it to.....
I was picking out songs for children's worship and one of the songs suggested was I Could Sing of Your Love Forever. The song is so melodic and peace-giving. I was completely overcome with a deep sense of comfort. I remember in urbana one of the speakers spoke of how God sometimes reveals things to you through revelations, and once they're revealed to you, you wont ever forget it. After experiencing the revelation of knowing God's love for me, I havent been able to forget it; and I know I never will. Knowing this truth has brought me to see the beauty of worship songs in a new light. Standing in awe of God really does want me to sing of His love forever.
It's funny how Christians all understand what it means to experience God in your life; but to someone who doesn't know God, everything I speak of about God on my blog is completely bogus. People who live without God in their lives think and act differently. Knowing God really does change someone. In fact, I think you finally begin to see the world for what it really is...you begin to see yourself for who you really are. I've read so many blogs about people who are incessantly questioning the purpose of life. Without that direction, it seems like there are those who aimlessly seek the fleeting pleasures of the world to satisfy that longing for a purpose--a reason for living. Christians have the answers on the tip of their tongues. Either we dont share the answer to that question with people who need to know, or we share the answer, but they cant accept it....how frustrating.
weird....i was just thinking about how my mind functions. The way a Christian mind thinks is truely set apart from the world....so shouldnt what we do and say reflect that as well? Gosh im random at the wee hours of the morning. sleep sounds terrific.
I was picking out songs for children's worship and one of the songs suggested was I Could Sing of Your Love Forever. The song is so melodic and peace-giving. I was completely overcome with a deep sense of comfort. I remember in urbana one of the speakers spoke of how God sometimes reveals things to you through revelations, and once they're revealed to you, you wont ever forget it. After experiencing the revelation of knowing God's love for me, I havent been able to forget it; and I know I never will. Knowing this truth has brought me to see the beauty of worship songs in a new light. Standing in awe of God really does want me to sing of His love forever.
It's funny how Christians all understand what it means to experience God in your life; but to someone who doesn't know God, everything I speak of about God on my blog is completely bogus. People who live without God in their lives think and act differently. Knowing God really does change someone. In fact, I think you finally begin to see the world for what it really is...you begin to see yourself for who you really are. I've read so many blogs about people who are incessantly questioning the purpose of life. Without that direction, it seems like there are those who aimlessly seek the fleeting pleasures of the world to satisfy that longing for a purpose--a reason for living. Christians have the answers on the tip of their tongues. Either we dont share the answer to that question with people who need to know, or we share the answer, but they cant accept it....how frustrating.
weird....i was just thinking about how my mind functions. The way a Christian mind thinks is truely set apart from the world....so shouldnt what we do and say reflect that as well? Gosh im random at the wee hours of the morning. sleep sounds terrific.
Thursday, January 15, 2004
so i was reading a xanga when i came across Orlando Bloom's picture and this quiz thingy, and out of curiosity as to what other best lookin stars would be on the possibilities, i took the quiz myself....and surprise surprise =)
You are going to marry Brad Pitt. He is always
friendly to anybody he ever meets and he is
very talented as an actor. He is also very
sincere and friendly. He will respect you until
the day he dies. Congrats!!
Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (10 results that have pics!)
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today was definitely my lucky day.......
You are going to marry Brad Pitt. He is always
friendly to anybody he ever meets and he is
very talented as an actor. He is also very
sincere and friendly. He will respect you until
the day he dies. Congrats!!
Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (10 results that have pics!)
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today was definitely my lucky day.......
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
storms rise.. weakness wins..and you lose your foothold once again.....
when the going gets tough when the rides too rough....when you're just not sure enough....Jesus will still be there.....
i love that song. Point of Grace = kewl^1000
Let me just take the time to say that i love my cbs girls and i love Margarete too. Today was really relaxing. Although, i could hardly hear what every was saying, it was good. Lately, I've been pondering why I want to go into social work. The conviction was so strong when the revelation first came to me. I knew in my heart that social work was exactly what i wanted to spend the next 50 years of my life doing. To an extent that still holds true. But of course, like many other things in life, it comes with a doubt. I guess for a while I've been lacking in the passion for serving others. Maybe it's cuz i've been busy and sick, but something just felt really wrong about wanting to spend a lifetime in that field, but tonight really cleared up a lot for me.
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these." Mark 12:29-30
I guess what i realized is, loving God first will drive the passion to love others. The lack in passion that I've been experiencing may be accounted to the fact that I really havent had too many quiet moments with God to love Him with everything I've got.
For the longest time i've been striving for discipline in basically all areas of my life, and it's a goal still yet to be achieved. Everytime i get closer to this goal, the more tired I become, and the more difficult everything else becomes.
