brains fart.....

the greatest achievement of my senior year happened tonight. My goal for the past two years has been to run around the lake near my house (about 3 miles) without stopping. I've always had to stop for at least 10 seconds to catch my breath. However, tonight i decided i needed to run; since i havent run in approximately 3 months. SO i went... i ran... i conquered. I ran the entire circumference of the lake neighborhood without stopping!!!! *shocked* i think what did it was listening to music while i ran. After i got back to my driveway... i actually wanted to make another lap, but i decided to go do strenghths instead. my life is complete. hehe...

for the past 20 minutes.... i've been staring at my college essay prompt. dontcha just hate it when you know wut you wanna say....but u cant put it into words? I've always disliked essays, only because im not anything amazing when it comes to writing them. In fact, it's an obstacle for me to write essays. But they're worth the right noh?

herm... im seriously having second thoughts abt physics. Althought i really like the class.... i just got the worst grade in the history of my high school career in there. It was amazing.... getting THAT grade was actually possible.... i practically laughed for 45 minutes. But no regrets.... what's happened..happened...wut's meant to happen has.... who knows y God stuck me in physics when i wanted to drop it....maybe time will heal these poor grades. pft*

college essay numba 3.......cant wait till the storm clears. *sigh*

gien gien dine dine aiyh......

it's a bummer i dont know pin yin =P

Is it possible to ever be satisfied with your college essay? I'll answer that myself....NO! I've spent the past 3 days trying to formulate my multitude-set-aparter essay, but to no avail. Although i do find some satisfaction in believing that after several revisions, my product is better than what i began with. The first essay that i wrote, i totally changed the entire thing the second time around. However, I'm still trying to finish up my second essay. Actually, i'm sorta enjoying this whole writing essay business. Although it's over the fringe of tediousness, but I think i discover new things about myself as i write these bad boys.

was reading diane's "blog" today, and clicked the link to view UW's new computer science building.....DUDE...it's the most beautiful thing EVER.. it's so awesome. It has SOOO many windows!!!! and stairs!!!!! What cracked me up a lot was a picture of this guy sitting on the balcony area. This guy looked asian, which isnt surprising considering it IS a computer science building in seattle. But the funny part was the site had lotsa pictures of the new building, and there were several pictures of the asian cs guy, and in every picture, the camera angle is a little different, but the asian dude is still there sitting in front of his laptop. heheh... funny stuff.

i cant believe it's the end of the 6th weeks next week..... nightmare. It's time to put up my amor and be a fighter.

life is like a box of chocolates......

My computer is once again being disfunctional and i cant seem to turn it on, so it'll be a problem for me to print out essay that's due...oh.. tomorrow. Then.... the other dilema....i've forgotten how to write essays, namely the personal kind. I cant completely appreciate those essays that ask for "the qualities that make you a good match for our learning community". say wut? maaan.......i managed to finish half of that essay last night, talk abt major struggle of the century. But you gotta do what you gotta do...and this must be done.

so had quite an adventure today. Juice, jeremy, and i ventured to the Rice library, which apparently you hadda be18 to go to, but they let us in anyhow. We spent 45 minutes searching the back of the third floor for the Dostoyevsky books, and as it turned out we were searching on the wrong back side of the third floor. I think im going to have nightmares about library books. SOOO many books...and sooo many shelves on Dostoyevsky......oiy. When we finally finished finding our resources, it was about 5ish. We'd told my mom that we'd meet her at Jamba Juice in Rice village. It took us about 25 minutes to walk there. It was a nice walk, i guess. i definitely wudda enjoyed it more if i didnt have several essays to write waiting for me at home. But when we finally reached Jamba Juice, my mom treated us to a nice.... extremely LARGE serving of Jamba Juice. maan.. it was so juicey and refreshing after our sticky, humid, in the texas cool air kinda walk.
it rained like a mofo on the way home. my mom was like, "ahh i cant see, ok everyone, time to pray". The rain was crazy. There was flooding everywhere. bummer the flood's gone now, and school will not be excused due to inclimate weather. *pft
enuf gibbering jabber...imma go write me some essays.......

dont be afraid to speak it cuz u never kno who needs to hear it

herm.. it's quite difficult to keep a postive attitude when the skies are gray. Both in a literal and abstract sense.... dude... a zeugma...woot.

so many quizzes today...and besides the fact that i was completely clueless....i did not enjoy taking them at all. But definitely lesson learned from that. You cant ever study enough.

well im pumped for this weekend, altho quite busy..... imagine me being productive and once again.. chump to the extreme. and im not kidding either. i think.. with adequate sleep.. i can get my creative juices pumping...and WAM... a college entry worthy essay.

read ephesians 6 last nite. definitely something i need to hear. One thing I thank God for, time.

i've been lost without you these past few weeks......

dang... i cudnt stand it anymore.... i had to relieve my nap cravings today. these past few days.. i've been ubber tired. i realized that if i put my will into it, i can stay up even if my head says, "go to sleep!" So for the past few weeks i've been determined not to nap, and thus far it was good. My full intention was to not sleep, get all my work done and sleep early. For the most part my goal was attainable. However, the consequence of that was that i'd get extremely tired and do odd things like....fall asleep on the floor for example. so today, my past several weeks of built up non-nappage, REALLY got to me, and i just died on my couch when i got home. The funny thing was when i woke up. I was super hyper.... as if i'd been recharged... like a battery! I think the nap helped me regain my sanity... or previously lack of. maan... naps rock...but i'm still determined not to take anymore.

so this morning as i was heading out to school, i hear this zerrrrrpppp ripe outta my backpack. my dear friends, my red jansport backpack, which i've had since the 5th grade is officially dead. the zipper is irrepairable..*tear*...i've come to realize that i own a lot of backpacks....the sad part is....they all either have disfunctional zippers, broken straps, or they're too small to carry a text book. It's sad. So now, i've been forced back to my bad-for-your-back-killer messenger bag. As much as i love my messenger bag.. i dun wanna one day grow old and have back pains....and then i'd remember back to my old HS days having regrets abt using it. actually... wut am i talking abt!?!?! i DO have another backpack...it's just in my mess of a closet rite now. WOW suddenly the world doesnt seem like such a bad place. wah. dude... there's something wrong with me today....blamin it on the nap... crazy.
mission 911: find backpack

rollercoaster......

do you ever have a thought that you have all the intentions of blogging, but then when you get to the blog, the thought has been permanently discarded from your mind? yea.. just had a moment. bummer....

so as i was studying my mom came across my fourth grade class picture lying on the floor. she gave the picture a really funny look....haha. Hard to believe i was once as small as that kid that looks like me in that picture. So when i study, i usually listen to music turned up pretty loud. so then my mom was like..."do you get anything done with that noise? you go to bed around 12 or 1 every night." after that comment, i protested "no.. i go to bed at 11 or 12" then she goes on to say, "well then what were you doing lying on the floor yesterday at 12?"
apparently, i had fallen asleep reading resources for my c&p research paper without even knowing. and the weird part is....this morning i ended up in my bed. not only did i miraculously end up sleeping in my bed, but i also managed to brush my teeth, set my alarm, put my towel back in place, and place dirty clothes in the laundry.....all of which i dont recall ever doing. the last thing i remember thinking before i lost myself last night was lying on the floor reading and thinking, "boy... this floor sure is comfortable...wudnt it be funny if i fell asleep?"
speaking of which... sleep doesnt sound so bad. in fact it sounds great. im out.

something interesting Jack sent me....

Ophelia
Although your first name of Ophelia has created an expressive, fun-loving nature, it has not produced the qualities necessary for a full and complete life. You have always been a happy person, and, desiring to see others happy as well, you strive to inspire others, which you do most effectively through an engaging sense of humour. You are fond of surprises and are quick to respond to spontaneous invitations which promise a good time, particularly when they relieve you of a boring task. Your dislike for monotony and routine, often means that you do not finish the things you start. A natural rhythm, a sense of colour harmony, and creative ability contribute to a flair for composition and artistic and musical expression. Expression comes easily to you; in fact, you should learn to control it and discipline your expression. You are not practical where money matters are concerned, your theory being that money is there to be spent. You are kind and generous, and will fill a need when you see it; at times, others take advantage of your generosity. The most serious drawback of the influence of this name is in the strong emotional feelings that it produces, which are difficult to control and create lack of stability in your thinking or in your affairs. A craving for sweet foods could cause skin conditions or liver problems. You would find it difficult to control your desires and could over-indulge in your pleasures.

haha.. is that me?
wanna find out wut your name means?
http://www.pressanykey.com/cgi-bin/cgiwrap/pak/names.cgi

whoa... blogger has spell check now? tyte!

