cloud nine.....

random: i can see myself sitting at the desk with a stack of newspapers in front of me.....staring at the business section.

Things i get a kick out of:
*fros on azns
*hummers
*bald teens
*the word poop
*hc tickets in the form of a keychain
*a guy named Tian at UW that looks like Yao ming (dude....u gotta see.. this picture on steeni's site of him and steve by the miget door.. talk abt look alikes) check it out: http://community.webshots.com/photo/92316506/92316732gVltaf

jack called today! woot. It's kewl how people keep in touch. Every year you have those people who write k.i.t in your yearbook, but how many of them actually follow through with what they write? Keeping in touch definitely has to be a mutual situation. Do you ever feel like you really wanna keep in touch with this person, but you dont know how they would feel about you emailing or snailing them? Or maybe you use to keep in touch with this person but you've lost touch and you dunno if they'd think you're odd or even if they remember you if you contacted them? How do you know that you're not both feeling the same way and both parties just arent doing anything about it? Keeping in touch is simple, take the initiative cuz it's rewarding.

I have this friend whom i've kept in touch with since i discovered email. I remember back in the day when we use to play basektball and handball together every weekend. I remember she was there when i learned to ride my bike. I remember i was there when she moved into town. Now, she's a college junior and we've kept in touch over the years. and the kewlest part is seeing how we've both grown and changed, seeing how each of us go through those milestones in life. talk about awesomeness.

i just really appreciate how she always takes time out of her busy schedule to email me. Even a simple "i'm doing good." and that's it, email always brings a smile to my face. Every time i move away from somewhere i always wonder how long will we be able to keep in touch? will we even keep in touch? Looking at my mom, i realize that keeping in touch is all a matter of interest level. She has these 4 really close friends. Maybe they only see each other once every 10 years, but they always send each other christmas cards , and they go at all costs to find out where the other is currently living when they've lost touch for some time. surprisingly, the christmas cards always arrive at our mailbox, every year without doubts.

i think it'll be awesome growing up, living in my own home, and when i go to the mailbox every holiday season, i'll have mail from my friends whom i've kept in touch with over the years.

Onward Christian Soldier.......

random thought: What a powerful weapon the mouth is. News travels fast through the mouth, words scar, and a lot of what you say shows who you are.

Jenn called today before her 4pm class, it was quite unexpected and a total day maker! Thanx Jenn! So this six weeks is essentially 4 full weeks and 4 days. Meaning double the fun. Teachers are gonna work our fanny's and their fanny's off just to get all those crazy grades. *sigh* The cycle of the six weeks is returning to my memory....the vicious cycle of chumphood is finally returning to my system.

herm.. my mind is quite disfunctional right now and it's becoming diffcult to conjure up something to write about. so i bid you farewell and have a great week.

Have you ever......

This weekend was fulfilling. Talent show, three day weekend, college homies back in town, all was well. Currently, im trying desperately to catch up on my current events but to no avail. So much happens in our world in the blink of an eye. *blows mind*
man.. watching the talent show was so awesome. God's blessed each and everyone one of us with some crazy madd talents....and wut better way to thank him than being a part of charity?
So i sorta had a moment at the talent show. During intermission i was eating this bagel and drank some green tea. So then i come to discover that we cant have food in the gym. Alright, so i drink my green tea speedily, but then i forgot to trash the last bit of my bagel and i walked into the gym without ms. fong catching me with food. =P so then i unconciously start munching on my bagel only to realize that i AM muching on a bagel...but also that ms. fong is sitting pretty much directly behind me. So then i look at my bagel and a sudden sadness overwhelms me as i think of the waste it'll go to if i dont finish eating it. so then i sneakily consume two more bites, but then the craving for bagel has ceased and i place the bagel beside me on the seat. Then i sorta look down at it and realize that it's sorta obstrusive so i place it in the pocket of my shirt, but then it was too bulky so i trashed it. *sigh* so now my dilema is i want a bagel. aw well i got a coupon for a free bagel at It's a Grind. Yummy... u guys shud go check that place out if you havent yet...*three thumbs up* for their ice blended 50/50 and their ice blended chi tea, also their steamed apple cider. *mouth waters* oiy....gonna use my coupon soon. for now.. i must read abt the economy and the issues that are occuring in the world that we live in. until we meet again.