Loving a bajillion people comes with loving God first. Yea, I'm still pretty convicted of my future and purpose in life. Love love love God with all I've got, then love others, and maybe that'll lead to social work? yea? yea......
dead tired.....ready to pass out and turn in for the weekened, but there is a battle yet to be fought! Onward soldier!
wishing you a superb day. =)
when the going gets tough when the rides too rough....when you're just not sure enough....Jesus will still be there.....
i love that song. Point of Grace = kewl^1000
Let me just take the time to say that i love my cbs girls and i love Margarete too. Today was really relaxing. Although, i could hardly hear what every was saying, it was good. Lately, I've been pondering why I want to go into social work. The conviction was so strong when the revelation first came to me. I knew in my heart that social work was exactly what i wanted to spend the next 50 years of my life doing. To an extent that still holds true. But of course, like many other things in life, it comes with a doubt. I guess for a while I've been lacking in the passion for serving others. Maybe it's cuz i've been busy and sick, but something just felt really wrong about wanting to spend a lifetime in that field, but tonight really cleared up a lot for me.
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these." Mark 12:29-30
I guess what i realized is, loving God first will drive the passion to love others. The lack in passion that I've been experiencing may be accounted to the fact that I really havent had too many quiet moments with God to love Him with everything I've got.
For the longest time i've been striving for discipline in basically all areas of my life, and it's a goal still yet to be achieved. Everytime i get closer to this goal, the more tired I become, and the more difficult everything else becomes.
Loving a bajillion people comes with loving God first. Yea, I'm still pretty convicted of my future and purpose in life. Love love love God with all I've got, then love others, and maybe that'll lead to social work? yea? yea......
dead tired.....ready to pass out and turn in for the weekened, but there is a battle yet to be fought! Onward soldier!
wishing you a superb day. =)
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
a glitch in the system...
Today was a long day. Got up early for sfc
“Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalms 46:10
it was really awesome just meditating on God's word with the people in my group. It really helped silence some of the noise and pounding in my head. Looking at that verse and realizing how God is so glorious and how He's so BIG really brings a lot of comfort and peace. It really helps to let go of all that I hold on to. When i see that verse, i get an image of a little person looking through a store window staring at something he really wants. Then God comes along, places a hand on the little person's shoulder and says, "Be still and know that I am God." That phrase brings assurance that God is more than enough for me.
when class rolled around I realized that I'd left my box of kleenex in the car. I was dribbles all day long and i should definitely replenish my teachers' supply of tissues. So when my nose had almost reached the level of rudolphness it was time for track. Surprisingly, both my nose and my feet didnt run at all during workout. har har. When the bell rang, I thought my day was over...only to realize that there was an nhs meeting...and after dismissal from that....i thought my day was over....only to realize that I had chem lab. Finally, after all that, my day was over. Came home, took a nap, and i now, I'm not so sure I'll be going to school tomorrow.
even tho i feel pretty yuck at the moment, i'm craving sushi....i think i might have had a dream that i was at a japanese restaurant. Nice, black, disgusting, near-barf-inducing, hot, steamy, herbal tea sounds good right about now. bring on the chinese medicine!
if you saw a girl driving her car down commonwealth with two tissues up her nostrils, eating a tomato while singing to Philips, Craig, and Dean, stopping at the stop sign for the middle school crossing, with two mommy cross guards staring at her, that was me.
have a great day.
Today was a long day. Got up early for sfc
“Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalms 46:10
it was really awesome just meditating on God's word with the people in my group. It really helped silence some of the noise and pounding in my head. Looking at that verse and realizing how God is so glorious and how He's so BIG really brings a lot of comfort and peace. It really helps to let go of all that I hold on to. When i see that verse, i get an image of a little person looking through a store window staring at something he really wants. Then God comes along, places a hand on the little person's shoulder and says, "Be still and know that I am God." That phrase brings assurance that God is more than enough for me.
when class rolled around I realized that I'd left my box of kleenex in the car. I was dribbles all day long and i should definitely replenish my teachers' supply of tissues. So when my nose had almost reached the level of rudolphness it was time for track. Surprisingly, both my nose and my feet didnt run at all during workout. har har. When the bell rang, I thought my day was over...only to realize that there was an nhs meeting...and after dismissal from that....i thought my day was over....only to realize that I had chem lab. Finally, after all that, my day was over. Came home, took a nap, and i now, I'm not so sure I'll be going to school tomorrow.
even tho i feel pretty yuck at the moment, i'm craving sushi....i think i might have had a dream that i was at a japanese restaurant. Nice, black, disgusting, near-barf-inducing, hot, steamy, herbal tea sounds good right about now. bring on the chinese medicine!
if you saw a girl driving her car down commonwealth with two tissues up her nostrils, eating a tomato while singing to Philips, Craig, and Dean, stopping at the stop sign for the middle school crossing, with two mommy cross guards staring at her, that was me.
have a great day.