FOCUS

three words about the focus youth service this past sunday, God is awesome. I read in a book once that if people leave a service saying, "the speaker was great" the message had failed, but if the people leave the service saying, "God is great" then the mission of that message was fulfilled. (from fresh wind fresh fire, Jim Cymbala)

Our new youth center is definitely awesome to have, but worship isnt any different than how it once was when we were with the adults or when we had fellowship. If we're truely worshiping, then we're all still the same people congregating to give our hearts to God. I grew up in a church that had a building to worship in, but the building wasnt our own. And to this day, my mother church still doesnt have it's own building. It doesnt matter where God's people praise him, the building is just an added bonus. Having our Focus youth center is definitely super awesome. Come check it out sometime. Sunday mornings 10:30 at Fort Bend Community church.

not rain showers...but a shower of blessings......

i gotta say, i have a soft spot in my heart for lemonade selling little girls. So i was coming home today and i see these little girls selling lemonade in the corner, and so i made a u-turn and went over there to buy a cup of lemonade. That's the second time i've done that in the past month. I guess it's cuz i always wanted to sell lemonade on a street corner and i never had the chance to, so i want these girls to succeed in their job. The funny thing is, both times i got lemonade, it tasted the same bland, sugarless taste. =P but yea..i enjoy them anyhow.

this past week has really made me feel like a senior. There wasnt too much work, and the week was just... great. This weekend was especially great too. Mann.. God gave me some awesome friends who are... super wise and super super. It's funny how different people can see the same situation so differently. Through many different experiences in the last few months God's shown me so much through my friendships and man.. i love God and my friends so much for that. For the first time, i'm so glad that senior year has just begun and i still have so much time to enjoy this year that God's blessed me with. Sure i dont see some of my friends as often as i'd like to, all i ask is that we keep in touch. If it's a God-centered friendship, i dont think God brought us together for no reason, duh....there's a reason for everything.

anyhooo... i have a blog worthy moment to share.

person 1: herm, i gotta poo.
person 2: herm, i gotta pee.
(person 2 heads over to bathroom)
person 1: heyyy!!! dont use my bathroom to pee
person 2: hah (shuts bathroom door)
person 1: but i gotta poo.... FINE i'm gonna steal your bag!
person 2: FINE! i'm gonna steal your book! your toliet reader!!
person 1: what book?
person 2: pelican brief....and i'm gonna steal your grandma too!!
person 1: what grandma?
person 2: the one on your window sill!!
person 1: uHY!
person 2: hum.. if ur gonna poo.. u better get more toliet paper
person 1: how much toliet paper did you use?!?!?!?
person 2: wut... there's only 3 squares left!
person 1: how many squares did you use?!?!?!
person 2:...wut... i only used like.. 4!

can you withstand the test of time.......

contrary to popular emotions, i thought this four day week went by rather quickly. Maybe it was because i wasnt anticipating any three day weekend. For some reason, my attitude about this year has suddenly changed. Initially i wanted this year to go by quickly cuz after last year, i was so tired of school. As this year has progressed, nothing seems to be turning out the way i'd hoped, but everything seems awesome even so. It's been so weird how i havent fallen into the senioritis hole. The second week of school, i remember i almost let myself slip into the hole, but i prayed about it and BAM God pulled me out of the senioritis hole i was plunging myself into. Funny how the shorter you wish a week was, the longer it is. But when you dont really think about the duration of time, time kind of slips you by.

It's really uplifting to see how God's provided for SFC this year. He's brought so many believers into the club, and that's been such an answer to our prayers. When we sing together and when we congregate together, i always feel so connected to God as a body of Christ. It's also been an answer to my prayers to see how people willing want to serve. I get emails from members about how they want to contribute or how they can help out in this and that area. I'm so thankful to God for all that he's done this year. It's so easy to pray for God to answer our requests when things are going bad, but somehow i feel like i've been so blessed that i cant help but want to come to God in prayer even when things are going great. Even the simple things that God does reveals what a living Father he truely is. Although things are going well in SFC, there's always room for more prayer, so keep SFC in your prayers. thanx =)

herm.. gotta find resources for research paper this weekend. *sigh* may not be the most exciting thing in the world, but the sooner i get the task at hand accomplished, the more free time i have to do other things. plus crime and punishment seems interesting enough, who knows, maybe i'll enjoy writing an paper.

the sky's still blue, all my hope is in You.....

there was about a foot of flooding in front of my house today, quite scary. This morning, as i was tiredly heading out to the snhs meeting, i saw the most beautiful sight that temporarily woke me up. The sky was filled with bunches of clouds and there were tints of pink, blue, and violet. talk about true beauty.
i think i'm starting to enjoy eco. I think 6th period has gotta be mcgee's favorite class. We're rowdy, we're loud, we lose bathroom passes, we dont get the task at hand accomplished, but we make her laugh and she cracks us up. so after ms. mcgee's attempt to teach us today, i heard this conversation.

(person one notices this pin on person 2's bag: "C.I.A: Christians in Action")
person 1: oh, wow, what church do you go to?
person 2: I dont go to church
person 1: oh, whyz that? Is it cuz Christians are a bunch of hypocrites who dont put into action what they preach?
person 2: well, something like that. But it's more like, they're all good people, it's just they're so lazy, and i cant get myself to go to church and be with people like that.

kinna gets you thinking. Non-Christians are constantly watching Christians, people who say they live their lives differently. But when we dont walk the talk, and we continue to be lazy, or do things that dont reflect our faith, how are our lives any different from people who are just good people, and not Christians? How we act reflects who we are and if our actions are hypocritical, how do people see God living in us? The way we act can be the greatest witness of all. I guess that's one of the reasons i'm praying so hard for God to help me keep my commitments this year, cuz i really want him to mold me to be the woman that he wants me to be. It definitely can be a struggle living out your faith and just lead a earthly life instead. we're surrounded by a world that prompts us to live normal, human lives, but wuts that? So does it mean that Christians are superhumans? I dont really think so. I mean we have superhuman faith, yes. But superhuman powers? to never sin, never be lazy, never thinking bad thoughts?.....no. God faithfully gives us the strength to over come those things and that's how we can walk the talk. So my challenge to you is to be conscious of your actions. Are you walking by what you believe in?

"With a servant, a warrior, a child, a subject," writes Andrew Murray in The New Life, "obedience is indispensable, the first token of integrity."

God is my Master, my Captain, my Father, my King. I am servant, warrior, child, subject. What have I to do in any of these cases but obey?

Integrity means wholeness, unbroken condition, the quality of being unimpaired and sound. An integer is something which is complete in itself, an entity. No one can serve two masters. Divided loyalty will mean impaired obedience. "A soldier on active service will not let himself be involved in civilian affairs; he must be wholly at his commanding officer's disposal" (2 Tm 2:4 NEB).

O Christ, be Master and Captain of my life. Give me a whole heart united to do your bidding and to do nothing else. Let me hear your voice and no other. Make my life an integer for your glory. Amen.

From Elisabeth Elliot

the best songs are those that tug at the heart.....

I've listened to *that* song so many times that i've gone from understanding only 25% of the mandarin to almost 99% of it. this is great... listening to a song can improve my mandarin skills.

Today was a good day. Although ms. beck was REALLY getting on my nerves...but I know that He wants me to have patience with her, and i'm willing to sacrfice that. I feel like i got so much accomplished today. I read up on a bunch of college stuff, and then i finished all my homework, and i even finished my eco hw that's due on thursday. talk about going chump to the extreme. but why save for tomorrow what you can finish today?

i've finally reached a point in my guitaring career where i can play for longer periods of time w/o my arm hurting. now that i can play without my arm moving as much, i can even strum faster too! however, the down side is...the fingers on my right hand... are super gross. they peel and crack and just look... odd. so the sacrifice for playing guitar would be the beauty of your finger tips. herm after playing for a year... i'd say the gain is bigger than the loss ^_^

im having one of those... "boy im sure glad i'm a senior" kind of days. maybe today wasnt just good, maybe today was great. and to think... nothing had to happen....it's just an awesome feeling you get when you're a senior. or mabbe... i just need sleep ^_*

can we simply go without pain?

i'm going through another one of my song obsession phases. I still remember back many many many a time ago when me and Honer listened endlessly to Secret Love (azn dreamers!!) so now.. it's this nameless song by Jay Chou and Joy by Tim Hughes. Good songs good songs. Jay Chou is keeping me awake as i read Crime and Punishment. I realized i only read part one during the summer. So now that we're annotating the book, part one is the only part i'm actually re-reading.... dude.. so i actually get to read the book! I thoroughly enjoyed the.. *ahem*sparknotes*ahem*....and intended to read the book..and now i get to! That's probably the most enthusiasm you'll get from me this whole year about reading anytime. I gotta say... i liked Crime and Punishment better than Inivisble Man. I've always been one of those weirdos that really appreciate long... detailed... drawn out....boring novels.. heck mabbe if i had liscum.. i mitta enjoyed moby dick =P
currently, i'm taking a break from reading. i still have like.. 50 pages to go, but dont worry, i wont finish reading. Mabbe i'll read 30 more...cuz we got SFC tomorrow! meaning... i gotta get my fanny up.. ubber earlier than usual to attend our tuesday prayer and praise meetings. If you can make it, we'd love to have you.
where: 1324
when: 7:00-7:20 am

practicing getting up early is a good discipline. Of course it's one of life's most difficult tasks (or so it feels at the time) but think of it as having a longer day to live for Him. What a better way to start off a week than to spend time in prayer with fellow brother and sisters in Christ? I'm pumped... so enough of my meaningless ramblings..... time to read....and not have any dreams.... cuz.. having dreams is a sign of bad sleep. SO... i wish you all no dreams!

from the computer of she who is eating a fruit roll up

if you were wondering, the canton retreat was great. It's not everyday you get to congregate with 200+ cantons. every year i go on family retreats, and i guess i figured this one would be just like the others. Somehow, this one was a little different. I guess spending time with the high schoolers and actually somewhat having a high school program made things a little different. It felt like there was a lot less chill time than the other retreats, but it was really relaxing to be there, by the lake. I really enjoyed the speakers message on sunday. What he spoke about (end times news) is definitely a reality. It's so awesome to know that Jesus is coming back. We dont know when, but he is. So much of what the Bible has stated of the end times is gradually happening now. what do you think of that?

It rained most of the time we were there (as it is currently outside) but we still got to have fun during free time. Us young'ns got to play volleyball with the old folks (aka our parents). It was really fun, and it definitely help take my mind off of a lot of things. I cant remember the last time i played volleyball, but it was sure fun playing this time. And i finally got to watch "The Two Towers" although, i missed like the first 40 minutes or so. dude.. Gollum is funny. I dunno why, but i always have this odd tendancy to laugh at the scary parts of a movie. I honestly think they're funny. Somehow i always see it as the film makers way of trying hard to make the movie scary....but it doesnt scare me. call me weird...haha

It's down pouring like crazy outside. Somehow, the harder it rains, the more cozy my house feels. When i was younger, i didnt like the rain. Then as i got older, my opinion of that changed. I really like rainy days now. I love running in the rain. I dunno... one of my odd quirky sensations, sorta like getting the mail barefoot. And i love thunder. It's so kewl how the skies makes such a loud noise and you cant really distinguish where it's coming from because it sounds like it's coming from everywhere. I think i like it so much is because it reminds me of how powerful God is. I mean, you have no control over this freakishly loud thunder, but God does. The sound of the thunder comes from all around us, just like how God is everywhere. The thunder is shaking my house right now, but God shakes the whole earth with his glorious and mighty power. But one thing is sure, my love for thunder will never surpass my love for God.
maan.. i cant wait until winter!