God is awesome....wud be an understatement

It's crazy how good life can be with God as the center of it. All the good stuff that's going on in my life right now, i owe it all completely and utterly to his undying love for me. It's so amazing how He answers prayers with such a BAM. You can be praying and praying and praying about something, and when God finally answers you.....wow....His answer is so perfect. It's shocking. *mouth drops open*

I am speechless so i shall leave you with this..........

Heaven's hope was written in the stars
Before the mark of time
Your heart and mine were destined to entwine
You're calling, calling, calling to me
And I'm falling into love
Sweet love, so heavenly

Heaven's Heart-- Michelle Tumes
(something i heard while running today)

What Is Your Battle Cry?

Striding on the plains, carrying a sharpened screwdriver, cometh Ophelia! And she gives an ominous scream: "I'm seriously going to pound you like it's a new extreme sport!!!"

Find out! Enter username: Are you a girl, or a guy ?

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i wish i had a clue......

i finally met my locker partner yesterday. And as i suspected she carries a very large backpack. The reason for that is that she never comes to the locker between classes, only in the mornings and after school i guess, so i never see her. But she seems nice, very quiet and shy....and she only has 2 textbooks....

so i was watching fob tv when i came home from school. They said that people from certain areas of asian dont acqure sars because they have some kind of immunity to it. Children for example in some parts of China, dont have sars, but are found to have some sort of antibody against it so they cant acquire it. The places that most likely have immunity to sars are Hunan, Hakah, Japan, and some other places i dont remember any more. Lucky for me.... that means i'm 75% immuned to sars.

It's that time of year again, candy sales for snhs. *pft. and this year we cant sell them in class, which means... ppl gotta stop us in the halls or we sell at lunch... oiy. Hopefully by next week i wont have eaten ALL the candy... maann they have the best kindsa candy in there: Shockers (the new and improved Shock Tarts), Sour Jacks (yeah. im gonna eat them all), Caramelo (ate one already), m&ms, peanut m&ms, skittles, and Reeses. wutta great combo eh?

I'm not dead yet......DAY 1

Herm.... so day one, feeling pretty good....for the most part. Boy this sure came at a good time. Mondo loadsa work today, but i'm a fighter. So i'm studying on the floor and my mom walks in.

Mom: Ophie...what kinda music are you listening to? It doesnt seem to be in english? Are you feeling alright?
me: yeah.. im koo just Jay Chou.
(5 min later)
Mom: ophie....why are you still listening to the same song... jim shmo?
me: *smiles*

I think it's time i go find my cds. They sorta disappeared after the canton retreat *tear* But for now... it's time to hone my knowledge of the economy with a little bit of physics and chem on the side. Woot.

If you're good at grammar, and have some time within the next 2 days. plx email me or call. thanx

sunkist: i can afford to lose an eyebrow
sunkist: spent too much time, money and effort on it
sunkist: hehe...not really
OpHieS: lol
OpHieS: we'll show em up
sunkis: i just have senior pics coming up
OpHie: oooo
sunkist: and i really dont feel like penciling them in for an upclose pic
OpHieS: HAHAH

Home is where the heart is.......

=) my dad finally came home after 3 weeks in hong kong. So when Uncle Willie honked outside our door........

(three chinese females jump a 5'10" male in the driveway after he exits a honda accord)
girls: DAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dad: HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
(family walks towards the front door....i'm following my dad and i notice something funny.)
me: uh... dad....your shirt's on backwards.......
dad: OHHHH geez..no wonder everyone was looking at my funny....they looked at me like i was a stylish man from the states...hehe...and OH.. no wonder my shirt felt so funny.
me: uh...u had ur shirt on backwards for 27 hrs?!?!?!
mom and isabel: *hysterical laughter*

yeah... missed my dad more than i thought i did. Praise the Lord he came home safely! My calculus/physics tutor is home!! hehe..jp... naw my *words cant describe* awesome dad IS HOME!!

so... savoring my last day on aim for a while.... blog email phone...my last resort to the outside word...*gasps for breath!* heh.. i'll survive.