Monday, January 12, 2004
remembering that which brought such a big smile to your face....
so this was a very mondayish monday. A super monday beyond all other mondays this year. Yeah... it was not the best of mondays. I sorta felt like a really congested blob...but i will survive!!
I wasnt joking when i said i would be zombie-ing around the halls today. I cant recall precisely what happened in any of my classes today. Although, I do remember track. (if that's considered a class) I just remember sitting out in the cold talking to the girls about how kewl our new coach is. After school, had my physical....always a blah. Bought groceries. (Bagels!) Ate dinner with my family...really good leftovers. (Ribs) Then i picked up the SFC shirts! woohoo... rockin.
I rediscovered something about myself. I dont blow my nose very well. that's sick i know...but is there a proper way to blow your nose so that you dont end up looking like one of those boogery sandbox kids after you blow your nose in class?
oh oh oh...and i just learned that my family owns My Sassy Girl... whoa. That's gotta be one of those foreign films that if you have never experienced the thrill of watching... you must.
so this was a very mondayish monday. A super monday beyond all other mondays this year. Yeah... it was not the best of mondays. I sorta felt like a really congested blob...but i will survive!!
I wasnt joking when i said i would be zombie-ing around the halls today. I cant recall precisely what happened in any of my classes today. Although, I do remember track. (if that's considered a class) I just remember sitting out in the cold talking to the girls about how kewl our new coach is. After school, had my physical....always a blah. Bought groceries. (Bagels!) Ate dinner with my family...really good leftovers. (Ribs) Then i picked up the SFC shirts! woohoo... rockin.
I rediscovered something about myself. I dont blow my nose very well. that's sick i know...but is there a proper way to blow your nose so that you dont end up looking like one of those boogery sandbox kids after you blow your nose in class?
oh oh oh...and i just learned that my family owns My Sassy Girl... whoa. That's gotta be one of those foreign films that if you have never experienced the thrill of watching... you must.
Sunday, January 11, 2004
ten thousand miles to the great wall of china.......
It's understandable that people who have lived in the same place, had the same phone number, and the same bedroom their entire lives are more inclined to want to leave the state for college. Sometimes, it's nice to leave the bubble and see the world. It's the first time in my life that there's been somewhat of an ethnic struggle and ethnic clicking issue. but..it's inevitable...it's the same here as it is in seattle or any city where the minority of asians is not quite so minority. funny how birds of the same kind flock together.
It's funny how God answers prayers....you never get what you expect. It's funny how people change....they never turn out the way you would have imagined. It's funny how God created man....there's so many beautiful colors. It's funny how there's around 6 billion people on earth....and no two are truly exactly the same. gosh...God's pretty creative.
Every year when the track season rolls around, I'm overcome with a dreadful sensation. The coaches always tell you that as a runner, you know your limits. This will be my sixth season running track, and I actually have no idea what my limit is. I just know that I'll never hit my limit. How can I? I dont know what it is. I guess that's where the dread soaks in. I want to perform well, and it's a possibility that I could, but what's my full capability? If I knew, maybe I would push myself harder. I've always wondered how deep my passion for the sport is. Do i really like to run so much that i would put myself through such torture year after year even though my track skills degrade annually? It's definitely a phase....these strange feelings i have about track. I guess when the season starts rolling (on tuesday =P), and the adrenaline starts pumping, my nose stops stuffing, my chest feels a little less congested, and my throat feels a little less scratchy, my love for the sport will be rejuvenated.
feeling a little random and rather a bit as cynths put it....
cynths: girl, you're out of it!
yeah... im a little out of it i guess, i suppose i could use some sleep.
It's understandable that people who have lived in the same place, had the same phone number, and the same bedroom their entire lives are more inclined to want to leave the state for college. Sometimes, it's nice to leave the bubble and see the world. It's the first time in my life that there's been somewhat of an ethnic struggle and ethnic clicking issue. but..it's inevitable...it's the same here as it is in seattle or any city where the minority of asians is not quite so minority. funny how birds of the same kind flock together.
It's funny how God answers prayers....you never get what you expect. It's funny how people change....they never turn out the way you would have imagined. It's funny how God created man....there's so many beautiful colors. It's funny how there's around 6 billion people on earth....and no two are truly exactly the same. gosh...God's pretty creative.
Every year when the track season rolls around, I'm overcome with a dreadful sensation. The coaches always tell you that as a runner, you know your limits. This will be my sixth season running track, and I actually have no idea what my limit is. I just know that I'll never hit my limit. How can I? I dont know what it is. I guess that's where the dread soaks in. I want to perform well, and it's a possibility that I could, but what's my full capability? If I knew, maybe I would push myself harder. I've always wondered how deep my passion for the sport is. Do i really like to run so much that i would put myself through such torture year after year even though my track skills degrade annually? It's definitely a phase....these strange feelings i have about track. I guess when the season starts rolling (on tuesday =P), and the adrenaline starts pumping, my nose stops stuffing, my chest feels a little less congested, and my throat feels a little less scratchy, my love for the sport will be rejuvenated.
feeling a little random and rather a bit as cynths put it....
cynths: girl, you're out of it!
yeah... im a little out of it i guess, i suppose i could use some sleep.