Dont keep the Good News for yourself

My grandma had a stroke 2 days ago, and she past away yesterday. When my mom told me the news this morning, I didnt really know what to feel about it. I guess i was really confused. She's the first person in my family to ever pass away. Then my dad came up to my room, and when i saw him, and i saw the pain in his eyes, i couldnt help but start crying. Have you ever experienced that feeling in your face when you just couldnt stop frowning? It's a really weird feeling. It's almost as though you've lost total control of your muscles, leaving you feeling weak.

I cried for my dad, i cried for my grandma, but most of all i cried because i know i'm never going to see her again. She wasn't a Christian, and because of that I wont see her again when i go to heaven. That's probably what hurts the most, knowing that she's gone, and condemed for eternity. I remember Justine sharing this at the prayer meeting last week. She reminded us of the story about the family who had all that good food, but when their son reached over to get some food, they slapped his hand. In the same way, if you care and love about someone, dont let them leave this earth never having experienced God's glorious feast. If God's been faithful to you, share his riches. Time on earth is short, but time in Christ is eternal, so share all the riches you have with those closest to you or even just people you know, because if you possess the salvation of God, dont keep it for yourself. Actually, how could you not shut up about something so awesome?

Psalm 29:11
The Lord gives strength to his people; the Lord blesses his people with peace.

Hope is the foundational principle for all change. People change because they have hope. If people do not have hope, they will not change. You are responsible for the changes that you make in your life, but the good news is, you can make the changes you need to make in your life.

Step #1: When you change your thinking, you change your beliefs.
Step #2: When you change your beliefs, you change your expectations.
Step #3: When you change your expectations, you change your attitude.
Step #4: When you change your attitude, you change your behavior.
Step #5: When you change your behavior, you change your performance.
Step #6: When you change your performance, you change your life.

A tribute to my Haribo Bear

Gummy Bears are probably one of the most loved confections. But you've never savored a true gummy bear until you've had a Haribo gold-bear. These gummy bears are unlike any other kind. With all other brands, the best flavor of gummy bear is usually the clear kind. Not so with Haribo. With Haribo, you cant really distinguish which flavor is the best flavor because they all are so good! After my first encounters with these bears i searched far and wide for another pack. After a month of searching, i finally found them! So i was strolling down the candy aisle at wal-mart searching for candy to bring for our first SFC meeting tomorrow when i spotted the shinny gold package of the HARIBO BEARS!!!! It was embedded between two larger packs of candy. it was the final package of Haribo gummy bears left in the section...and it was mine. Not only are Haribo gummy bears wondefully tasty, but they are also low calorie and fat free. What more could you want? So maybe i'll gain several more cavities by eating this package of gummy bears, but that's ok. I shared them with my sister, so my good deed of the day has been completed, and now that i've had my second package of Haribo bears, i just might die happy. =P

Your love makes me wanna dance.....

one of my third favorite things to do...second only to eating, would be getting the mail barefoot. Although that has a rather strange sensation when accomplished in the hot, burning streets of the houston heat. Nonetheless i'm definitely starting to appreciate the heat, especially now that school has started. I seriously think im going to die of hypothermia any day now. I love the cold weather, but i'm really sensative to artificial cold (which i dislike), such as the ac at school. I wasnt thinking straight today and i carelessly forgot my jacket at home. I honestly think i could have died, thank goodness for off campus 7th. Every arm hair was sticking straight up, my toes were in locked, non-bendable positions, and my face was completely white by 6th period. If it wasnt for the chik-fil-a sandwich there to sustain me during lunch...i would be dead by now. That'll teach me to forget my jacket ever again.

Herm..so i've decided not to drop physics. The year wont be too bad. All i need to do is some studying here and there.....i mean.. Phil 4:13 right? and as the little Train that Could stated "I think i can i think i can" maybe i could modify that to "i know i can i know i can". All the studying i did for physics really paid off... in fact.. it's like.. my favorite class. Not that i love the material or anything, but the juniors in that class are so amusing...was i that big of a wack as a junior?

currently im seriously craving some running. I havent run in so long! i still remember back in the day when i had membership to cbrc, it was so easy to get myself to run. First of all i loved the indoor track above the pool where it was like 100% humidity and it felt like you were running in a sauna. Secondly, i always swam after i ran... so that was great. That totally contrasts the conditions here. Nowadays, if i went to run outside in the real humidity, i would probably faint. Although i have access to a pool, i've only been to our community pool twice. i miss running all the time...but i dont miss track. but a big woohoo is.. Rankin isnt coaching this year....hopefully it wont be like.. slave labor to run. so... i've decided.. tomorrow night im going to run. Tonight on the other hand will be filled with most undesirable studying. But studying is my duty....and heck you can glorify God even when you're studying.

*tears of joy* i cant believe it... tomorrow is FINALLY FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok nap time.

turn back the hands of time.....

ever in one of those ubber random moods. today was a very blah day. Everything in classes was really relaxed and there wasnt much hw. It's weird, cuz everytime i start to get the feeling that the week has worn out it's welcome on me.... it's almost time for it to come to a close. Tomorrow is finally thursday after my 3 previous days of whining. One thing that helps is to be reminded and in everything that i do... do it all for the glory of God. In fact that's probably one of the reasons i can get up in the morning. It's the energy inside me to glorify God somehow in the day to come. At tonights prayer meeting we got to reflect on the blessings of this past summer. Just looking at all the things that have happened, they constantly remind me of God's faithfulness.

it boggles my mind to think of the change that's happened in the past day, past weeks, 6 months, year. Although i know everything happens for a good reason, im always anxious to see what that reason was. anyhoo...i got skool tomorrow
school is both emotionally and physicaly draining.... but thats kewl... life isnt about school....all of life comes down to just one thing.....

Who's house? God's house!!!! SHOUT it OUT!

I think the best experience i've had as a senior was tonight at club night. It was awesome just standing out among the other clubs, but being something more than just the president of a club. I am a representative of Christ. The whole experience was really uplifting, especially when people came to ask us what we're about. We got responses ranging from "Im not a Christian" to "whoa cool" and God even brought around athiests. Although it was frustrating not knowing the words to say to some people, I know God was moving tonight. All i can do is thank him, praise him, and pray for those that dont know him. I really hope God uses each of us in SFC to be a light in our school. I believe that God has great plans this year. So if you could, remember SFC in your prayers. Pray for a direction for the club and also for each of the members to live a life reflecting what they believe in. Friday is our first meeting, so yea.. it'd be kewl to pray for that too. thanx a ton. good rest~

Love the moment, and the energy of the moment will spread beyond all boundaries. Corita Kent (compliments of cyndi)

I gotta stop anticipating the weekend when the week starts. If i keep thinking that way, my week will only be unbearably long. Although my week seems to drag by sometimes, there never seems to be enough time in a day. Herm... maybe that's just the early stages of senioritis. *gasp* and it's only the second full week of school. anyhow.. not gonna think about that.

well today was a fairly decent day. Nothing bad, nothing spectacular. It was difficult to get up around 6:45 though. But i suppose getting my chem lab done was worth the 6:45. But then the 6:45 got to me when i came home. Maaan... SO tired. After dinner i went to the park with my family. It was good times. It's fun playing with my kid sister. In fact, it even makes me feel like a little kid again. We raced each other, ran around the park, jumped on the play sets, slid down slides, and swung on swings. It's moments like those that i wish i had more time in a day, cuz after the park i went straight home and got to business and worked on this tedious figurative language wkst.

herm.. so as my time runs out, i should study for my physics quiz. I've discovered that great satisfaction comes with figuring out how to do a physics problem. So tomorrow's quiz will make or break me.... we'll see how that goes.

so much to accomplish... but so little time....

dont cry because it's over...smile because it happened ^_^

i've been hearing that a lot lately. How true and how sweet. This past weekend has truely marked the dawning of a new era. To start it off, got to celebrate some special ppls bdays (glores, simon, lex) then the HIS team retreat. The retreat was definitely a big turning point for me. God opened my eyes to show me so much about the things that i've been thinking about lately. It's definitely been difficult letting go of all the wonderful blessings of this past year. But going to the retreat and sharing in fellowship with the team got me so pumped for God's AWESOME work ahead in the Focus ministry. Another thing that's been really encouraging is reading what the '03 seniors have to blog. It's definitely AWESOME seeing how God has worked in them, IS working in them, and WILL work in them. God has truely equipped u guys well for the world. I'm EXTREMEly excited to see the AWESOME plans God has in store for each of you to "prosper" (jeremiah 29:11) in ur walks with Him. You guys are all a bunch of EXTREMEly AWESOME ppl that's been so richly blessed and dearly loved by God. Not to mention EXTREMEly appreciated and loved by everyone at home too. Thanks for all the AWESOME memories that have been made, and i sure hope and am confident that the future holds many memories that are yet to be made. So God bless and God speed to this new chapter of each of your lives.

so another mark of this new era wud be the dispersal of my wonderfully AWESOME sunday school class. Man i love all of those girls in there and we share something extremely special in that class. Altho at times we can be...herm... wuts the word to describe us? hehe.. well ms. fong wud know... and i also love ms. fong for having that patience, as one of the girls pointed out today, to deal with our quirkiness and wutnots. However, teary-eyed the situation of our separation is, I know God has plans for us to "prosper" as well. So as we part in our separate ways, may we bring that warmth and closeness we share with one another into our new sunday school classes.