Aim high.......

so Vivian and I have once again made an aim pact. Just so the resta u guys can keep us accountable....
If you see either of us on aim after tuesday, for a duration of two weeks, tell us to go shave an eyebrow. issue a notice something like this:
I'm sorry to inform you that you've worn out your welcome on aim, please head immediately to the nearest bathroom and remove an eyebrow.

so yeah...if u needa reach me....u kno where to find me. I check email daily.....phoning once in a while wudnt kill either. and i'll update my blog... so tag me. so what's the purpose of this you mite ask? Herm... well lotsa stuff to do in the next coupla weeks, we figure....a little of time from aim will be good for us. Think of all the things you can accomplish without aim for two week. but dont worry, i shud be back before you know it.

what i wish life was like.....

what would the phrase "hurt my feelings" be considered in the english language? Are feelings tangible...or are they a part of being in touch with yourself? so then would it be considered a thing... or is it abstract? *randomness*

sometimes the hardest thing is knowing what the right thing to do is and actually following through with it. maybe things dont seem better after u've done the right thing... but it sure feels dang good to get it off your shoulders no? And doesnt it just put a smile on ur face to know that God smiles when he sees you knew the right thing and you did the right thing? I think we learn some of life's most precious lessons when we do the things that are the most difficult to do. Thinking back in time, a lot of the responses i have to the things that happen to me have changed over the years. The result of having to deal with the tough stuff, changes your perspective on other situations.

Are you confident that what happens in life happens for a reason? I was talking with Mandy the other day and i told her, "If it's meant to be, it'll happen, He'll make it happen." Then she reminded me that i've been saying that phrase since i was a freshman...heh. After all that i've experienced since then... i believe it without a doubt. Knowing that you're in good Hands makes worries and struggles seem so much smaller.

herm... a certain jay xiao character got me hooked on another Jay Chou song. --->Tornado<--- he's definitely up there on koo asian pop stars list. ^_^ dude.. Louis Koo has a new music video *hyperventilation* but yea... noobody can take the place of the forever-oh-so-awesome Louis. *littlebox to the max*

4 day week... bring it on.

YOUTH TALENT SHOW!!!!
where: fort bend community church
when: sat, sept 27th
time: 7:00pm
cost: $5.00 (price goes up 9/21)
IF YOU WANT A TICKET, LET ME KNO ASAP!!!!

*there are some tired women that you never wanna mess with*

that's just a heading...nothing implied...heh

after i got home from cbs today.. i was crazy tired. so i planned to take a nap, but then i lost track of time just doing who knows wut....then BAM i hadda go to stafford lanes for volunteering. Well, i mapquested the place....and the map quest took me all the way to Bellaire...so i was like.. wtp...cuz... mich told him it was a ways down from her place. So then im driving down 90....and i turn back around... and as i looked at a sign that said hwy59...and gasped a little.......i saw stafford lanes!!!!!!!! *sigh*...wut an adventure.

forgot wut i was gonna say... sleepy.. nite

distance and time has nothing to do with it........

well..... the status of my physics test. -->*poo poo* but life goes on.

CBS lock-in was quite da bomb. It was koo just to chill with the girls, play "I have never" with the group, and seeing some... crazy butt spelling. ^_* Not only did i discover that Gloria laughs hysterically when she's ubber tired, (not to mention it's contagious), and stupid people make viv laugh, but i also learned that i sleep talk. See before... i only thought that i laughed in my sleep...but as the girls tell me.... i say stuff like "NO IM NOT" when im sleeping. And the funny thing was, i knew, while i was sleeping, that i'd said something in my sleep. CUZ i was simplying replying to what deb was saying. altho... i didnt respond quite the way she wanted me to when she asked for the time. nonetheless... i was concious of my talking.

Yesterday went to Panera with the ladies. So i got french onion soup with the bread bowl, but i didnt want the bread bowl, so then Juice and i went back to the lady to tell her that i didnt want the bread bowl and she thought we meant that the people had gotten my order wrong...but they really didnt....so then she gave me a free bowl of soup. So then i ended up getting 2 bowls of soup...and a bread bowl for the price of one soup. Herm.. felt bad that i got more soup ..but i wasnt suppose to....but they told me to keep it. so i had the same thing for dinner last nite and lunch today. good stuff....
boy.. i cud sure use a fruit by the foot, gushers, or fruit snacks rite about now..or an apple shud suffice... gonna go eat my apples!!!!!........peace out

I love you for always I love you forever as long as you're with me my baby you'll be.......

that book is an awesome book.....remember reading it?