Thursday, January 08, 2004
it takes a second to begin and a lifetime to forget......
I ran into someone from sfc in the halls today. They stopped to say hi to me and asked how my break went. It's funny how connected you can feel with someone you hardly know just because you're both a student for Christ. That just reminded me of Urbana when Pastor Gee spoke about our family in Christ. There are moments in life when it feels like you're completely alone, just going through life as if it was a road to walk. I guess sometimes you just gotta lift your head up and look around, cuz for me, I have family everywhere, how about you?
I'm having this deep craving for bbq chicken pizza from papa johns. I mean... i'm always up for cold pizza, but it's very rare that I crave hot pizza. And for some reason, I really wanna make some special jello. wow...and tomorrow is Friday, so that means i have time to make some jello and eat pizza! There's also a movie that I'm craving....but i cant put my finger on it. I'm thinking of some chinese movie with Louis Koo in it =) For some reason.... Louis looks a lot like someone i know....but i cant put my finger on that one either. I'm feeling random and distracted... i need a long sleep.
I ran into someone from sfc in the halls today. They stopped to say hi to me and asked how my break went. It's funny how connected you can feel with someone you hardly know just because you're both a student for Christ. That just reminded me of Urbana when Pastor Gee spoke about our family in Christ. There are moments in life when it feels like you're completely alone, just going through life as if it was a road to walk. I guess sometimes you just gotta lift your head up and look around, cuz for me, I have family everywhere, how about you?
I'm having this deep craving for bbq chicken pizza from papa johns. I mean... i'm always up for cold pizza, but it's very rare that I crave hot pizza. And for some reason, I really wanna make some special jello. wow...and tomorrow is Friday, so that means i have time to make some jello and eat pizza! There's also a movie that I'm craving....but i cant put my finger on it. I'm thinking of some chinese movie with Louis Koo in it =) For some reason.... Louis looks a lot like someone i know....but i cant put my finger on that one either. I'm feeling random and distracted... i need a long sleep.
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
for them it's out of sight out of mind........
What an incredibly tiring day. Pooh came over today to bum around, and then we baked cookies. That's when i discovered that she doesnt like oatmeal raisin cookies like i do. Looking at old photo albums makes you realize the dramatic changes one year can make.
tired of wasting magazines. This months up for grabs: Tips & Tricks. Featuring: Final Fantasy XII, Fugitive hunter war on terror, M:I operation Surma, MarioKart double dash. If you want it, claim it, or the recycling will get it once again.
man.. i wish i had more time and discipline in the day to read. I suppose that is something i will work towards. Anyhoo, with the time that i do have to read, I read this a few days ago.
"All our promises and resolutions end in denial because we have no power to accomplish them. When we come to the end of ouselves, not just mentally but completely, we are able to 'receive the Holy Spirit.' 'Receive the Holy Spirit'-- the idea is that of invasion. There is now only One who directs the course of your life, the Lord Jesus Christ." --> Oswald Chambers
okay....time for me to go fulfill one of my new years resolutions.
What an incredibly tiring day. Pooh came over today to bum around, and then we baked cookies. That's when i discovered that she doesnt like oatmeal raisin cookies like i do. Looking at old photo albums makes you realize the dramatic changes one year can make.
tired of wasting magazines. This months up for grabs: Tips & Tricks. Featuring: Final Fantasy XII, Fugitive hunter war on terror, M:I operation Surma, MarioKart double dash. If you want it, claim it, or the recycling will get it once again.
man.. i wish i had more time and discipline in the day to read. I suppose that is something i will work towards. Anyhoo, with the time that i do have to read, I read this a few days ago.
"All our promises and resolutions end in denial because we have no power to accomplish them. When we come to the end of ouselves, not just mentally but completely, we are able to 'receive the Holy Spirit.' 'Receive the Holy Spirit'-- the idea is that of invasion. There is now only One who directs the course of your life, the Lord Jesus Christ." --> Oswald Chambers
okay....time for me to go fulfill one of my new years resolutions.
Tuesday, January 06, 2004
if snow fell from the sky, Texans would cancel school....
This morning I convinced myself that today's monday. Good thing it isnt.
so it's 34 degrees outside and the "feels like index" is about 26. It's pretty much stayed the same all day. I'm proud of Texas, it actually gets *close* to freezing. Bravo...now where's the rain so it can snow a little? So I move away from the tri-cities for 2 years and get this: They got 16" of snow and school is cancelled. Peoples cars are getting stuck in the snow and if you dont have an suv, it's difficult to mow through *gasp* The last time i remember seeing close to that much snow was back in 6th or 7th grade on Christmas eve when Diane and I went sledding behind my house. Good times...good times....makes me wanna be a northerner all over again...however, not a day goes by that i dont =) Mann.... Jason Shaw was telling me that the Seattlites (is that what u really call them?) also had school cancellations for 4 inches of snow, and he concluded that tri-citians are more hardcore. maan... they sound like texans... 4 inches of snow cud cancel school for a week i bet.