dude.. i almost feel as though each of us are warriors and we're out to wage the battles of life with God on our side.... maan.. we're fighting a war that's already been won! awesome

some things will change, but some things change only for the better.

a maze of grace

it's so intriguing how people can feel the same way about something. it's funny how there are so many emotions out there and everyone knows how each emotion is suppose to feel. i mean... it's pretty kewl if u think about it. for example, the feeling that this week has been going by incredibly slowly. the most commonly asked question this week has been "dont you think this week has been going by really slowly?" I just thought it was really weird how a large majority of people felt the same way about that question. Yes, this week has been going by really slowly. it seems perfectly normal when you answer the question cuz everyone is feeling the same way....but isnt it weird how everyone feels the same way about the duration of this week?

so this afternoon i went out to look at calculators =P when i got home i looked under my parking break and i found this fortune from a fortune cookie "to get what you want you must commit yourself for sometime." when i read that i thought.... u kno that's quite true. If you wanna get or achieve something, it's gonna take time. But i think if you're willing to make the time commitment, it's worth it in the end. I guess that's just really pertinent for me cuz i've made some commitment this year, and they all require time and effort to achieve them. so i guess that was a really good reminder. heh...definitely a keep-worthy fortune....

so im cleaning my room this afternoon and suddenly i get this phone call from Phil. And apparently, him, jeremy, and annie were trying to find their way to my house....and annie forgot how to get to it. haha.. somehow they still managed to find it. so then they literally bummed at my house for like... 2 hrs. in fact, i think Phil even took a nap, while jeremy played with isabel's toys, and annie lounged around on my stairs. house calls are fun, even if it's just bumming around.... sorta reminded me of how summer felt like....gosh i miss that feeling. (which.. im sure u know what that feels like ^_*)

ooo a lil tidbit, did you know Veggie Tales might get folded? What a total disappointment!!! it's one of the only watch-worthy cartoons out there these days. *pooh* apparently Big Idea production only sponsored them to make episodes, but then they decided to start making movies and that was somehow against their contract. so... Big Ideas sued whoever and now..... VeggieTales might get folded ......

this week is going by SO... slow... but i like it...

let the tears turn to rivers...and rivers to oceans......

maan... so many people have lost the joy of blogging. i for one, your devoted blog fan, am deeply and tragically saddened. however, i will applaud those who have continued on this tedious journey of blogging ^_^

recently i discovered that if u put the following types of apples: red, granny smith, gala, fuji, or yellow, apples in my mouth, i can distinguish between them. haha.. i guess my 7 years living in the apple state really payed off. =P

another discovery, i work well under pressure. so after i got home from school and eating pretzels, i was SO tired...which caused the next thing to happen, nap. after napping, i picked up my sis and met up my parents to eat pho. went grocery shopping with my dad, then came home and did hw. Although i had more hw than any other day of school this year, i finished quicker than usual. I guess i was working at maximum efficiency. I finally got to talk to my dad about stuff that went on at camp. After i jabbered on for quite a while, he said, "maan... ophelia, you are so blessed." i thought to myself... YEA.. i AM so blessed. thinking back on summer..... all that chill time, Atlanta, washington, camp, and other stuff. WOW... i stand amazed.....

you ever get that feeling where.. u can help but smile? Kinda like.. nothing really had to happen, and nothing really did happen, but then you're just like.. ubber content... or ubber happy...and then...u smile or.. feel fuzzy inside...and you just dont know why? it's almost like that feeling you get when you hear ur favorite song on the radio in the car.....or like.. when u get to eat something really new, strange, and tasty..... or when u drink water after you run 3 miles.... or when you go to sleep after an extremely long day knowing that all your hw is done.

and now i will go study chem..... so i can get that content feeling when i sleep knowing all my hw is done ^_*

and yet i wonder......

i've come to the conclusion that most asian moms are very similar. They all posses a very critical characteristic. This characteristic would be that the general majority of asian mothers are painfully blunt. And one reason why im thankful for my mom is cuz she's asian. Having an asian mother has taught me one thing, it's quite difficult for me to be offended by their painfully blunt remarks. Actually now whenever i hear some of that stuff from asian moms it's sorta funny. It's funny cuz they notice things that other ppl generally wudnt notice. heheh... yea ... just my random thought of the moment.

oh.. more randomness but... have u ever gone back and read your old blogs? like say the very first entries you wrote when you became a devoted blogger? now that i think about it....i've been blogging for a REALLY long time..... and it seems like, my attitude about a lot of things have changed. I seemed almost half dorky back a year or two ago. =P But yea.... just reading some of the things that were written in the past, makes me wonder what was i thinking?

I think this goes for the rest of the senior class as well, i dont really feel like a senior right now. Even the word still seems a bit foreign, mabbe it's cuz i dont feel like living in reality right now, and being a senior is very real. I guess besides actually going to school the only somewhat senior-ish thing i've dont is think about friendships. I've realized how blessed i am with all the friendships i've kept over the years. Although i've spent so much of my life moving around, it may seem like i havent been able to keep many of the friends i've made over the years. In fact that's far from the truth. Friends that i met mabbe 13 years ago, I've still kept in touch with today. We might not be as close as we use to be (for some we're even closer now =), and we might live in different parts of the nation, but we're still definitely actively involved in each others lives. It's awesome to see how they've grown and changed. Besides having a God centered friendship, another key is aggressively pursuing the friendship. Both parties have to be truely interested in continuing to cultivate the friendship that's been formed. I was just hanging out in my room the other day and i saw all the snail mail i'd received through out the years. Snail mail is so awesome. And then the other day, a long lost friend of mine decided to return my emails. It was so exciting and i was extremely overjoyed that she'd written me. "Friends are friends forever if the Lord's the Lord of them and a friend will not say never cuz the welcome will not end." Not only are true friendships God centered, but true friends stick around.

Jesus, Lover of My Soul Shelley Nirider

It's all about You, Jesus
And all this is for You
For your glory and Your fame
It's not about me
As if You should do things my way
You alone are God and I surrender
To Your ways

Jesus, lover of my soul
All consuming fire is in Your gaze
Jesus, I want You to know
I will follow You all of my days

For no one else in history is like You
And history itself belongs to You
Alpha and Omega, You have loved me
And i will spend eternity with You.

as we go on... we remember....

so my first saturday as a senior. why is it going by so quickly? I managed to clean my room, check some stuff online that i needed to, and started on some calc. while doing my calc hw, i realized how much i miss ms. stephenson. for one thing, i gotta give it straight, ms. beck is not the greatest teacher in the world..perhaps on the opposing side of the spectrum. for one thing, she forgot how to use her TI89 in class on friday. Then she decides to give us hw, altho none of us remember how to do transformations (thus we are in the calc ab class ^_*) so now, you wonder why i miss ms. stephenson, i guess it's more of a "i appreciate" ms. stephenson. In order to do my calc hw, i had to bring out my pre cal notes from last year to help me. Lo and behold, they were a GREAT help. It pays to be the typa person that keeps everything. so now i wonder, maybe i shudda taken bc. heh...naw.

so after 7 months of a messed up cell phone, my dad finally decides that it's time to get a new cell. it came in yesterday AND it's so kewl! i played with it all morning, figuring out all the nifty functions. i even attempted to compose my own ring tone... i got it to play as best i cud (still sounds sorta funny) =P

After post camp, ive finally decided how important it is for me to enjoy my senior year. im not excatly sure why i decided that...i guess u cud call it a "devine revelation". It's funny actually cuz as i cleaned my room today, i came across my yearbook and read stuff that ppl wrote me. about 95% of the '03 seniors wrote "enjoy senior year, make it count." it's quite bizzare thinking that this is it..... final year of high school suffering. =P For one thing i'm both curious and excited to see the wonders God has in store. And i'm also ready to go extreme with my commitments. so now i must go.... commitment 1: ban procrastination. oiy.. gonna needa pray a lot for strength in that area. ciao~

All my life......

post camp rally was great, but ultimately God is awesome. God definitely made himself present through worship, testimonies, and sharing. Just when i thought camp was super awesome... God comes in with a BANG yet again. He never ceases to amaze me with his awesomeness. With the hands lifted high and the voices raised, the Holy Spirit was so evidently moving through the congregation. The definition of worship that i really appreciate is the one i taught the vbs kids: showing God how much you love him. Worship is not to us... it's all for His glory. *sigh* tonight God really just left me smiling like a maniac, sighing like never before, and speechless, yet so much to say at the same time. God has so generous revealed himself to me in the recent weeks, but He is so faithful, and we can be sure that this is only the beginning, God has so much more to show us, so much more to teach us. All we have to do is ask and seek. God is awesome.

*and i will love you all my life
you are the reason
the one that i live for*

Every new beginning has a name........

c/o '04 woot! I began this day all for the glory of God. after an entire summer, it was quite difficult to wake up at 6:45 due to lack of practice. Although, advisory was insanely long, my entire schedule is messed up, got all the teachers i didnt want, have C lunch, and discover that i have a locker partner and there really isnt a use for my locker cuz it's in the middle of nowhere and i have to find myself a backpack now, it was definitely a hectic, good, and challenging day. I can see that God is already challenging me. Everytime something went wrong with my day, i had to remind myself, "God has a reason for everything," and "face every challenge as an opportunity to draw near to God."