today was the first cbs. I love my cbs group! DEB is awesome! yeah... she's my entire cbs group...for now=P CBS will definitely be a quite different from dgroups. But it's kewl that my group is so small right now cuz.. it'll be super awesome to see the groups grow.

im currently suffering from long time no workout after math. I havent felt this sore......in .... i cant even remember the last time i hurt this much. But i'm surprised that my shins arent hurting....that's a first. but then again... almost every other muscles aches...full body workout forreal!
so i was sitting in the kitchen and my shoulder were so tight you cudnt really squeeze the tightness out of them....so then my mommy gave me a massage. then 5 seconds later all the tightness came back. so when i was abt to give up, i asked isabel to give me a massage. it's hard to believe that a 7year old gives super massages. It's crazy....

*yawn* tired. pillow calls.

brains fart.....

the greatest achievement of my senior year happened tonight. My goal for the past two years has been to run around the lake near my house (about 3 miles) without stopping. I've always had to stop for at least 10 seconds to catch my breath. However, tonight i decided i needed to run; since i havent run in approximately 3 months. SO i went... i ran... i conquered. I ran the entire circumference of the lake neighborhood without stopping!!!! *shocked* i think what did it was listening to music while i ran. After i got back to my driveway... i actually wanted to make another lap, but i decided to go do strenghths instead. my life is complete. hehe...

for the past 20 minutes.... i've been staring at my college essay prompt. dontcha just hate it when you know wut you wanna say....but u cant put it into words? I've always disliked essays, only because im not anything amazing when it comes to writing them. In fact, it's an obstacle for me to write essays. But they're worth the right noh?

herm... im seriously having second thoughts abt physics. Althought i really like the class.... i just got the worst grade in the history of my high school career in there. It was amazing.... getting THAT grade was actually possible.... i practically laughed for 45 minutes. But no regrets.... what's happened..happened...wut's meant to happen has.... who knows y God stuck me in physics when i wanted to drop it....maybe time will heal these poor grades. pft*

college essay numba 3.......cant wait till the storm clears. *sigh*

gien gien dine dine aiyh......

it's a bummer i dont know pin yin =P

Is it possible to ever be satisfied with your college essay? I'll answer that myself....NO! I've spent the past 3 days trying to formulate my multitude-set-aparter essay, but to no avail. Although i do find some satisfaction in believing that after several revisions, my product is better than what i began with. The first essay that i wrote, i totally changed the entire thing the second time around. However, I'm still trying to finish up my second essay. Actually, i'm sorta enjoying this whole writing essay business. Although it's over the fringe of tediousness, but I think i discover new things about myself as i write these bad boys.

was reading diane's "blog" today, and clicked the link to view UW's new computer science building.....DUDE...it's the most beautiful thing EVER.. it's so awesome. It has SOOO many windows!!!! and stairs!!!!! What cracked me up a lot was a picture of this guy sitting on the balcony area. This guy looked asian, which isnt surprising considering it IS a computer science building in seattle. But the funny part was the site had lotsa pictures of the new building, and there were several pictures of the asian cs guy, and in every picture, the camera angle is a little different, but the asian dude is still there sitting in front of his laptop. heheh... funny stuff.

i cant believe it's the end of the 6th weeks next week..... nightmare. It's time to put up my amor and be a fighter.

life is like a box of chocolates......

My computer is once again being disfunctional and i cant seem to turn it on, so it'll be a problem for me to print out essay that's due...oh.. tomorrow. Then.... the other dilema....i've forgotten how to write essays, namely the personal kind. I cant completely appreciate those essays that ask for "the qualities that make you a good match for our learning community". say wut? maaan.......i managed to finish half of that essay last night, talk abt major struggle of the century. But you gotta do what you gotta do...and this must be done.