Well, for us most unfortunate "feels like index" 26 degrees texan hs-lers, we had school today. It seriously felt like the frist day of school all over again, except i already knew all my teachers. The schedule peeps switched me from 6th govt to 3rd, so now i have english 6th instead of 3rd. *sigh* i miss 3rd...and what's worse...i think Juicetus is in that class now! And I sit in her sad deserted little corner desk in 6th. *sigh* and get this....I have NO classes with any of the girls. Before i had juicetus in chem...but now...i only have my junior girl posse in there (not that i dont love them... i positively adore them!). physicks is the same group, Mr. Nilsson is officially handing over the class to an older gentleman (mr. Deermand) thursday and his wife is having a baby in 7 months! In govt i have eric to amuse me. Calc is the same. English...shud be interesting. I really wonder how this semesters gonna turn out. But the semester can take its time, I'm not quite ready to leave the confines of Clements hs.
So i turn on my cell today and this is what the screen read:
ARGH MATEY
just like that.... i have no idea how that was possible. Any conclusions? Actually, I thought maybe Gloria got a hold of my cell phone =)
ARGH...time for calculus. Oh...and seminar book, test next week! yay! Gosh, i just loooove school. ^_^ have a great one.
This morning I convinced myself that today's monday. Good thing it isnt.
so it's 34 degrees outside and the "feels like index" is about 26. It's pretty much stayed the same all day. I'm proud of Texas, it actually gets *close* to freezing. Bravo...now where's the rain so it can snow a little? So I move away from the tri-cities for 2 years and get this: They got 16" of snow and school is cancelled. Peoples cars are getting stuck in the snow and if you dont have an suv, it's difficult to mow through *gasp* The last time i remember seeing close to that much snow was back in 6th or 7th grade on Christmas eve when Diane and I went sledding behind my house. Good times...good times....makes me wanna be a northerner all over again...however, not a day goes by that i dont =) Mann.... Jason Shaw was telling me that the Seattlites (is that what u really call them?) also had school cancellations for 4 inches of snow, and he concluded that tri-citians are more hardcore. maan... they sound like texans... 4 inches of snow cud cancel school for a week i bet.
Well, for us most unfortunate "feels like index" 26 degrees texan hs-lers, we had school today. It seriously felt like the frist day of school all over again, except i already knew all my teachers. The schedule peeps switched me from 6th govt to 3rd, so now i have english 6th instead of 3rd. *sigh* i miss 3rd...and what's worse...i think Juicetus is in that class now! And I sit in her sad deserted little corner desk in 6th. *sigh* and get this....I have NO classes with any of the girls. Before i had juicetus in chem...but now...i only have my junior girl posse in there (not that i dont love them... i positively adore them!). physicks is the same group, Mr. Nilsson is officially handing over the class to an older gentleman (mr. Deermand) thursday and his wife is having a baby in 7 months! In govt i have eric to amuse me. Calc is the same. English...shud be interesting. I really wonder how this semesters gonna turn out. But the semester can take its time, I'm not quite ready to leave the confines of Clements hs.
So i turn on my cell today and this is what the screen read:
ARGH MATEY
just like that.... i have no idea how that was possible. Any conclusions? Actually, I thought maybe Gloria got a hold of my cell phone =)
ARGH...time for calculus. Oh...and seminar book, test next week! yay! Gosh, i just loooove school. ^_^ have a great one.
Monday, January 05, 2004
Hu?
(far left) her famous no teeth smile *shakes head*
If i say I'll do something, I always try to. So a while back (on the 19th of dec) I said I'd post about my gal Diane, who is now an old woman of 19. =) OMG...i just realized that it was her..."golden birthday" ... anyhu....(har har..for those that get it)
I will forever remember her as the girl who loved gymnastics more than I did. The memories of the day we discovered we both lived in horn rapids are still vivid in my mind. I remember the playcharts, and riding my bike up to her house and being attacked by evil water guns. I remember the summer olympics and of Grace and Cory. I remember hiking to the yakima river. I remember talking for hours on the phone. The list goes on....and on.....
Back in 6th grade, i use to think, "i wish i was as smart as Diane" yeah... she was my hero. I admire her faith and trust in God and her determination in life. She is very thoughtful and creative. The way she laughs always makes me laugh, and her wisdom shines everytime i talk to her.
So on this 19th year of the Earth's privilege of having Deeni on earth, may this year bring you true joy and happiness as God continually becomes the center of who you are.