I've had to make some tough decisions with my schedule today. Instead of the 6 classes that i requested, i only got 5 classes and ended up with 2 off campuses instead. While that is a good thing, i cant help but feel uneasy about it. But after some deep contemplation and prayer i realized God messed up my schedule for a reason. After changing my schedule several times this summer, i guess mabbe this is the schedule i'm meant to stick with. Basically there are no other classes i can take 1st or 7th period in place of either of my off campuses in order for me to take 6 classes (with the exception of decathalon... but geeze.. decathalon!??!). but in no way do i feel like i'm slacking off. for starters, my schedule is probably the most challenging schedule i've ever had in my entire high school career. there are so many legitimate reasons just to keep my schedule but at the same time i want to change it. I guess i'll keep praying. as the acronym P.U.S.H states: Pray Until Something Happens. something is going to happen......

on a lighter note, my sister looked quite chic for her first day of school. I didnt know they made low riders for 7 yr old girls. But nonetheless...she looked cute today. She wore her hair in pig tails, a white collar shirt, and low rider dark blue jeans with white sneakers. heck...she even matched =P totally inheriting the wong family women fashion sense ^_*

and thanx to annie, mok, xiao, simon, peter for showing up at school today. definitely made having C lunch much more enjoyable..if not super enjoyable =D.. gosh.... i havent eaten a fruit roll up in so long......almost forgotten how much i like those things ^_^

man 30 min of aim time sure is difficult, please leave kind tag messages so im not completely deprived...haha
better day tomorrow.

FLy LittLe zEsTY: so
FLy LittLe zEsTY: when are we going to get that book
OpHeEeNieEe: *shrug
FLy LittLe zEsTY: the book of life
FLy LittLe zEsTY: the answers to everything
OpHeEeNieEe: Bible?
OpHeEeNieEe: u have one ;-)
FLy LittLe zEsTY: yeah that one
FLy LittLe zEsTY: haha
FLy LittLe zEsTY: i knew that..

you may be there, but your heart isnt......

i realize that going back to school is my next step of faith. so much has happened in the past few days that i just cant ignore. God has blessed me so richly and i'm ready, ready for something new. It's bizzare thinking that tomorrow i'm going to be a senior. Tomorrow i'm going back to school to finish off that final year. Tomorrow i'll be living the future i've dreaded and looked foward to the entire summer. I'm ready, ready for something real, and something new. Tomorrow is it. gosh....if there was one moment i wish time would stand still.... that would be right now.

i had the most amazing experience tonight. I got the chance to chillax with my fellow sunday school gals before the school year started. we shared some great lasagna, french bread, coke, and ice cream. Then we watched Bringing down the house (good, but rather had many...inappropriate jokes) and What a girl wants (definitely up there in my "best chic flick of all time" category.) What was amazing was what happened as i drove home. As i drove down Elkins i looked up at the moon, and it just totally took my attention away from the road. It was an amazing sight. Then when i got to the Commonwealth/Elkins intersection, i decided to take the long way home instead, so i could listen to this one song i liked on the radio. As i drove past Fort Settlement, i saw two deer cross the street side by side. Then i saw their sillouettes run around the lake. It was so beautiful. And all this happened under the moon. There was this totally awesome peaceful sensation that came with that whole experience. At that moment, i'd never felt so at peace of the fact that the year is coming and in a few weeks everything is going to be so different, but that's ok because i dunno what the future holds, but i know who holds the future.

Blessed be Your name........

Something i want to experience everyday is the feeling that you just cant shut up about God. One of the most encouraging things for me is to read peoples' blogs or talk to people and see how they use God in every sentence. I love hearing about how God's power has impacted each one of our lives so differently yet in the same way. I love knowing that it's not over, and every day is a new opportunity to live for God, share about his awesomeness, and experience his power in action. Ultimately, i love knowing about God's love.

One desire i've had for as long as i've been a Christian is to truely know what it means that God loves me. And until two days ago, i knew that God loves me in my mind, but i was finally able to grasp that God loves me, in my heart. Going to camp, i knew that God would do amazing things, because he's faithful like that and if you ask for him to reveal himself to you, he will. But one problem i had was holding on to my burdens and not truely letting go and letting God handle the situation. I realized that often times, when you let yourself think for yourself, it's all out of emotion and how you feel. But if you let God think for you, you're letting God control your thoughts and actions. In a nutshell, you're allowing everything to be God centered. God centered thoughts, God centered actions. Someone very dear to my heart told me that we have to train ourself to separate our thoughts and emotions. Emotions will blind us of what we know in our thinking to be true, right, and God centered. The moment i let go of my burdens and let God handle them was the moment he showed his love to me. The very things that were weighing me down, God easily lifted because i asked, and he loved me enough to take my cares from me. And maybe you dont know what it means in your heart that God loves you, but i urge you to persistantly pray that God will reveal to you the amazing love he's given. Knowing in your mind is not enough. Knowing in your heart and soul is how we can live an extreme life for God everyday.

I wont ever be able to show my gratitude to God for the people he's blessed me with in my life. I thank God so much for the counselors at camp, i thank Him for the wisdom, patience, and love they show each and every one of us. I thank God for my friends, for their open hearts and open ears. I thank God for my parents. The very people God placed on this earth to express to me in a tangible way the qualities that he is. I thank God for my parents that they've had the patience to deal with all the dishonoring things i've done. I thank God for my parents because they love me the way God loves me.

One Thing
Charlie Hall

Dear Heavenly Father, may I be:

Single minded, whole hearted, one thing I ask

That i may gaze upon Your beauty, Oh Lord
That I may seek Your Holy Face
That I many know You in an intimate way
And follow after You all of my days
And follow after You all of my days

All of life comes down to just one thing
And that's to know You, Oh Jesus,
And make You known

In Jesus' name i pray
Amen

LIVE out LOUD

God's awesome. i've been extremely busy these past few days....and i'm still alive. Im thankful and happy for that. As much as i like being busy, i'd like to be finished reading my summer reading books.....the one year i actually have to read them is the year i've failed to be done during the summer. Time to hone up the nerdification skills before the skool year starts. gosh.. i feel chumpy already.

maaan.. i forget wut i was gonna say. i think i mite be tired. arite camp tomorrow.... the agenda is packing *sigh..... YEA! BEA IS COMING BACK!



OpHeEeNieEe: yo woman.. will i be seeing u at camp tomorrow?
froggerinthesky: yes maam :-)
froggerinthesky: ehhe i'm excited!
OpHeEeNieEe: PRAISE THE LORD!!!! our prayers have been answered
froggerinthesky: hahehehe :-) you guys are too sweet
OpHeEeNieEe: see.. told ya u were coming back ;-)

You bring out the best in me........

maan... this summer's been awesome. and when i say awesome, i mean God is SO awesome. I've been able to spend a good amount of time with my friends and a good amount of time with my family, although i wish there was more time in a day. I guess this past weekend, i've spent a lot of time with my family and i really appreciate the time we do have together. For the most part, I'll always have my family, but i wont always have this time, right now. And i know that i miss out on stuff when i spend time with my family, but it's totally worth it. When i spend time with them, i feel like I'm at the right place at just the right time. If I were to live again and I got to chose my family, I'd keep the one i have in this life.

so last nite, my sister had her second bday party, joint with Sumi. had some good viet food. i gotta played with this crazy kid named Justin. He stuck this chinese yo yo in my hair and then..he kept making my hair static, but he was cute....funny kid. then today after i got home from supply shopping and impulsive shopping, i went swimming for my second time at the avalon pool. I thoroughly enjoyed my stay this time, although i was attacked quite viciously by some 7 and 8 year olds *cough* elyse, eucharist, chelsea, and isabel *cough*, and managed to conjure up a few blisters on my big toes, but i had a great time roasting and getting somewhat tanned in the summer sun while being attacked.

every blessing You pour out i'll...turn a back to praise....

as i wait... You make me strong...You come.... and fill this place

today was a good day. Somehow it felt sort of like "in the movies". very typical summerish, simple, and just plain good. woke up to the sound of the phone and the shake of my sisters hand. apparently my parents forgot that i dont have a car currently and cudnt take my sister to her last day of school late. So Mok was so kind as to take her, big thanx goes out to him. Then i sorta bummed around for a while, doing some much needed stuff.
Then during the afternoon a few of us went boating around my neighborhood. It was raining but the rain helped keep cool and stuff, very nice heat stroke preventage. altho we were all pretty wet, the boat was well manuvered and floating on the lake was a blast. Definitely a shud-do summer thing. After that, to top off the summer fun, went to my garage to eat some popsicles that had some... not-Juice-comparable jokes....on them.. but tasty nonetheless.

When nightfall came, i went out to Fungs Kitchen with the family unit. We had some quality family chillage. and also ran into Zaneta's family. I knew that my parents played tennis with an uncle Leonard, but i didnt kno it was uncle Leonard Zaneta's dad.... so yea... the dude that has awesome tennis skills that my parents talk abt playing tennis with is Zaneta's dad. ^_^ After finishing dinner, we took a walk around that mall area. We also got a chance to sit down and catch some Beignets. Those topped off our meal nicely, so we decided to take a walk at barnes and noble where we i followed my sister around for a few hrs trying to pick out a book. But that's ok cuz she found a book, and i got to buy a postcard (sean connery!!!! ^_^)

so yea... i'm pretty content with my summer. God's blessed me richly this year.....awesomeness. and to think...camp next week. One busy but eventful and wonderful summer. ptl

you were waiting to be asked while i was waiting to ask.......

my sister got sick after taking a nap yesterday only to get better when she woke up today. So that was kewl. So she got to stay home with me ^_^ Early morning was spent watching some chinese kung fu fighter shows. altho they were the ones made back in the 80s they were still pretty good. Then i popped a pizza in the oven for lunch. And that was also pretty good. In fact, we still have a half in the fridge, i guess that's tomorrow's lunch for me then. After lunch, i took her out to get some ice cream at wallgreens. But as usual when she got there, she wanted something else. She got flavored water while i got gummy bears and peach rings cuz it was buy one get one free for 99cents each!!!! that was a day maker. When we got home, i actually read a chapter in invisible man.... but fell asleep after. when we both finished our naps, we watched stuart little 2. It was cute.