so had quite an adventure today. Juice, jeremy, and i ventured to the Rice library, which apparently you hadda be18 to go to, but they let us in anyhow. We spent 45 minutes searching the back of the third floor for the Dostoyevsky books, and as it turned out we were searching on the wrong back side of the third floor. I think im going to have nightmares about library books. SOOO many books...and sooo many shelves on Dostoyevsky......oiy. When we finally finished finding our resources, it was about 5ish. We'd told my mom that we'd meet her at Jamba Juice in Rice village. It took us about 25 minutes to walk there. It was a nice walk, i guess. i definitely wudda enjoyed it more if i didnt have several essays to write waiting for me at home. But when we finally reached Jamba Juice, my mom treated us to a nice.... extremely LARGE serving of Jamba Juice. maan.. it was so juicey and refreshing after our sticky, humid, in the texas cool air kinda walk.
it rained like a mofo on the way home. my mom was like, "ahh i cant see, ok everyone, time to pray". The rain was crazy. There was flooding everywhere. bummer the flood's gone now, and school will not be excused due to inclimate weather. *pft
enuf gibbering jabber...imma go write me some essays.......

dont be afraid to speak it cuz u never kno who needs to hear it

herm.. it's quite difficult to keep a postive attitude when the skies are gray. Both in a literal and abstract sense.... dude... a zeugma...woot.

so many quizzes today...and besides the fact that i was completely clueless....i did not enjoy taking them at all. But definitely lesson learned from that. You cant ever study enough.

well im pumped for this weekend, altho quite busy..... imagine me being productive and once again.. chump to the extreme. and im not kidding either. i think.. with adequate sleep.. i can get my creative juices pumping...and WAM... a college entry worthy essay.

read ephesians 6 last nite. definitely something i need to hear. One thing I thank God for, time.

i've been lost without you these past few weeks......

dang... i cudnt stand it anymore.... i had to relieve my nap cravings today. these past few days.. i've been ubber tired. i realized that if i put my will into it, i can stay up even if my head says, "go to sleep!" So for the past few weeks i've been determined not to nap, and thus far it was good. My full intention was to not sleep, get all my work done and sleep early. For the most part my goal was attainable. However, the consequence of that was that i'd get extremely tired and do odd things like....fall asleep on the floor for example. so today, my past several weeks of built up non-nappage, REALLY got to me, and i just died on my couch when i got home. The funny thing was when i woke up. I was super hyper.... as if i'd been recharged... like a battery! I think the nap helped me regain my sanity... or previously lack of. maan... naps rock...but i'm still determined not to take anymore.

so this morning as i was heading out to school, i hear this zerrrrrpppp ripe outta my backpack. my dear friends, my red jansport backpack, which i've had since the 5th grade is officially dead. the zipper is irrepairable..*tear*...i've come to realize that i own a lot of backpacks....the sad part is....they all either have disfunctional zippers, broken straps, or they're too small to carry a text book. It's sad. So now, i've been forced back to my bad-for-your-back-killer messenger bag. As much as i love my messenger bag.. i dun wanna one day grow old and have back pains....and then i'd remember back to my old HS days having regrets abt using it. actually... wut am i talking abt!?!?! i DO have another backpack...it's just in my mess of a closet rite now. WOW suddenly the world doesnt seem like such a bad place. wah. dude... there's something wrong with me today....blamin it on the nap... crazy.
mission 911: find backpack

rollercoaster......

do you ever have a thought that you have all the intentions of blogging, but then when you get to the blog, the thought has been permanently discarded from your mind? yea.. just had a moment. bummer....

so as i was studying my mom came across my fourth grade class picture lying on the floor. she gave the picture a really funny look....haha. Hard to believe i was once as small as that kid that looks like me in that picture. So when i study, i usually listen to music turned up pretty loud. so then my mom was like..."do you get anything done with that noise? you go to bed around 12 or 1 every night." after that comment, i protested "no.. i go to bed at 11 or 12" then she goes on to say, "well then what were you doing lying on the floor yesterday at 12?"
apparently, i had fallen asleep reading resources for my c&p research paper without even knowing. and the weird part is....this morning i ended up in my bed. not only did i miraculously end up sleeping in my bed, but i also managed to brush my teeth, set my alarm, put my towel back in place, and place dirty clothes in the laundry.....all of which i dont recall ever doing. the last thing i remember thinking before i lost myself last night was lying on the floor reading and thinking, "boy... this floor sure is comfortable...wudnt it be funny if i fell asleep?"
speaking of which... sleep doesnt sound so bad. in fact it sounds great. im out.

something interesting Jack sent me....