Sunday, January 04, 2004
Food for thought
I'm slowly starving waiting for dinner.... so im blogging.
The weather was beautiful yesterday, and I'm sure glad i took advantage of that and went for a run. Perhaps the track season wont eat me as badly now that i've run at least twice before the season starts. Went to watch Love Actually. Overall, I liked it. Some parts were a tad too explicit, and there were some loose ends at the end of the movie, but nonetheless a likable movie.
Movies these days can really cloud the reality of romance, as well as a warped image of the perfect guy or girl. Chickflick addicts beware: An overdose of chikflicks will leave you unsatisfied with your man/woman cuz nothing they do or say will be as super compared to Mr. or Ms. On-the-Screen.
exerpt: (for girls i guess)
"Suddenly you think all men should be sexy, romantic, dangerous, daring beautiful, etc. The perfect man never has to go to the bathroom, never has gas, and never fights with his love or bugs her. In a two-hour sitting this perfect man saves the world, romances the girl, and takes her on the ride of a lifetime"
According to John Eldredge, Mr. Ficticious is a turn-on due to a girl's "inborn desire to be rescued and revealed as beautiful." Unfortunate for us ladies, Mr.Reality isnt perfect. (nor is Ms. Reality for the guys....) So yeeah... DONT be fooled! In times of misery and despair, chickflicks probably wudnt do you too much good....in fact it might make you drown in your own misery. So for all the chickflick addicts out there "refocus your energy and your mind. Where you put your thoughts, your heart's gonna follow."
I am thankful that I am an action/comedy fan and not a chickflick addict. Just thought that was interesting and thought i'd share. Buut yeah... i still think Love Actually was worth my money.
Anyhooo....
Debs says hi! ^_^
I'm slowly starving waiting for dinner.... so im blogging.
The weather was beautiful yesterday, and I'm sure glad i took advantage of that and went for a run. Perhaps the track season wont eat me as badly now that i've run at least twice before the season starts. Went to watch Love Actually. Overall, I liked it. Some parts were a tad too explicit, and there were some loose ends at the end of the movie, but nonetheless a likable movie.
Movies these days can really cloud the reality of romance, as well as a warped image of the perfect guy or girl. Chickflick addicts beware: An overdose of chikflicks will leave you unsatisfied with your man/woman cuz nothing they do or say will be as super compared to Mr. or Ms. On-the-Screen.
exerpt: (for girls i guess)
"Suddenly you think all men should be sexy, romantic, dangerous, daring beautiful, etc. The perfect man never has to go to the bathroom, never has gas, and never fights with his love or bugs her. In a two-hour sitting this perfect man saves the world, romances the girl, and takes her on the ride of a lifetime"
According to John Eldredge, Mr. Ficticious is a turn-on due to a girl's "inborn desire to be rescued and revealed as beautiful." Unfortunate for us ladies, Mr.Reality isnt perfect. (nor is Ms. Reality for the guys....) So yeeah... DONT be fooled! In times of misery and despair, chickflicks probably wudnt do you too much good....in fact it might make you drown in your own misery. So for all the chickflick addicts out there "refocus your energy and your mind. Where you put your thoughts, your heart's gonna follow."
I am thankful that I am an action/comedy fan and not a chickflick addict. Just thought that was interesting and thought i'd share. Buut yeah... i still think Love Actually was worth my money.
Anyhooo....
Debs says hi! ^_^
Will You Go Out Without Knowing? Oswald Chambers
"He went out, not knowing where he was going" Hebrews 11:8
Have you ever "gone out" in this way? If so, there is no logical answer possible when anyone asks you what you are doing. One of the most difficult questions to answer in Christian work is, "What do you expect to do?" You dont know what you are going to do. The only thing you know is that God knows what He is doing. Continually examine your attitude twoard God to see if you are willing to "go out" in every area of your life, trusting in God entirely. It is this attitude that keeps you in constant wonder, because you dont know what God is going to do next. Each morning as you wake, there is a new opportunity to "go out," building your confidence in God. "...do not worry about your life...nor about the body..." (Luke 12:22). In other words, dont worry about the things that concerened you before you did "go out."
Have you been asking God what He is going to do? He will never tell you. God does not tell you what He is going to do-- He reveals to you who He is. Do you believe in a miracle-working God, and will you "go out" in complete surrender to Him until you are not surprised one iota by anything He does?
Believe God is always the God you know Him to be when you are nearest to Him. Then think how unneccessary and disrespectful worry is! Let the attitude of your life be a continual willingness to "go out" in dependence upon God, and your life will have a sacred and inexpressible charm about it that is very satisfying to Jesus. You must learn to "go out" through your convictoins, creeds, or experiences until you come to the point in your faith where there is nothing between yourself and God.
well, this is what i read when contemplating my new years resolution.