After my dad came home, he went to pick up my atlanta pictures for me. When he came home again, he handed them to me, i grabbed them and drove to prayer meeting. a very meaningful prayer meeting. after that i took debs home. while in the parking lot i saw my battery and something else light on. so i called my dad and he was like.. oh ok.. drive home. right when i got to debbie's house, my car died. thank goodness we made it. so now my car is still at deb's and i'm immobile. hopefully all will be well soon. i want my mazda home soon.

then when i was trying to scan my atlanta pictures....my scanner died and the program crashed.....and yea.... things sure are dying on me today. but ... better days are on the way.....

at the second chance still one seat away....... (1st paragraph is a movie synopsis)

For once i actually watched a decently good chinese film. Cuz most of the movies produced by hong kong these days.... arent very good. They're either about gangsters or they're just horrible bad comedies. Anyhow, i didnt get a chance to catch the name of the decent chinese film i watched. But it had Kelly Chan, Ekin Cheng, and Sui Chun Chan. Basically, the movie was like a typical HK action movie. The whole driving force of the movie was revenge. So this blonde asian america terrorist dude named Alien kills this guy named Squirrel's gf (that's his nickname). So the entire movie him and his best friends Blue and Tango try to find Alien and kill him. Well, Blue (kelly chan) is this awesome scientist who invented this fighting program called VR12. Basically you get hypnotized and u learn all these defense fighting moves and how to accurately target shoot. so in a nutshell it's sorta like the matrix programming thingy. Well, becuz of the knowledge that she has, Blue gets kidnapped. Blue and Tango (Ekin Chan) have a special relationship SO when she gets kidnapped Tango goes at all odds to rescue her. And since Blue is Squirrel's best bud also, both Tango and him decide to be test dummies for the VR12 program and rescue Blue. They successfully rescue Blue and discover that Alien is also the culprite behind the kidnap and that he kidnapped a buncha scientists cuz he wants to take over the world. So then Squirrel wants to avenge his fiancee's death. However, they discover that there is a failure in the VR12. Apparently some of the ppl trying out the program have experienced aggressive violent behavior. So then it turns out that Squirrel has this disorder issue and he accidentlly kills Blue. Tango is devastated and goes through this eraser program to forget everything. Then he's sent on a mission by the CIA to capture Squirrel...and it goes on.. i dun wanna type anymore.. so ask me if u wanna kno wut happens.

so went to tree of life today and helped with the toddler preschool kiddos. MAN they are SOOO CUTE! they are so pinchable! but dun worry... i refrained from such an action. I like.. walked into the room and they flocked me. I felt like i was being massacred by a buncha 3 yr olds.. it was scary...but SO CUTE! i got lotsa exercise in by chasing them and being chased... good times good times.

i realized that i've been guitaring a lot more lately. so much that i'm getting blisters on top of my callouses....i've been strumming making melodies and Love the Lord around the house and isabel will stop wut she's doing and bust out her making melodies moves! if u wanna see some making melodies action, check out my updated pics of vbs and isabel's bday. i jet for now... later

do you ever wonder what goes through your head?........

wahoo.. deb's home ^_^ that means pretzel time......

anyhoo... went to see pirates of the caribbean again ^_^ and STILL an awesome movie the second time. orlando bloom wasnt as.. *wow* as the first time. yea.. he's a good looking joe, but iono...i always tend to go for the quirky characters, like jack sparrow. Johnny Depp rocks. He was quite the boom in Chocolat too....altho i didnt like his character as much as in pirates. I think he's got this dealio with longish hair. Most of his movies that i've seen, he's always a tad shabby and not completely clean cut looking. But that's kewl... cuz he never really plays the clean cutters role.... sorta like.. Brad. Johnny Depp is definitely up there on my Sean Connery, Tom Hanks, Mel Gibson, Meg Ryan, Sandra Bullock, and Brad pitt list.

target is having big sales. they were selling shoes and purses for 3, 4, 5 dollars. check it out. i like target almost as much as i like johnny depps acting. yea.. i came home rambling about pirates of the caribbean, so now my parents are gonna buy that movie when it comes out. Mann.. that movie makes me strangely happy for some reason. It's been a good summer day.

OH OH OH and my cds came in... also something to be loopy about. matt redman- where angels fear to tread; chris tomlin- not to us; and third day: offerings 2; oh and my sister veggie tale tunes ^_^ yea... awesomeness.

told someone i wud put this up:
---->if u were holding 11 roses in front of a mirror, u would see the 12 most beautiful things in the world
---->what is ur derivative?
cuz i want to be the tangent to YOUR curve

yeeeah...gnite

walk like an egyptian......

i've made a discovery.....my sister is pigeon-toed. we were walking into church for the missionary appreciation dinner and i looked down at her feet and she was stepping all over herself. and so i questioned her footing. and she kept trying to fix her footing and saying, "gah jie... is this how you walk?" *sigh* i think when she was little we use to do these feet fixing exercises to prevent her pigeon- toedness. Unfortunately it didnt work for her. Me on the other hand, i had the same problem but my folks did the exercises on me and it worked. I actually walk pretty straight now. My mom on the other hand walks kinda funny....She does some inverted pigeon-toed thing if that makes any sense.

tonight's missionary appreciation dinner was pretty kewl. There were missionaries of all ethinicities, serving in different nations of the world. It was neat to see everyone talking to them and to see the missionaries and seminary students sharing so openly about what God's been doing in their lives. And they had so much patience, because at each table they got rotated to during dinner, they were asked basically the same questions, but each time they responded with just as thorough the answer as the last table. Then we had the chance to pray for some of the missionaries our church supports. I really liked just praying for the needs these missionaries had on their hearts, and praying for them helps us be a part of their ministry and Gods.

Then there was this kewl testimony. There was this one missionary, Pastor Joseph, who was a seaman before he went into ministry. One time when his ship was stationed in galveston, this other seaman came on board and passed tracks to some of the crew and many of them came to know Jesus. This seaman that came to share God's love onboard happened to be one of the missionaries at the dinner tonight, Pastor Tom Malone. It was kewl cuz they didnt recognize each other but Pastor Joseph remembered that back in 1975 when he was in galveston (btw he's a missionary in Brazil now) that Pastor Malone drove a volkswagon and he took the crew shopping. Then Pastor Malone verified that he did drive a volkswagon back in '75. So yea... that was awesome. so yea.. there's always prayer for missionaries cuz... it's definitely a big step of faith to do wut missionaries and seminary students do. so yea, support missionaries through prayer.

like a rainbow after a storm.......

decided to update before i go take a nap. herm.. so wut does this week come down to? my last week of summer before camp and then after camp...dun dun dun..... school. This summer started out all calm and slow. But then after returning from atlanta BAM the chaos and speediness hits. *sigh* i'm still ambiguous about my feelings of senior year. Sure, i'm excited....but at the same time i dont want it to start. Senior year definitely has a big rep to fill after an unusually unusal junior year. I think that throughout this summer, i've let the thought process. In 3 weeks i am going to be a senior. I do believe that the junior girls are in the process of becoming... if not already reached.... the senior girl status. A few nights ago i was laying in bed thinking, which is quite odd cuz it usually takes me 1 minute to fall asleep. anyhow, i was just having a case of nostalgia and thinking back on the past 17 years of my life when all these shocking thoughts hit me. This time next year, where will i be? what will i be doing? 4 months from now, i'm going to be 18. And next spring i'm gonna kno where i'll be spending the next several years. In a nutshell i was just dumbfounded. I dont really know why... but i just was. It was so much for me to take in that i just fell asleep soon afterwards. But as usual, i woke up feeling ok and knowing i'm in good hands, but in need of a good toothbrushing. so yea... im gonna be a senior whether i like it or not.

My baby soon to be 7 yr old sis had a bday party yesterday and lots of little kids and adults came over. I finally got to see my sister swim, since she learned how when i was in atlanta. I also got to help my mom prep for the bbq, which was kewl....cuz i actually had the urge to volunteer to help her. Then we had fellowship and there was a great message about true worship. During the entire message this thought kept coming back to my head. During the past week in vbs i'd taught the kids that worship meant: showing God how much you love him. And i just kept thinking about that as Sammi spoke. Then when i was taking Stephanie and Michelle back to my house we were peacefully cruising down Oilfield when i see a family of 3 racoons on the road and then a thud from under my car then a dead racoon in front of my car. It was a nightmare. I was on the verge of hyperventilation....just ask mich. So now i know what it's like to run over an animal. well... at least i think i ran over it cuz of the thud. and i couldnt avoid them either, cuz there was a car driving by on the other side of me as i spotted the racoons on the other side of me. and it only made things worse to know that someone else had previously ran over a racoon, possibly from that same family, just before i ran over the racoon mom, dad or kid.*sigh*

arite nap time.

you cant tell cuz you dont know.......

*sigh* in disbelief.... vbs is over. Though it was tiring, required lots of work, time and energy consuming, it was awesome. Being able to share what having a relationship with Jesus is like to little kids is a great experience. I realized that a lot of what i got a chance to do this week, i did in atlanta. Take vbs or volunteering at Star of Hope. Those were both like some of what we did in atlanta. But it didnt make atlanta any less neat, it just made God even more awesome. I got to experience some things i've never done before. Like teaching for 4 nights in a row or doing the welcome for the program. But through it all there were definitely some great experiences and things i'd want to do again.

(while cleaning up after vbs today. Jackie Peers into the new kiddy bathroom in rm 104/105 and he spots the kid size toliet)
Jackie: hey look at that, it's so cute (walks into toliet) aww.. oh no. some little kid left his trickle on the floor.