Ophelia
Although your first name of Ophelia has created an expressive, fun-loving nature, it has not produced the qualities necessary for a full and complete life. You have always been a happy person, and, desiring to see others happy as well, you strive to inspire others, which you do most effectively through an engaging sense of humour. You are fond of surprises and are quick to respond to spontaneous invitations which promise a good time, particularly when they relieve you of a boring task. Your dislike for monotony and routine, often means that you do not finish the things you start. A natural rhythm, a sense of colour harmony, and creative ability contribute to a flair for composition and artistic and musical expression. Expression comes easily to you; in fact, you should learn to control it and discipline your expression. You are not practical where money matters are concerned, your theory being that money is there to be spent. You are kind and generous, and will fill a need when you see it; at times, others take advantage of your generosity. The most serious drawback of the influence of this name is in the strong emotional feelings that it produces, which are difficult to control and create lack of stability in your thinking or in your affairs. A craving for sweet foods could cause skin conditions or liver problems. You would find it difficult to control your desires and could over-indulge in your pleasures.

haha.. is that me?
wanna find out wut your name means?
http://www.pressanykey.com/cgi-bin/cgiwrap/pak/names.cgi

whoa... blogger has spell check now? tyte!

FOCUS

three words about the focus youth service this past sunday, God is awesome. I read in a book once that if people leave a service saying, "the speaker was great" the message had failed, but if the people leave the service saying, "God is great" then the mission of that message was fulfilled. (from fresh wind fresh fire, Jim Cymbala)

Our new youth center is definitely awesome to have, but worship isnt any different than how it once was when we were with the adults or when we had fellowship. If we're truely worshiping, then we're all still the same people congregating to give our hearts to God. I grew up in a church that had a building to worship in, but the building wasnt our own. And to this day, my mother church still doesnt have it's own building. It doesnt matter where God's people praise him, the building is just an added bonus. Having our Focus youth center is definitely super awesome. Come check it out sometime. Sunday mornings 10:30 at Fort Bend Community church.

not rain showers...but a shower of blessings......

i gotta say, i have a soft spot in my heart for lemonade selling little girls. So i was coming home today and i see these little girls selling lemonade in the corner, and so i made a u-turn and went over there to buy a cup of lemonade. That's the second time i've done that in the past month. I guess it's cuz i always wanted to sell lemonade on a street corner and i never had the chance to, so i want these girls to succeed in their job. The funny thing is, both times i got lemonade, it tasted the same bland, sugarless taste. =P but yea..i enjoy them anyhow.

this past week has really made me feel like a senior. There wasnt too much work, and the week was just... great. This weekend was especially great too. Mann.. God gave me some awesome friends who are... super wise and super super. It's funny how different people can see the same situation so differently. Through many different experiences in the last few months God's shown me so much through my friendships and man.. i love God and my friends so much for that. For the first time, i'm so glad that senior year has just begun and i still have so much time to enjoy this year that God's blessed me with. Sure i dont see some of my friends as often as i'd like to, all i ask is that we keep in touch. If it's a God-centered friendship, i dont think God brought us together for no reason, duh....there's a reason for everything.

anyhooo... i have a blog worthy moment to share.

person 1: herm, i gotta poo.
person 2: herm, i gotta pee.
(person 2 heads over to bathroom)
person 1: heyyy!!! dont use my bathroom to pee
person 2: hah (shuts bathroom door)
person 1: but i gotta poo.... FINE i'm gonna steal your bag!
person 2: FINE! i'm gonna steal your book! your toliet reader!!
person 1: what book?
person 2: pelican brief....and i'm gonna steal your grandma too!!
person 1: what grandma?
person 2: the one on your window sill!!
person 1: uHY!
person 2: hum.. if ur gonna poo.. u better get more toliet paper
person 1: how much toliet paper did you use?!?!?!?
person 2: wut... there's only 3 squares left!
person 1: how many squares did you use?!?!?!
person 2:...wut... i only used like.. 4!

can you withstand the test of time.......

contrary to popular emotions, i thought this four day week went by rather quickly. Maybe it was because i wasnt anticipating any three day weekend. For some reason, my attitude about this year has suddenly changed. Initially i wanted this year to go by quickly cuz after last year, i was so tired of school. As this year has progressed, nothing seems to be turning out the way i'd hoped, but everything seems awesome even so. It's been so weird how i havent fallen into the senioritis hole. The second week of school, i remember i almost let myself slip into the hole, but i prayed about it and BAM God pulled me out of the senioritis hole i was plunging myself into. Funny how the shorter you wish a week was, the longer it is. But when you dont really think about the duration of time, time kind of slips you by.