As i thought about my new years resolution, I thought of the wintergetway theme: Freeing Your Heart. I think that's my resolution. After all, God's not done molding me yet, and I'm willing to give myself daily to God's mighty potter hands.
"He went out, not knowing where he was going" Hebrews 11:8
Have you ever "gone out" in this way? If so, there is no logical answer possible when anyone asks you what you are doing. One of the most difficult questions to answer in Christian work is, "What do you expect to do?" You dont know what you are going to do. The only thing you know is that God knows what He is doing. Continually examine your attitude twoard God to see if you are willing to "go out" in every area of your life, trusting in God entirely. It is this attitude that keeps you in constant wonder, because you dont know what God is going to do next. Each morning as you wake, there is a new opportunity to "go out," building your confidence in God. "...do not worry about your life...nor about the body..." (Luke 12:22). In other words, dont worry about the things that concerened you before you did "go out."
Have you been asking God what He is going to do? He will never tell you. God does not tell you what He is going to do-- He reveals to you who He is. Do you believe in a miracle-working God, and will you "go out" in complete surrender to Him until you are not surprised one iota by anything He does?
Believe God is always the God you know Him to be when you are nearest to Him. Then think how unneccessary and disrespectful worry is! Let the attitude of your life be a continual willingness to "go out" in dependence upon God, and your life will have a sacred and inexpressible charm about it that is very satisfying to Jesus. You must learn to "go out" through your convictoins, creeds, or experiences until you come to the point in your faith where there is nothing between yourself and God.
well, this is what i read when contemplating my new years resolution.
As i thought about my new years resolution, I thought of the wintergetway theme: Freeing Your Heart. I think that's my resolution. After all, God's not done molding me yet, and I'm willing to give myself daily to God's mighty potter hands.
Saturday, January 03, 2004
2004? no way!
this was me a year ago:
Friday, January 03, 2003
New years resolutions. I'm not very good at keeping these..... i know very few who are. But i'm gonna make some this year..... as i do every year. Hoping and praying that i keep these... as i do every year.
1.focus
2.committed
3.sleep
But then... the sleep one... if i get focused and be committed... i get more sleep... so basically my resolutions go hand in hand. I do not believe that i quite believe that it's 2003 just yet. I was writing a letter yesterday, and i actually remembered to write 1/2/03. I always dislike odd years though. Crappy stuff always tends to happen. I moved away from cali in 95.. moved away from wash in 01... All the good stuff tends to happen even years. Moved to cali in 90.. sister was born in 96.. will graduate 04. But for some odd odd reason, i have a gut feeling that this year will be different though. It will be an odd year unlike all others. I do believe that the odds of having a good odd year will be high. So okay... i'm having a good 03 already....3 days into an odd year.. and it's good already. Alrite... that's a good sign. Well, i wish u all a great 03.
besides sounding much more juvenile back then, i must say that my visions were correct. '03 was definitely an odd year unlike any others. If i had to describe it in one phrase: It was rich in substance.
2003 was full of a lot of growth. I learned a lot about myself as well as the God i live for everyday. so a recap of my resolutions
1. Focus
I think i did a poor job of that second semester junior year, but I made come back first semester senior year (somewhat)....academically anyhow. This past year i've really been able to set many priorities straight, which has guided my focus to God in many areas of my life. I was able to seek God's will and focus on obeying him. Although, nothing comes without a fight. This past year has been filled with distractions and pain, but through it all, God has really taught me to know what my heart should be set on.
2. committed
I dont remember what i was thinking for this resolution. Perhaps i intended to be committed to the commitments made in '03. So much stuff happens and changes in one year, and commitments are constantly being made. It's difficult to draw the line to committing. But i guess "committed" means, not to make any commitments you dont intend to keep. For the most part, I've stuck to commitments, but nothing's perfect.
3. sleep
I think this resolution was to have more sleep. That didnt turn out so great. If anything, it wasnt more sleep that i got, but more opportunities to teach myself how to deal with lack of it. Note to self: never try to commit to getting more sleep. =P
What resolutions this year?
this was me a year ago:
Friday, January 03, 2003
New years resolutions. I'm not very good at keeping these..... i know very few who are. But i'm gonna make some this year..... as i do every year. Hoping and praying that i keep these... as i do every year.
1.focus
2.committed
3.sleep
But then... the sleep one... if i get focused and be committed... i get more sleep... so basically my resolutions go hand in hand. I do not believe that i quite believe that it's 2003 just yet. I was writing a letter yesterday, and i actually remembered to write 1/2/03. I always dislike odd years though. Crappy stuff always tends to happen. I moved away from cali in 95.. moved away from wash in 01... All the good stuff tends to happen even years. Moved to cali in 90.. sister was born in 96.. will graduate 04. But for some odd odd reason, i have a gut feeling that this year will be different though. It will be an odd year unlike all others. I do believe that the odds of having a good odd year will be high. So okay... i'm having a good 03 already....3 days into an odd year.. and it's good already. Alrite... that's a good sign. Well, i wish u all a great 03.
besides sounding much more juvenile back then, i must say that my visions were correct. '03 was definitely an odd year unlike any others. If i had to describe it in one phrase: It was rich in substance.