(later that nite while Zaneta, Michelle, and I were cleaning the room again)
Oph: hey guys go look at the cute toilets
Zaneta: aww how cute.....omg... but there's pee on the floor
Mich: ewww gross!

yea.. so diane and steeni.. perhaps my toliet "thing" hasnt died down just yet...haha but anywayz.. you guys shud go check the cute new toliet out.. they rock.

so today at Star of Hope, i got to sweep the floor. I thought that if i were to see another broom this week i would go insane. and thank goodness i did not because it was a wutchamacolit broom...uh... those big ones... and not the small ones. But anywayz... those brooms really get the job done. But i'm not sure that cutting bell peppers is my thing. They're quite tricky to cut, a skill i shall master in the future.

so another wonderful weekend yet to come. wish u a good one... later

OpHeEeNieEe: sunkist?
bOiNgcHubOiNg: yes...
bOiNgcHubOiNg: sunlist
bOiNgcHubOiNg: ...
bOiNgcHubOiNg: stnkust
bOiNgcHubOiNg: sunliet
bOiNgcHubOiNg: sunkliuent
bOiNgcHubOiNg: sunlkus
bOiNgcHubOiNg: sunkist
bOiNgcHubOiNg: crap
OpHeEeNieEe: *shakes head
bOiNgcHubOiNg: im watchin golden eye too
bOiNgcHubOiNg: so...
bOiNgcHubOiNg: i have a resaoin

I just wanna be with You... i want this waiting to be over....

what's the name of that Chris Rice song above?

Flamingo Island has some nice houses, reminds me of the Waters of Avalon subdivision. (but not as kewl obviously;) And their houses have this crazy thing with 3 stories. Actual three story houses and not basements (cuz it's texas, no use for those rite?) Yea... so Olivia and I went to clean some houses today. Kinna funny... the Olivia and Ophelia cleaning crew ^_* I'm sure that after our 4 hrs of labor, Olivia is quite tired of wiping windows and cleaning toliets, as i am tired of vacuuming and sweeping. I think i'm going to dream brooms and dust pans tonight. But as mrs. Fong mentioned "it's a good experience". But then again, she's a mom, so her words cud imply that once you get home you'll be well trained to do house cleaning at your own house. Actually i wudnt mind so much cuz... hopefully my house doesnt have as much dust as those unfinished homes.

vbs today was awesome. I need to give my skit team a BIG thanx. They get my back every nite when i forget my lines and mess stuff up....and play around with my words until they give each other, myself, and the audience funny looks. I definitely need to treat amanda, timmy, doulos, and ashley once we survive this week, cuz they sure deserve it. and if you see them, make sure you give them a Great job or a way to go... cuz they memorize some crazy lines and deal with a crazy grandmum....*cough*me*cough*
I had an awesome devotion tonite. i read acts 22, and Paul was basically telling his testimony. The neat part is that in the skits that i've been performing this week for vbs, i've been telling the excat same story. It's funny how the things i teach the kids, i can learn myself. I'm also a site leader for vbs, and i've been teaching the same lesson since monday. But until today, it never really hit that i should be standing in front of the mirror telling myself the things that i've been teaching the kids. Teaching them to be a living sacrifice, to be holy, to not conform to the pattern of this world, to transform our minds. (btw our key verse is Romans 12:1-2) For me, God just brought a whole new meaning to memorizing skits and teaching lessons. once again.. i cant help but PTL! ^_^

whatever made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise......

vbs went really well yesterday. Altho i was extremely nervous (like i've never been) right before the skit. I was SO afriad i'd forget my lines again...haha. But instead of forgetting 3 lines like i did the nite before, i only forgot 1 ^_^ And another thing to praise God about was that our vbs lesson went more smoothly than the day before, i felt like less kids were falling asleep as i taught the lesson, and while we were eating snack, this one little girl comes up to me and tells me that they had a great time in our class today. That was really kewl.

this week i've loaded a lot into my schedule. i'm busy from noon until night every day. And a lot of time it's hard to keep a serving attitude when you're overwhelmed with stuff. But i was just reading through some stuff i'd written last summer, and i came across Colossians 3:23. It was definitely comforting and reminded me to do everything "heartily" for the Lord. And it was really kewl too. When i went to look at the skit i had to memorize for the following day, it was significantly shorter than they usually are cuz God knew that i had an extremely large load of work the following day. PTL!

what controls the mind controls the heart......

im tired.

i awoke to run errands. Then headed to oyster creek for a potluck. lotsa laughs.... and craziness. Bid farewel to Wayne and Bea. Never got to know wayne, altho he did let me borrow his spanish notes a few times last year. Best wishes goes out to him and his future. Good thing i got to hug Bea before she was attacked by the chocolate cake. No doubt she will be missed. 12% of camp return.. psh... lets make it 100% cya in 2 weeks Bea... ^_* will be praying. and safety!

crazy vbs today. Was good definitely. A little chaotic. But we pulled through. Tomorrow is a new day.

came home and found that my dad was playing with our new scanner. My mom and isabel were looking at my old pictures and my mom kept saying..."hey mui.. guess who this is?" (lots of laughter followed after seeing my childhood pictures)
so then i decided to go over and see wut old pictures of mine my dad had scanned into his comp. One was of me age 7 months after my craziest haircut. Then there was one of me petting our old car. The last one was my favorite. It was a picture of me when i was 4 pretending to play my uncle's guitar and actually singing along to some not so melodic tunes in my underskirt. so i had super guitaring capabilities in me even back then...haha.

after talking with steeni and deeni last week... i realized i did use to have an odd liking for toliets. Toalieta jr.....hahaa. I cant wait to get Steeni's belated Christmas gift, a little bathroom reader with a small plunger... awesome. It will go great with my larger bathroom reader i got several years ago from aimee for Christmas.... but now ive moved on. I think i've taken to an odd liking for teeth brushing. Just ask my vbs team members.... and just look at the time i set aside for brushing my teeth. oiy....

donut peaches rock the house. I manage to snag a few on my return from washington and i'm most absolutely enjoying them now. Then as i was at HEB with my dad... i saw them selling there. but for 2.99 a lb!!!! talk abt insane. and i always liked HEB the best cuz it had the best prices on fruit. But anyhow... donut peaches is up there on favorite fruits alongside green/fuji apples.

gotta memorize more lines for grandmum.... hehe... baby powder and shampoo dont mix.

take jealousy put it in a box and wrap it with pretty ribbon.......

sore arms from bowling on thurs with Steeni, Steve, Alicey, and crew. And awe-struck by the mad ddr-ing skills of the Tri-Citians.... them skills sure burn the texan ddr-ers i've seen....^_* So my whole Washington state encounters, all the movies, friends, and people watching..... like a dream.. as Cyndi, Steeni and i were talking abt it... i wonder if it really happened. or i'm just going nutty.... i've had quite a few confused moments being home. *sigh*

I always come back from Washington feeling complete. Sharing about life with people who you're totally transparent with really allows you to grow as a person. No doubt, friends are a great blessing from God.

I believe i still have an undying passion for drama. I think i like being the grandmum for vbs more than the kids like being Jason and Michelle. (the 3-2-1 B.I.B.L.E academy characters for vbs). Sure they laugh at me and my funny english accent, but that's more than half the fun, being able to play someone imaginary and having a great time doing so, even if u look or sound ridiculous at times.

em.. could you guys keep vbs in your prayers? that would be much appreciated. Preparations still need to be done, and the opening skits still needa be worked on. Thanks.

Craaazi Dee Booom

niiice...bold.

so... if ur wondering how i'm doing over here in washington....herm... to sum up most of my daily activities. I chill out with ppl, eat out with ppl, and watch movies with ppl. That is the jist of it. Tonite i'm going bowling, which i've been craving for some time now, so that'll be kewl.

so one of the highlights of my week so far....watching Pirates of the Caribbean with Steeni and Cyndi. If you havent seen that movie.....whoa... you shud go see it. It had just the perfect amount of all the great movie elements: action, plot, characters, and romance. As cyndi said, "there wasnt a boring moment." Wow... how true, how true. And to top off this great movie, you had Orlando Bloom and Johnny Depp to blow you away. Maaan... i loved Johnny Depp's character. Jack Sparrow was awesome! He did such an awesome job, now i remember wut i liked abt that guy, he's a great actor. And Orlando Bloom. lets just say that guy left a smile on cyndi and christine's faces for.... a while. I think whenever i mention that name even a day later, their eyes get all flitter flattery. But yea...that movie, i just walked out speechless.... if u havent seen it, you shud see it. maan.. i wanna c it again. *sigh

so events of today..... went to watch A League of Extraordinary Gentlemen with Alice. (see...i told you i watch lotsa movies here) Also a great movie i mite add...but uncomparable to Pirates *sigh* The movie had all the elements, but lacking in those...*whao* moments... well i think what i'm saying is, it lacked an element of surprise. tho it DID have surprises and it was an overall great movie. Also a shud-see.

From living at cyndi's house and drinking nothing but fat free milk I've decided that i've taken a liking to it. It tastes better than 1%. It's really neat how it doesnt leave a trail on the cup after drinking, i like that. and it tastes so thin, it's nice. Almost like drinking water but a tad better. Ooo..and lemon bars taste great with fat free milk. Herm...gonna make some lemon bars one of these days.
Presently craving swimming.... when i go home.. im gonna venture into the avalon pool for my very second time. haha..and to think i've lived there for 2 years and i've only gone to my community pool once. oiy

Freaked out.....Insecure.....Neurotic.....emotional......