It's really uplifting to see how God's provided for SFC this year. He's brought so many believers into the club, and that's been such an answer to our prayers. When we sing together and when we congregate together, i always feel so connected to God as a body of Christ. It's also been an answer to my prayers to see how people willing want to serve. I get emails from members about how they want to contribute or how they can help out in this and that area. I'm so thankful to God for all that he's done this year. It's so easy to pray for God to answer our requests when things are going bad, but somehow i feel like i've been so blessed that i cant help but want to come to God in prayer even when things are going great. Even the simple things that God does reveals what a living Father he truely is. Although things are going well in SFC, there's always room for more prayer, so keep SFC in your prayers. thanx =)

herm.. gotta find resources for research paper this weekend. *sigh* may not be the most exciting thing in the world, but the sooner i get the task at hand accomplished, the more free time i have to do other things. plus crime and punishment seems interesting enough, who knows, maybe i'll enjoy writing an paper.

the sky's still blue, all my hope is in You.....

there was about a foot of flooding in front of my house today, quite scary. This morning, as i was tiredly heading out to the snhs meeting, i saw the most beautiful sight that temporarily woke me up. The sky was filled with bunches of clouds and there were tints of pink, blue, and violet. talk about true beauty.
i think i'm starting to enjoy eco. I think 6th period has gotta be mcgee's favorite class. We're rowdy, we're loud, we lose bathroom passes, we dont get the task at hand accomplished, but we make her laugh and she cracks us up. so after ms. mcgee's attempt to teach us today, i heard this conversation.

(person one notices this pin on person 2's bag: "C.I.A: Christians in Action")
person 1: oh, wow, what church do you go to?
person 2: I dont go to church
person 1: oh, whyz that? Is it cuz Christians are a bunch of hypocrites who dont put into action what they preach?
person 2: well, something like that. But it's more like, they're all good people, it's just they're so lazy, and i cant get myself to go to church and be with people like that.

kinna gets you thinking. Non-Christians are constantly watching Christians, people who say they live their lives differently. But when we dont walk the talk, and we continue to be lazy, or do things that dont reflect our faith, how are our lives any different from people who are just good people, and not Christians? How we act reflects who we are and if our actions are hypocritical, how do people see God living in us? The way we act can be the greatest witness of all. I guess that's one of the reasons i'm praying so hard for God to help me keep my commitments this year, cuz i really want him to mold me to be the woman that he wants me to be. It definitely can be a struggle living out your faith and just lead a earthly life instead. we're surrounded by a world that prompts us to live normal, human lives, but wuts that? So does it mean that Christians are superhumans? I dont really think so. I mean we have superhuman faith, yes. But superhuman powers? to never sin, never be lazy, never thinking bad thoughts?.....no. God faithfully gives us the strength to over come those things and that's how we can walk the talk. So my challenge to you is to be conscious of your actions. Are you walking by what you believe in?

"With a servant, a warrior, a child, a subject," writes Andrew Murray in The New Life, "obedience is indispensable, the first token of integrity."

God is my Master, my Captain, my Father, my King. I am servant, warrior, child, subject. What have I to do in any of these cases but obey?

Integrity means wholeness, unbroken condition, the quality of being unimpaired and sound. An integer is something which is complete in itself, an entity. No one can serve two masters. Divided loyalty will mean impaired obedience. "A soldier on active service will not let himself be involved in civilian affairs; he must be wholly at his commanding officer's disposal" (2 Tm 2:4 NEB).

O Christ, be Master and Captain of my life. Give me a whole heart united to do your bidding and to do nothing else. Let me hear your voice and no other. Make my life an integer for your glory. Amen.

From Elisabeth Elliot

the best songs are those that tug at the heart.....

I've listened to *that* song so many times that i've gone from understanding only 25% of the mandarin to almost 99% of it. this is great... listening to a song can improve my mandarin skills.