2003 was full of a lot of growth. I learned a lot about myself as well as the God i live for everyday. so a recap of my resolutions
1. Focus
I think i did a poor job of that second semester junior year, but I made come back first semester senior year (somewhat)....academically anyhow. This past year i've really been able to set many priorities straight, which has guided my focus to God in many areas of my life. I was able to seek God's will and focus on obeying him. Although, nothing comes without a fight. This past year has been filled with distractions and pain, but through it all, God has really taught me to know what my heart should be set on.
2. committed
I dont remember what i was thinking for this resolution. Perhaps i intended to be committed to the commitments made in '03. So much stuff happens and changes in one year, and commitments are constantly being made. It's difficult to draw the line to committing. But i guess "committed" means, not to make any commitments you dont intend to keep. For the most part, I've stuck to commitments, but nothing's perfect.
3. sleep
I think this resolution was to have more sleep. That didnt turn out so great. If anything, it wasnt more sleep that i got, but more opportunities to teach myself how to deal with lack of it. Note to self: never try to commit to getting more sleep. =P
What resolutions this year?
and all God's people say.....
If you ask me what i learned from Urbana, i would probably tell you that I dont know where to begin. I learned so much and my brain is still in info-overlaod mode. I can tell you that God was good, and the Holy Spirit was moving.
It's funny though, cuz at Urbana, God continued my passion for prayer. God really revealed to me a deeper kind of prayer as i attended a prayer seminar. The seminar leader prayed for this girl whom she didnt know and after the prayer, everything that she had prayed for was exactly what she needed to be prayed for. The girl was so shooken up by the Holy Spirit duriing the prayer (as was the rest of the room) that she was almost speechless.. she could barely speak. Prayer is definitely an amazingly powerful thing.
Urbana also helped me re-examine just how BIG God is. When you worship with 20,000 other people in the same place, hands lifted high, speaking different languages in different styles, it's almost a glimpse of heaven. It just kinda hit me that....you know.... these 20,000....there's even more than that to God's kingdom. God's huge-ness....is unfathomable.
I was also able to grasp a little more of my Christmas prayer. Jesus on earth bridged so many things. He made being able to share our faith possible, and also the ability to be able to call ourselves followers of Jesus Christ. I dunno... it's all so clear in my head....just cant express it in words.
I also really enjoyed my small group. It's amazing how much wisdom women 4+ years older than I have. It's really different being the youngest in a small group. I loved seeing how God spoke to each of these women and the insightful perspectives they drew from God's word.
Twas also nice rooming with Grace and Amy. I felt well taken care of by my momma ducks. Maaan.. going to Urbana makes me wanna apply to U of I. It's nice and cold there AND there's great food everywhere. At some good quality korean food and milk tea drinks. yah.. enough said.
but then again...nothing beats living at home.
If you ask me what i learned from Urbana, i would probably tell you that I dont know where to begin. I learned so much and my brain is still in info-overlaod mode. I can tell you that God was good, and the Holy Spirit was moving.
It's funny though, cuz at Urbana, God continued my passion for prayer. God really revealed to me a deeper kind of prayer as i attended a prayer seminar. The seminar leader prayed for this girl whom she didnt know and after the prayer, everything that she had prayed for was exactly what she needed to be prayed for. The girl was so shooken up by the Holy Spirit duriing the prayer (as was the rest of the room) that she was almost speechless.. she could barely speak. Prayer is definitely an amazingly powerful thing.
Urbana also helped me re-examine just how BIG God is. When you worship with 20,000 other people in the same place, hands lifted high, speaking different languages in different styles, it's almost a glimpse of heaven. It just kinda hit me that....you know.... these 20,000....there's even more than that to God's kingdom. God's huge-ness....is unfathomable.
I was also able to grasp a little more of my Christmas prayer. Jesus on earth bridged so many things. He made being able to share our faith possible, and also the ability to be able to call ourselves followers of Jesus Christ. I dunno... it's all so clear in my head....just cant express it in words.
I also really enjoyed my small group. It's amazing how much wisdom women 4+ years older than I have. It's really different being the youngest in a small group. I loved seeing how God spoke to each of these women and the insightful perspectives they drew from God's word.
Twas also nice rooming with Grace and Amy. I felt well taken care of by my momma ducks. Maaan.. going to Urbana makes me wanna apply to U of I. It's nice and cold there AND there's great food everywhere. At some good quality korean food and milk tea drinks. yah.. enough said.
but then again...nothing beats living at home.