What a beautiful day here in washington. *sigh* i'm so glad i manage to get outta the houston heat when it arrived .... well at least for this week. But that doesnt mean i dont miss all the great and wonderful people down there who are suffering in the oppressive heat.... eat lots of watermelon, drink lots of water, and refrain from excessive outdoor exposure. Contrary to popular belief, it is NOT 60 degrees in washington. It was true back in the 7th grade during washington state history when Mrs. Bell told us that most foreigners to the state of washington believed that the entire state of washington had weather like seattle, rainy, wet, depressing, and cool year round. So to clarify that misconception, it is quite... VERY hot in the Tri-Cities where i am presently. The heat rises to about 100+ daily. In fact yesterday at like 11am it had already reached 99 degrees.
well to my luck, today was not quite 100. This afternoon i got a chance to lunch with Mrs. McQuerry, too cool. It was awesome seeing her again. I always manage to run into her in an Christine and Mrs. McQuerry outting. Lunched at this place near Battelle. Great food and niiice chillage time. Then i met up with Daniel and we went to see the Italian Job... awesome movie. and the best part is that i've been cruising around town in Christine's new Mini Cooper. So yea.. when i saw it in the movie...and all the mini coopers in it... so awesome. And they were totally going patriotic.. red, white, blue mini coopers! After that event, headed to Daniel's house and he taught me how to play pool. I can totally see how this is a "pick up girls" kind of game....especially if ur playing with a girl that doesnt know how to play pool. so then i guess it wud also be counted as a "pick up guys" kind of game as well. so moving on.. i won the game .... cuz he scratched hitting the 8 ball.... so i sorta.. "won". but yea.. pool is kinna fun. given the opportunity i wud play again.

at the moment.. im really craving running. yes.. i like eating more... but with eating...running is needed. after every lunch, me and christine are like... dude.. we need a walk...and so we take them. First day, we went to Octapus garden where i bought some interesting stuff, second day went to the mall, bought more interesting things...and today... went to bookworm. Every day.. it feels like im in the movies. Cruisig around town in Christines Mini cooper, listening to musicals in the car, and driving on small streets. It's nice......maan.. im hungry... dinner time soon hopefully.

greeting from afar........

scary blog posting.. cant bold my heading...anyhow. i am extremely full presently. So after my eventful day of la madeline, movies: omen, changing lanes, and maid in manhattan, gno at my house, thai cottage, i headed for the airport. Then after quite a boring plane ride next to a rather large man who had to lift up the arm rest to fit in the seat (thus taking up part of my seat) and two cups of ginger ale and a cranberry oatmeal cookie, i was greeted by Alicey, Steeni, and Davis at the Tri-Cities airport. There after we chilled at alicey's place and then i had a bloody nose at Steeni's and after that i headed over to Christine's and conked out soon after.

The day after i believe i went out to lunch at Shari's with Christine, stuffed our face's silly, at this really goooood dessert thingymabob. Then came back and watched the Recruit, which i like thoroughly. That nite went to a bbq with some families and Alice, Steve, Steeni, and Deeni were there. Post that event, headed over to steeni's and watched one hour photo, quite strange.... and i guess im indecisive abt my likes and dislikes of that movie. i mean.. it was good.. but it was.. different. i think i like robin williams as the comedy guy.. not Sy the photo guy.

Then today, went out to eat at Red Lobster with Christine and her family, once again stuffed our faces silly and also ate a HUGE summer berry surprise dessert thingy...or something to that insane extent. Was so full we decided to take a walk at the mall, did some on sale shopping, much happiness. Came home and watched Bridget Jone's Diary, hahaha.. that girl cracks me up. I gotta agree with Christine, good movie.
Went to church after and ate a yummy meal at Applebee's afterwards, sat to say i havent been there since.... freshman year for Sadie Hawkins. And then... i once again enjoyed some dessert, sizzling apple pie... emmmm good stuff.

Yea.. definitely been doing some crazy eating outtage... imma be broke. But then you kno how it is when you're asian... asians like food. hehe.. and funny how after dinner in the parking lot the bunch of us were talking abt blaming everything on being asian..... and if you think about it.... that's definitely a reason for a lot that goes on in the asian community life.

anyhow.. im gonna catch some sleep... cuz i think... tho i've been here abt 2 days, i still suffer from a tad of jet lag, the 2 hrs time difference is sorta killing me. I sleep at like 12ish, which is 2ish back home, and then i wake at 8ish, which is 10ish back home. Man... my biological clock must be wacking. Just returned from Georgia...then Texas...and now Washington... aiyah.... well i'll be home on saturday.... until then

Hi guys.. im in washington...and i just did a really long post.. and this messed up template thingy caused me to mess up my publishing.. SO... my post disappeared.. pooooh... i'll write abt stuff later *sigh*

there's a God who u can trust...comfort you and lift you up..na na na na na na na

so mabbe you're wondering why i havent mentioned anything abt my encounters with Atlanta. well.. for starters there's lots to tell. so if you'd like to hear, just ask, i'm be more than happy to tell. three words, God is awesome. So he gives us love, courage, grace, joy, peace......................unconditionally. wow. cant soak it all up. In atlanta we traveled on a train (marta) and prayer evangelized. through prayer it just feels like you have a deeper connection with the stranger you're praying for and with God. Also got a chance to go to a place called Little Five Points, and met a guy named Wayne. He hadnt eaten in 2 days, and had been living off some mouth wash. we bought him something to eat and drink and we got to chatting. He's an alcoholic and had fallen for that trap four times already, and it just seemed that he didnt ahve any hope to get back up again, but he wanted us to pray about that. Then he also told us that God was the reason he had the courage to live each day. In that case i asked him doesnt he believe God can pick him up from his current lifestyle? Cuz i know he can. And he thinks so too, but he didnt want to let Him down. so yea, definitely gonna continue praying for him. For our final day of ministry in atlanta we did what was called an Ask The Lord (ATL...which also stands for atlanta... kewl huh?). What we did was pray and ask the Lord where he wanted us at work that day. I thought i felt God calling me to the hospital after our second prayer and so i went to the hospital and had my "fast food encounters" which you can ask me about, but would take a while to type. some of you already kno about it cuz i was the few that got to share my God moment at debriefing. =P

the best part about coming home is knowing that it's not over. Everything (besides the marta mabbe) we can do here in Houston. Everyday is a new opportunity to minister to people. Through Atlanta, i've really been reminded that God exceeds all expectations. heck.. wudnt it be boring if we knew what God had in store? Im always wow-ed by God's power and the best part is.... i know i'm not done wow-ing yet.

i stand amazed

fallin f0r Y0U: oooh..yeah thats right
fallin f0r Y0U: and you leave friday
OpHeEeNieEe: yep
fallin f0r Y0U: and you hafta stay with this lady
OpHeEeNieEe: i do?
fallin f0r Y0U: and so you hafta get her a gift
OpHeEeNieEe: haha.
fallin f0r Y0U: and so you already know what you're gonna get her
OpHeEeNieEe: and u have good memory
fallin f0r Y0U: dang...IM psychic!
OpHeEeNieEe: =-O
fallin f0r Y0U: ...oh, you already told me that?

all you need is love.......

funny the things you learn from kids. the other day when i was at tree of life watching the kiddos, there were these two girls that had an argument. This one girl decided she'd been friends with this other girl long enough so she didnt wanna be friends with her anymore and she wanted to go and play with the other kids thus ditching her friend. (ex-friend) so then this ex-friend, we'll call her Dandilion, gets real upset, cries a little and refuses to participate in anything. Come lunch time, Dandilion wont eat. and so i try to coax her to eat her delicious meal, but to no avail. so i just sat down and ate my meal, left her alone. After about 5 mabbe 10 minutes she begins to eat her food, finishes the plate, but still sad. Then Dandilion goes in for nap time. After waking up, as if nothing had happened, Dandilion and her ex-friend were buddies all over again.

It just reminded me that sometimes we try so hard to make things right, but the truth is there isnt anything for us to do. The best remedy sometimes is to just wait and let the Lord handle this business, because things do come around. All you gotta do is believe.....have faith...and trust. It's as simple as a childhood argument.

What Are You Worried About?
By Rick Warren

Two businessmen were talking about the economic recession. Jack said,
"I'm about to lose my job and our house is in foreclosure - but I don't
worry about it." Bob, his friend, asked "How can you not be worried?"
Jack answered, "I've hired a professional worrier. He does all my
worrying for me. That way I don't have to think about it!" Bob
replied, "That's a fantastic idea. How much does it cost to hire a
professional worrier?" "$50,000 a year," Jack answered. "$50,000!
Where are you going to get that kind of money?" Jack replied, "I don't
know. That's HIS worry!"

WORRY IS SOMETHING YOU LEARNED TO DO. There is no such thing as a
"born
worrier." It is a learned response to life. You learned to worry from
two sources:

You learned to worry from experience. After years of mistakes,
failures
and unfulfilled expectations, you've discovered that things don't
always
turn out right. Out of these experiences you formed the habit of
worrying.
You learned to worry from examples. There are many models around you.
Studies show that children usually pick up their parent's worries.
Anxious parents raise anxious kids.

The good news is that since worry is a learned response to life it can
be unlearned! The starting point for overcoming worry is to realize it
is useless. It does you no good to worry. It is "stewing without
doing." Worry has never changed anything. Worry cannot change the
past. Worry cannot control the future. Worry only makes you miserable
today.

Worry has never solved a problem, never paid a bill, never cured an
illness. It only paralyzes you so you can't work on the solution.
Worry is like racing a car engine in neutral - it doesn't get you
anywhere, it just uses up gas. "An anxious heart weighs a man down."
Pr. 12:25

On top of that, worry exaggerates the problem. It plays on your
imagination. Have you ever noticed that when you worry about a problem
it gets bigger? Every time you repeat if over and over in your mind
you
tend to add details - amplifying it so you feel worse.

What's the solution? Instead of worrying, talk to God about what's
worrying you. He is someone who can do something about it.

"Don't worry about anything. Instead pray about everything; tell God
what you need and don't forget to thank him for his answers. If you do
this you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than
the human mind can understand." Phil. 4:6-7




IF YOU SPENT AS MUCH TIME PRAYING AS YOU DO WORRYING -
YOU'D HAVE A LOT LESS TO WORRY ABOUT!

not on my own........

So i know this big guy. He's easy to talk to and He's a great listener. Whenever i'm in trouble He always lays a hand on my shoulders and tells me that everything will be ok, cuz He knows how to make it right. He likes to challenge me in my life to help me become a stronger more faithful person and because He loves me more than any other person in the entire world, I welcome the trials, tribulations, and blessings of each day. In my confusion He makes everything so clear for me. In my frustrations He knows how to calm my inner being. When i ask for patience, He gives me the excat remedy i need. If i ask him for anything, i just gotta believe that he'll grant my request and it shall be given to me because He knows what i need. The one thing i never regret is falling in love with Him. I bet you know Him too.