Today was a good day. Although ms. beck was REALLY getting on my nerves...but I know that He wants me to have patience with her, and i'm willing to sacrfice that. I feel like i got so much accomplished today. I read up on a bunch of college stuff, and then i finished all my homework, and i even finished my eco hw that's due on thursday. talk about going chump to the extreme. but why save for tomorrow what you can finish today?

i've finally reached a point in my guitaring career where i can play for longer periods of time w/o my arm hurting. now that i can play without my arm moving as much, i can even strum faster too! however, the down side is...the fingers on my right hand... are super gross. they peel and crack and just look... odd. so the sacrifice for playing guitar would be the beauty of your finger tips. herm after playing for a year... i'd say the gain is bigger than the loss ^_^

im having one of those... "boy im sure glad i'm a senior" kind of days. maybe today wasnt just good, maybe today was great. and to think... nothing had to happen....it's just an awesome feeling you get when you're a senior. or mabbe... i just need sleep ^_*

can we simply go without pain?

i'm going through another one of my song obsession phases. I still remember back many many many a time ago when me and Honer listened endlessly to Secret Love (azn dreamers!!) so now.. it's this nameless song by Jay Chou and Joy by Tim Hughes. Good songs good songs. Jay Chou is keeping me awake as i read Crime and Punishment. I realized i only read part one during the summer. So now that we're annotating the book, part one is the only part i'm actually re-reading.... dude.. so i actually get to read the book! I thoroughly enjoyed the.. *ahem*sparknotes*ahem*....and intended to read the book..and now i get to! That's probably the most enthusiasm you'll get from me this whole year about reading anytime. I gotta say... i liked Crime and Punishment better than Inivisble Man. I've always been one of those weirdos that really appreciate long... detailed... drawn out....boring novels.. heck mabbe if i had liscum.. i mitta enjoyed moby dick =P
currently, i'm taking a break from reading. i still have like.. 50 pages to go, but dont worry, i wont finish reading. Mabbe i'll read 30 more...cuz we got SFC tomorrow! meaning... i gotta get my fanny up.. ubber earlier than usual to attend our tuesday prayer and praise meetings. If you can make it, we'd love to have you.
where: 1324
when: 7:00-7:20 am

practicing getting up early is a good discipline. Of course it's one of life's most difficult tasks (or so it feels at the time) but think of it as having a longer day to live for Him. What a better way to start off a week than to spend time in prayer with fellow brother and sisters in Christ? I'm pumped... so enough of my meaningless ramblings..... time to read....and not have any dreams.... cuz.. having dreams is a sign of bad sleep. SO... i wish you all no dreams!

from the computer of she who is eating a fruit roll up

if you were wondering, the canton retreat was great. It's not everyday you get to congregate with 200+ cantons. every year i go on family retreats, and i guess i figured this one would be just like the others. Somehow, this one was a little different. I guess spending time with the high schoolers and actually somewhat having a high school program made things a little different. It felt like there was a lot less chill time than the other retreats, but it was really relaxing to be there, by the lake. I really enjoyed the speakers message on sunday. What he spoke about (end times news) is definitely a reality. It's so awesome to know that Jesus is coming back. We dont know when, but he is. So much of what the Bible has stated of the end times is gradually happening now. what do you think of that?

It rained most of the time we were there (as it is currently outside) but we still got to have fun during free time. Us young'ns got to play volleyball with the old folks (aka our parents). It was really fun, and it definitely help take my mind off of a lot of things. I cant remember the last time i played volleyball, but it was sure fun playing this time. And i finally got to watch "The Two Towers" although, i missed like the first 40 minutes or so. dude.. Gollum is funny. I dunno why, but i always have this odd tendancy to laugh at the scary parts of a movie. I honestly think they're funny. Somehow i always see it as the film makers way of trying hard to make the movie scary....but it doesnt scare me. call me weird...haha

It's down pouring like crazy outside. Somehow, the harder it rains, the more cozy my house feels. When i was younger, i didnt like the rain. Then as i got older, my opinion of that changed. I really like rainy days now. I love running in the rain. I dunno... one of my odd quirky sensations, sorta like getting the mail barefoot. And i love thunder. It's so kewl how the skies makes such a loud noise and you cant really distinguish where it's coming from because it sounds like it's coming from everywhere. I think i like it so much is because it reminds me of how powerful God is. I mean, you have no control over this freakishly loud thunder, but God does. The sound of the thunder comes from all around us, just like how God is everywhere. The thunder is shaking my house right now, but God shakes the whole earth with his glorious and mighty power. But one thing is sure, my love for thunder will never surpass my love for God.
maan.. i cant wait until winter!